Why do birds suddenly appear
Every time you are near?
Just like me, they long to be
Close to you.
Why do stars fall down from the sky
Every time you walk by?
Just like me, they long to be
Close to you.
On the day that you were born
The angels got together
And decided to create a dream come true
So they sprinkled moon dust in your hair of gold
And starlight in your eyes of blue.
- The Carpenters

firstly happy birthday to my dearest auntie alizah.
bought for her a little pressie just now.
was really glad that she liked the present.
then i waited for her till her interview with someone who wants to publish her company whatever it is lah.
then she sent me off to work.
feel really lonely today.


i just don't understand you.
i am your own daughter but you will NEVER want to believe whatever i said.
eventhough i told you the truth you still won't give me your trust.
do you even realise that you trust your niece more than your OWN daughter?
i tried my best to everything that can please you but nothing works.
what more do want from me?
do you even realise because you trust your niece more makes me like this?
you expect me to go out with her wherever i go.
you expect me to bring her along wherever i go.
and you expect me to tell her wherever i go.
is she you daughter or AM I?
i feel that i am not you daughter at all.
you know i am really sensitive and you criticise me more about it.
you always compare me with your other nieces.
i know i am the WORST, VERY SENSITIVE and WORTHLESS daughter you ever had.
i know. and i wished i wasn't even born in this world if everything i do is not what you expected.
yes, i AM SENSITIVE and u born me like this.
i just want to apologise to you for whatever i mistakes i've done to you.
i know i can't be like syahirah whom you always praise.
i am sorry that i am STUPID and i can't be clever like indah or even kak rina.
so much for me telling you truth.
and so much for me helping you out and keeping my mouth shut always whenever you scold me nowadays.
i don't know what else i can do to please you cause it seems that whatever i do now just make you angry.
so now i decided to just keep my mouth shut in the house.
i will be like a mute girl that you have wished to be born in the house.


i am sorry if nowadays i've been in low spirits.
i really feel lonely cause my family are giving me all those attitudes.
i really feel left out by own family.
you yourself always spend you time with your friends.
i am not complaining.
it's ok with me if you want to go out with your friends.
i just hope you know when i am lonely and i really hope you will be there for me when i need you.
i don't like the lonely feeling that's all.


kak rin, if you're reading this i just want to apologise k.
i know i've not been the sis that you want me to be.
but if you want to leave me out like the others then i am ok with it.
take care always.

let your heart out.

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