Why do birds suddenly appear
Every time you are near?
Just like me, they long to be
Close to you.
Why do stars fall down from the sky
Every time you walk by?
Just like me, they long to be
Close to you.
On the day that you were born
The angels got together
And decided to create a dream come true
So they sprinkled moon dust in your hair of gold
And starlight in your eyes of blue.
- The Carpenters
life's great!!!
yesterday was the day for the gala premier for Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtle.
the movie was ok lah.
but love thought it was illogical cause the ninjas was supossed to be fighting with the shredder.
but the fact is shredder is DEAD dear.
and yesterday they were fighting with the 3000 years myths.
never mind if you are telling people around not to watch the movie, but i do enjoyed it.
oh wells....
yesterday was the day i got to meet love after 1 week and two days of not meeting him.
the first we met yesterday guess what we did?
we FOUGHT!
yes...because i was late and he was in a bad mood as he was having a bad flu.
he kept sneezing in the cinema.
poor him.
but everything went back to normal after the movie and on the way home.
we joked around.
with my next pay which i will be getting next week.
i want to shop, IF the money is enough for me to go shopping lah.
the new bed that i bought last saturday have arrived safely just now.
i love my new bed. hehehe...nut the mattress have yet to arrive.
i just can't wait to sleep on my new bed today.
woohoo!!!!
now i want to eat my lunch and get ready for work.
have to wait for dad to reach home with my pokka green tea.
it just add up to appetite while eating my lunch.
yum yum....
toodles~
let your heart out.
firstly happy birthday to my dearest auntie alizah.
bought for her a little pressie just now.
was really glad that she liked the present.
then i waited for her till her interview with someone who wants to publish her company whatever it is lah.
then she sent me off to work.
feel really lonely today.
i just don't understand you.
i am your own daughter but you will NEVER want to believe whatever i said.
eventhough i told you the truth you still won't give me your trust.
do you even realise that you trust your niece more than your OWN daughter?
i tried my best to everything that can please you but nothing works.
what more do want from me?
do you even realise because you trust your niece more makes me like this?
you expect me to go out with her wherever i go.
you expect me to bring her along wherever i go.
and you expect me to tell her wherever i go.
is she you daughter or AM I?
i feel that i am not you daughter at all.
you know i am really sensitive and you criticise me more about it.
you always compare me with your other nieces.
i know i am the WORST, VERY SENSITIVE and WORTHLESS daughter you ever had.
i know. and i wished i wasn't even born in this world if everything i do is not what you expected.
yes, i AM SENSITIVE and u born me like this.
i just want to apologise to you for whatever i mistakes i've done to you.
i know i can't be like syahirah whom you always praise.
i am sorry that i am STUPID and i can't be clever like indah or even kak rina.
so much for me telling you truth.
and so much for me helping you out and keeping my mouth shut always whenever you scold me nowadays.
i don't know what else i can do to please you cause it seems that whatever i do now just make you angry.
so now i decided to just keep my mouth shut in the house.
i will be like a mute girl that you have wished to be born in the house.
i am sorry if nowadays i've been in low spirits.
i really feel lonely cause my family are giving me all those attitudes.
i really feel left out by own family.
you yourself always spend you time with your friends.
i am not complaining.
it's ok with me if you want to go out with your friends.
i just hope you know when i am lonely and i really hope you will be there for me when i need you.
i don't like the lonely feeling that's all.
kak rin, if you're reading this i just want to apologise k.
i know i've not been the sis that you want me to be.
but if you want to leave me out like the others then i am ok with it.
take care always.
let your heart out.
why do i have such a sucky life?
my mother is ALWAYS siding you.
you are ALWAYS the good one and i am ALWAYS the bad one.
whatever you say my mother will ALWAYS believe you.
if you say you both do care about me then it's good enough.
like what people always say: action speaks louder than words.
the feeling sucks when someone in your own family doesn't believe you.
if whatever happened to me have happened to you then you will feel whatever i'm feeling now.
everything between me and love is greatly fine.
eventhough we have a lot of misunderstandings going on between us we managed to solve it within a few minutes and we will back to normal.
alhamdullilah we are both getting on fine.
yesterday's farewell party was fine.
we had great time together.
his friends were also great.
i am really sorry i was in a bad mood just now.
i didn't meant to spoil your day but i was really not in the mood.
i'm really sorry.
let your heart out.
all the things in my life are getting on fine now.
back to my late work place and busy with my work there.
on tuesday i was working with my aunt's company at shangri lah hotel cause her company provides with all the equipments for any conferences.
me, my cousin and my dear fela.
we had lots of fun doing the job although it ends late.
it was kind of a relaxing job actually.
mr lee kuan yew was of the speakers on the forum and i envy him.
i wish i could have a brain like his cause eventhough he's old he still have that brain that young people now do not have.
he's kind of cute when he smiles and laughs.
haha...ok stop it people might think im crazy.
kak rina, not to worry about my previous post it has absolutely nothing to do with you.
i also would not want you to know whom i referring to.
people might think i take things too hard but that's what i am.
just take care of my little niece in ur belly.
i can't wait for her arrival next month.
for sure she's going to be as beautiful and smart like you.
but not as mischevious as her elder brother hopefully.
saturday love will be having his farewell party.
i don't know whether i want to go or not cause basically it's his farewell party and i want him enjoy his day with his friends.
on sunday it's his family day and his mother wants me to come over.
we'll see how for tomorrow.
but as for sunday i will go for the picnic cause mum knows i will going out and i have her permission already.
but for tomorrow i will have to think about it first.
as for now, i want to think what i want to wear for work today.
will update more if i feel like it.
toodles~
let your heart out.
you're MUCH MUCH more preetier than me.
everyone KNOWS that and they can SEE that.
it's the fact isn't it?
i know it.
you and your sister are the good daughters among all our cousins.
you girs are the preetiest, the cleverest, the ones who always knows how to dress themselves up.
and not to forget you girls are everyone's favourites.
i am just a piece of shite in people's eyesight.
that's the cause that whenever i go out with you girls i will always, ALWAYS look down on myself.
that's also the cause why i rarely meet up with you girls or even slept over your house like how i used to.
i know you girls will say that you don't mean it that way but i can feel it.
i can really feel it and it feels really sucks. i hate the feeling.
i thought i could look up on to you girls whenever i had a problem but now i realise that i am not up to you girls standard.
i know im not as preety as you girls.
im not as clever as you girls.
i just make people feel disgusted a lot when they look, talk or even with me.
you girls are the pearls and anybody's eyes.
you girls are the best in everything.
yesterday was the worst feeling i ever had in my life.
i just can't keep the feelings in me any longer.
i justhad to pour everything out yesterday.
kak fiza, im really sorry the date didn't work out as how it was supossed to be.
im really sorry.
hakim, thank you for talking to me and ease a little of burden yesterday.
i am really thankful for your help and your listening ears.
you're such a great pal.
the bright moon that we watched yesterday just soothe my heart my even more.
i thank you for being there for me ALWAYS when i need a shoulder to cry on.
thank you for wiping away my tears and thank you for making me realise something that i don't even know.
Tercipta Untukku
menatap indahnya senyuman diwajahmu
membuat ku terdiam dan terpaku
mengerti akan hadirnya cinta terindah
saat kau peluk mesra tubuhku
banyak kata
yang tak mampu kuungkapkan
kepada dirimu
aku ingin engkau slalu
hadir dan temani aku
disetiap langkah yang meyakiniku
kau tercipta untukku
sepanjang hidupku
aku ingin engkau slalu
hadir dan temani aku
disetiap langkah yang meyakiniku
kau tercipta untukku
meski waktu akan mampu
memanggil seluruh ragaku
ku ingin kau tau
kuslalu milikmu
yang mencintaimu
sepanjang hidupku
let your heart out.
i am feeling really low today.
bad mood really make everyone's day go worse.
so much for the promise WE made for not keeping anything from each other.
ya as if.
all along it's been you who keeps anything that you're mad about.
i don't want to say anything more.
i don't want to find fault with you.
so i guess tomorrow will be a bad mood day for you.
so there's high chances that we're not meeting.
suit yourself then.
meet your friends and enjoy yourself as if you don't have anyone to think about.
plans for tomorrow is getting lesser.
itah is working.
and that someone is BAD MOOD.
one last hope i am putting on is my future-sis-in-law to be.
hopefully she will contact me and confirm with me as soon as possible.
i don't want to make myself think too much.
now i am getting ready to meet fela.
take the pics and cool myself down without his help.
so long then.
toodles~
let your heart out.
the last time i saw you,
there's a big wide change i see in you.
but whatever it is i wish you luck in your new relationship.
the pay i got on wednesday,
was really lesser than usual.
it's all because of the chinese new year celebration.
i really have to cut down on my expenses and save this pay of mine till i get my next pay.
or else i just have to diet myself and restrain myself from treating myself to eat delicous food.
i have a lot of plans coming up this saturday.
since my plan of working this sat is taken up by someone else so...
might as well i go out and enjoy myself.
ya, as i said,
love asked me to accompany him to visit his cousin who just received a new born family.
it's either he wants to go and visit his little new born family or go to esplanade and meet his friends.
i also thought of asking kak fiza out to bugis to find her jeans.
that will happen if she wants to go.
its been a long time since i last saw this lovely sis-in-law to be of mine.
i missed her like hell.
my third plan is that i want to meet my darling itah.
she's the second person that i missed too.
so she came up with the plan of meeting up this sat to catch up with the old times.
she planned to sit at starbucks.
all the list above are my plans for this sat.
but i'll decide which to entertain first.
because im a girl of my word(is there such thing?)hahaha.
ya so we'll see what plans of above happened.
now i want to go and watch my future-dream-forever husband show.
PRISON BREAK!!!
hehee....toodles~
let your heart out.