had class photo taking todae.
iqh wasn't in the pic as she went home early.
sick lah ape lah.
my day in sch was reli bored without the crazy girl around.
hahaha....
today the weather was reli COOL!!!!
i was shivering in the class even though i wore a jacket.
hahaha.
even during mendaki classes i wore two jackets on me.
still cold.
hahaha...
looks like i won't survive in cold countries.
i will die frozen there.
i just can't stand the cold.
wish that someone could be here hugging me making me feel warm.
hahahaha.....
tomorrow gonna have art remedials after sch.
haiz...sick and tired of art!!!
when can all this end?
we have to hand in our supporting studies next two weeks.
yet i have lots to be done.
im gonna be dead if all this is not done during tt week.
shyts man...
got to go oreadi.
wanna catch my hikmah show.
heee....
teuku ryan is so charming...
hahahaha....
toodles~
let your heart out.
coolness for the NDP preview just now.
i just love the night scenery and the fireworks.
u ppl shld know tt i reli love nite scenery, nature scenery
and of course anyting tts colourful.
the fireworks were reli just behind our seats.
hee...
overall i enjoyed myself but my butt is tired of seating for hours.
reached at the stadium at 4+ and had to wait like 1 1/2 hrs for the ting to start.
the sun was reli burning us there.
all of us were sweating like mad.
SI were also there and they were rounding at the stadium.
was hoping to see hady and rahimah face to face but didn't.
instead we got to meet jay, nurul, joakim and mathilda.
not tt reli upclose but clear enough to see thier faces.
hee...
yeah and the emcees for the preview was cool too.
shiek haikel, gurmit singh, michle sometin and the other one i forget.
hahaha...STM lah.
and now my legs are damn tired.
we had to walk a long way from the stadium to the bus stop.
after tt proceeded to coffee shop to have our dinner with my aunts.
and now at home updating my bloggy.
i've freshen myself up.
and my bed is calling me.
so dead tired.
but still i have some energy to tok on the phone.
so long nvr tok to him.
k lah wanna tok to him.
been ages....
MISS YOU SO MUCH!!!
let your heart out.
today...
i CABOT 1 period earlier for sch...
hee...
naughty rite?
i know...
sch was DAMN bored.
most of the students in sch went to TP for preparation of the concert.
the teachers wun even notice us.
so yeah.
went home logged on comp played till afternoon.
after tt sleep untill 7.
eat, bath and back online.
now updating and later dunno wat to do.
no one's online accept for few whom i rarely chat with.
he oso never msg me.
haiz....
BORED!!!!!!!!
but tomorrow im goin to celebrate with the other citizens of singapore.
hahaha...
i mean goin to watch the NDP preview.
its been ages since i went for the preview.
the last one i remebered was when i was pri 5.
ten yrs ago.
hahahaha...
something in sch pissed me off today.
yest i nvr go to sch rite.
so how was i suppose to know tt there will be a rehearsal at TP yest.
and tt girl didn't even bother to tell me when she was the one who signed my name up.
idiot seh.
i oso wanna watch the concert.
i was so hoping to mit the ex changkats.
IDIOT!!!!
haiz.
maybe its just my luck not to mit them.
but nvm....
k lah wanna log out.
toodles~
are you serious abt this relationship or not?
just curious abt it....
let your heart out.
today...
hee...
never go school....
having a reli bad headache...
feel like vomitting oso but can't cos im fasting again today.
but today im fasting not bcos of paying back but bcos of bulan REJAB.
i want to get more pahala than sins u know.
n todae i have the craving for mcdonalds.
have the thinking of breaking my fast wif mcdonalds food.
hee...
see how lah.
nieways i was supposed to accompany iqah to bishan to buy her medicine.
but i was too sick to go out.
so sorie my gf.
hee....
k lah now i have to accompany my sis to the shop.
she wanna buy something.
so will update again if im not lazy.
hee...
toodles~
y ppl bother abt my life when they dun understand me?
let your heart out.
after all im still alive.
hee...
things btwn me n mum are ok oreadi.
n at last i got to watch my high sch musical!!!
hahaha....
monday had maths mendaki.
monday was reli a tiring day for me.
had a reli long day in sch.
yest had art remedial.
yest was ok.
i was actually paying back my fast but i break fast halfway cos the weather was reli hot.
i couldn't take it.
hee...
but today i fast full day cos i ate something in the morning.
yeap yeap.
and today had english mendaki.
everything went on fine.
even got chocs.
hee...yummylicious.
n today unfortunately, im SICK!!!!!!
having a bad flu.
maybe having fever soon.
but i won't fall sick easily cause im STRONG.
hee...
nieways still tinking whether i shld go to sch tomorrow.
feeling so weak oreadi.
see how lah eh tomorrow.
ouh yah before i and my post todae.....
HEPI B'DAE EZAL!!!!!!!!!
hee...
old oreadi.
but however old he is he's still the best.
wish u all the best in everything u do.
love ya lots!!!
hahahaha....
k lah i'll end my post here.
tired and no energy oreadi.
toodles~
loving u more than ever everyday.....
let your heart out.
nieways after this post if i never write any post animore.
tt means im DEAD k.
i tink i've hurt a lot of ppl feelings even my mum.
out of all her children im the one tt give hell to her.
yelah mak.
dlm byk anak mak aziemah yg paling tak gune.
aziemah yg paling susahkan hidop mak.
aziemah yg paling kasi mak nangis byk.
aziemah beban mak YG PALING BESAR.
aziemah yg paling bodoh.
aziemah yg byk sakit kan ati mak.
kalau boleh mak nak buang aziemah kan.
takpe lah mak.
mak buat je ape mak nak kat aziemah.
mak nak tau kenape aziemah slalu bbl kat tepon?
pasal aziemah nak bbl ngan orang yg boleh aziemah bilang masalah.
da byk kali aziemah cuba nak kongsi masalah aziemah dekat mak.
tapi aziemah tau mak tak kan paham.
semua aziemah ckp mak tak pernah nak percaye
.mak lagi percaye ckp org.mak lagi syg anak2 org lain.
mak lagi suke memuji anak2 org lain.
mak pernah ke puji aziemah bile aziemah dpt ape2 award?
mak pernah tak dtg ape2 award atau performance yg aziemah buat untuk kasi sokongan?aziemah sedar aziemah nie anak mcm mane dlm hidup mak.sebagai mane aziemah buat buat pon semua nye tak baik dan tak betol dlm hidup mak.
aziemah da berubah mcm mane pon tetap mak pikir tak cukop.
aziemah nak ucap terima kasih byk2 kat mak sebab masih mampu bersabar
ngan perangai aziemah yg mcm SETAN nie.
aziemah nak mintak ampun byk2 dari hujung rambut
sampai lah ke hujung kaki pasal aziemah da byk menyusahkan,
da byk kasi mak nangis, byk menyakitkan hati mak dan byk buat dosa pada mak.
aziemah tak tau mcm mane nak mintak ampun berdepan ngan mak pasal aziemah rase malu.
aziemah tau aziemah anak yg paling tak bergune dlm rumah nie.
kalau aziemah bkn anak kandung mak, mak da lame nak buang aziemah kan.
aziemah paham mak.
kalau boleh pon aziemah nak tinggal kan rumah nie pasal
aziemah da tak nak menyusahkan sape2 lagi kat dlm rumah nie
terutama sekali mak.
sekali lagi aziemah mintak ampun byk2 kat mak.
byk2 ampun.
let your heart out.
a stranger whom i never tok to.
a stranger whom i never seen before,
suddenly came to me asking why my face is like this.
so many questions she asked.
and from the questions...
boy i know IM RELI DAMN UGLY!!!!
for those ppl who r reading this.
if u guys agree with wat i said pls do leave a tag n pls do say im UGLY.
even my cousins, my OWN sister n a UNKNOWN STRANGER even tinks so.
i tink u guys tinks so too rite.
what would u feel if ppl keep saying n keep asking about ur fcuking face.
my good fren comforted me by saying its part of a teenage life cos its a growing stage.
but why the others dun understand me?
because of my damn fcuking face, i dun have tghe confidance to do anything.
and because of that oso i quit tarian.
im afraid to go to places that have a lot of people walking around.
cos i feel im the ugliest one of all and everyone will be DISGUSTED looking my UGLY face.
i know my close schfrens have been saying its a growing stage.
but when the ppl around me like my aunts and cousins keep asking abt face i feel like runing away from this world.
it reli sucks when it happens to u all the time.
so many bad things happened over the weekend.
i cried a lot and keep things to myself.
i dun even know who to tok to cos i tink they dun understand me.
and wif my UGLY face i dun tink ppl will even want to tok to me.
this is for that person who HAVE BEEN WAKEN UP BY HIS COUSIN....
i think u are reli moving on wif ur life.
cos by the way i see ur behaviour yesterday, i assumed that u're reli hepi wif ur life.
tenkiu for bein there for me last time.
and tenkiu for sounding so hepi when u talked to me yest.
let your heart out.
ARGH!!!!
miss tt person a lot!!!!
a lot!!!
todae once again no mood for anything.
after sch went home straight.
no mood to hang out anywhere.
tomorrow will be having SS test but i have yet studied anything.
wonder if i can pass this test.
went t bank b4 goin home to deposit the bursary award i got.
$150 is enough for me.
alhamdullilah i got it.
k lah wanna get started on my SS.
till here then.
gosh!!! tomorrow i nid to fast to pay back my ramadan fast.
shyts!!!
toodles~
no msgs or call frm you reli make me miss you.
do you miss me too...¿?
let your heart out.
monday blues is here todae....
i dunno why but i just dun have the mood.
sat for the O level listening comprehension just now.
ok lah but the questions were tricky.
hopefully i can get at least 18/20.
haiz...
lets just wait for the results then next month.
pray hard for me aite guys.
yest i did went out.
but oni for a while.
hehe...
went to beach road.
a scary but fun experience journey.
wish i could have tt kind of experience again.
yest was my sis b'dae.
and boy she was so lucky to get a bf wif big pockets.
she got an mp3 the same as mine wif the mp3 skin.
and a titus watch.
haiz...
so lucky ah she...
nieways i dunno wats got into fadly this day.
he never called me oreadi.
tried to call him yest nite but his mum picked up the phone.
so i hung up the phone just like tt.
bad rite me.
wat to do.
and i even passed the msg fela n rahim.
but dun give a damn abt it.
wateva lah eh.
if he wants to give me tt kind of attitude go ahead k.
ali u have ur own thinking.
if i did something wrong but forgive me k.
k lah. my nyai's here.
nid to entertain her.
till here then.
toodles~
can u understand wats inside my heart.
i nid to meet u.
let your heart out.
happy birthday to you
happy birthday to you
happy birthday to KAK EKIN
happy birthday to you
yeah...
today's her birthday n she's 26 yrs old oreadi.
old rite? but u will be shocked to see her
cos she's much more shorter n smaller than me
but she's way preetier than me.
obviously cos im the ugliest on this earth u can say.
wateva it is..
yest i reli had a lot of food
went out wif the b'dae girl, my bro n elder cousins.
firstly the girls went to beach road n i ate fried rice.
then we made some shopping.
i bought 2 pairs of ear studs n 2 pairs of shirts.
after shopping at beach road we headed back to bugis.
waited for the guys cos they were at sim lim square
proceeded to the chinese halal coffeeshop at bugis.
i shared the fried fish soup without the milk wif my elder cousin.
i told my sis i wanna eat ice cream n my elder cousin planned to treat us to swensens.
but unfortunately the swensens restaurant at bugis was on full house.
luckily my elder cousin has a driving lesson so he drove us to parkway parade.
n luck is on our side, the restaurant there was not reli on full house.
we ordered the earthquake ice cream n two side dish.
by the time we finished up all the food my stomach was reli bloated.
i reli had a lot of food yest.
haiz...
look like i reli have to work more this friday at the gym.
hee...
by the way yest i was upset by something.
onli he knows....
k lah...
till here then...
toodles~
let your heart out.
CRACK CRACK!
tts the sound tt is produced by my bones.
went to the gym just now.
wif nenen, zira, eton and audrey.
the very first time goin to gym it is just now.
so paisey seh.
mcm org 'jakun'.
i did the cycling thing, trying to produce some abs.
hahaha.
actually did a lot of workout.
in the morning had my 2.4km nafa test.
got 15.20 for my running.
bad rite. i know.
but wat do to do.
nvm. im planning to go to the gym every friday.
reli have the urge to sustain some muscles n abs.
hee...
wanna be fit and strong.
whooohooo.
this week of schling not bad.
nth much happened.
its just tt i had a fight again wif my mum the other time.
but we're ok now.
hee...
just glad tt there's someone who can make me smile even though im down.
after goin to the gym i feel so much energetic.
its just tt i feel a lil bit aching here n there.
n i tink im gonna have an early nite todae.
one while day of exercising.
not bad huh.
hee...
nieways the other post i did write a paragraph rite.
n i sound reli stressful rite.
but nvm.
now i just leave it to watever she wanna do.
if she tink what she doin rite now is rite then up to her.
she 'MATURED' enough to tink.
its just no use to drool and stressed up abt ppl hu dun appreciate u.
i just wonder whether she reali appreciate me for the past few years we're together.
n if she's reli using me for the past years then im just a fool.
can't blame her.
wateva it is i have to treasure those ppl who appreciate me.
n i will want to appreciate ppl who treasure me in their life.
dun wanna tok to much oreadi.
till here then i will end my post.
gonna have an early nite todae.
veri tired.
toodles~
let your heart out.
halu halu haluuuu!!!!
hee...
long time never update my blog....
there's oni one for it...
LAZY!!!!
yeah yeah...
nieways nth much happened for the past few days.
its just tt my mp3 has been making probs.
but its ok after charging it.
dunno wats got into it.
oh yeah...before anything....
CONGRATS TO ISTIKADAYAWANA!!!!
for winning the second runner up position at the fiestari comp.
at last changkat defeated eastspring sec n cranberra sec.
hee....
at the effort u guys put in are all worthwhile.
so proud of u guys.
oh yah....
todae had my mother toungue O level oral.
haiz...
bad...
very bad...
reli bad....
i was so nervous tt i forget one word.
the word 'taking advantage' in malay.
sheesh!
it was supossed to be 'mengambil kesempatan'
but i just sat there in front of hte examiners and say nth.
stupid rite?
i know...
wat to do.
im just born to be like tis.
but hopefully everything will go on fine....
nieways here's a paragraph tt i reli want to let out
i reli dunno wats inside ur mind
n im reli wondering wats the cause of ur cold attitude towards me
i reli dun understand
if i make a mistake
pls do forgive me
everyone makes a mistake n everyone deserves to be forgiven
same goes to me n you
if i can forgive u
y can't u forgive me
i just want u to remember tt everyone has their patience limit
i can still be patient with ur attitude now
as long as i can be patient, i will just keep quiet
k lah till here then....
there's some pics below
so do take look...
before the comp starts. look at their pale and undone hair
taking pixies before the results. tis pic is wif abg faizul
this pic is wif afiq. my pri sch fren
after knowing we got 3rd
a pic taken wif ABG AMIN!!!!
hee...me n lil cutie zara
inside the bus on the way back to sch
heading home after sumptous dinner
let your heart out.
aloooha!!!
its way long after my b'dae date
n i was supossed to be updating my special day.
i did log in on the 28 n i updated a long story.
but dued to some technical probs,
the whole long story dissappeared to nowhere.
then i was lazy to type back.
so now im gonna have to type back the whole long story
27 June
this is day when i went home wif bandung n blackcurrant drink one me.
everyone was looking at me when i entered the bus.
all those eyes were thinking why my shirt are all in pink n i smelt of carnation milk.
hahaha...
its all thx to my frens, nenen, zira n eton.
they were the one who poured the drinks on me.
on this day oso i got lots n lots of b'dae wishes.
hee....
thx to all of them who remembered wished my b'dae.
ali was the very first person to wish me.
n the most remembered wish i will never forget was rahman's.
hahahaha....
crazy him!!!
he and one of his fren sang me a b'dae song.
both of them have a lurvely voice.
n at the end of the part, rahman purposely shouted my name "imah".
at first i didn't know it was him until the next day he called.
hee....
the other one was hakim.
was so shocked when he called me.
thought he would forget my b'dae but then he did remembered.
very sweet.
n wat i know is he owe me a pressie n a treat.
hahaha...
wonder when will i ever get that.
and on my b'dae day itself,
i never get any b'dae presents.
but then its the thoughts tt counts, so im hepi enuff i got lots of sweet b'dae wishes.
thx everione!!!
28 June
this day i got one b'dae present.
it was frm my sis.
tt's the present i got i got my sis.
nice?
hee....
1 July
this day i got another present frm my second sis.
she shared wif my future bro in law.
hee...
the best b'dae present i ever got.
thenkiu so much abg acitz n kak ekin!!!
lurve u guys!!!!
n today im just waiting for my other presents.
hee...
n not forgetting my free treats frm diff ppl.
so i'll just keep waiting n waiting.
todae i was actually supossed to be getting my b'dae treat frm ansari.
he wanted to treat me to a movie.
but he have yet sms me.
so just have to wait till he sms me then.
i'll update more soon aite.
have to go.
nedd to figure out how to put music into my new n lurvely mp3.
toodles~
let your heart out.