so sorie for the updates at all since the last post.
i never update more bcos the first ting is im werking.
the secong thing is bcos i tot no one will be reading my blog anyway.
but since my fren syiqah is asking me to update....
so yeah here i am updating my blog.
my life is like a cycle since i started werking.
i will wake up in the morning watch tv and have breakfast.
then i will help my mum by folding the clothes.
then i will watch the tv again.
by 3.15 i will get ready for work.
4 i will go to work oreadi.
by 11+ i will be home.
then tok on the phone till late nite.
tt will be my weekdays cycle.
on weekends the plans of the makciks² will decide my day.
if i have plan wif him then i will go out wif him.
if not then i will either stay at home or go out wif my family.
and tt will be my weekends cycle.
see told u rite how bored my life is.
its been raining non-stop the past three days.
and i've freezing like hell in the office.
wat do u expect sitting rite under the air-con.
no choice...im only a part timer and i have no right to choose where i wanna to sit.
sleeping wif hte cold weather just makes me want to not wake up and just go to sleep all the way till i feel i reli wanna wake up.
haha..
life's bored during the weedays cos i have to werk.
the weekends depends.
if im able to go out wif him then i can have a shorty, sweet and funny joker.
haha....
my mp3 is on under repairation so i have to work wif boredom.
but i just got a msg a few days ago saying tt the mp3 is ready for repairation.
so im gonna collect it tomorrow maybe wif him or maybe wif fela.
see how.
so now i wanna go and get my breakfast.
my head is giddy bcos my stomach is empty.
tts the side effect of my empty stomach.
haha..k lah. i will update more when i have the time.
toodle doo~
let your heart out.
im gonna move on like wat all my lurvely frens asked me too.
i am reli.
since he's happy i oso have the right to be happy rite?
im not gonna dissappoint all my frens animore.
im gonna leave my past behind.
im gonna put it in the bottle and throw it into the sea.
and make the bottle go with the wave to a faraway place.
i dun wanna face wif it animore.
a new life, but the same me.
i wanna be independant, and i wanna be happy always.
tts wat im going to be.
say goodbye to ali and my past.
im starting a new life.
im gonna be happy in my life.
i will make it happy.
tenkiu god for opening up my heart and my mind widely.
i reli thank u for tt.
tenkiu so much!
let your heart out.
been bz wif work since i started werking at dpex last thurs.
the work is quite easy lah.
the pay is also not bad.
i thank god for giving a me job to keep me busy and not thinking of anything else.
the job really does keep me busy.
as usual i will wake up late.
then i will take my breakfast.
i will help my mum do some household chores.
and then watch the tv then eat my lunch b4 getting ready for work.
5 i will start working and ends at abt 10.30+++.
hahaha....once i reach home i will one th comp if my bro's not at home.
i will log on till 12+
till im tired then....zzzzzzzz.
had barbeque with my f amiles at east coast on sat.
it was not tt enjoyable.
but ok lah.
reached home at abt 12+
reached home straightaway i went to zzzzzzzzz.
i saw the bright full moon.
and it straight bring back the memories of him.
haiz....
i dunno why my heart told me to call him yest.
yeah....so somehow the first call i told to just talk to his soon-going-to-be gf.
at tt moment....my heart CRACK!
haiz...
i dunno why.
then the second call i called i was acting as per normal despite the the tears which won't stop rolling down.
yeah...actually he suspected something.
but i just told him i was ok.
just got the mood to cry for over nothing.
and he goes...ouh ok!
haiz...a person who is DEEPLY MADLY IN LOVE won't realise his surrounding except the girl.
nieways yest had a long tok wif him.
i forced myself to put everything behind and tok normally.
yah so we atalked abt lots of things.
how he got to know the girl and all.
we even talked abt prison break.
hahaha....yah then he needs to col the girl.
then i went to sleep bcos of the energy i put for crying.
haiz....
last night chat will be the last one of all.
i hope he will happy.
i will just stay on at the bottom of the ladder while he's up the stairs,
CHANGED, HAPPILY WIF THE GIRL.
and im below looking up to see the person in my heart happy.
its my fate k.
what fela said is true.
i just have to let him go for now.
if he's really meant for me then he will come back.
at least i got a chance to be loved by him.
i have the fond memories i spent wif him.
and the footprints he left in my life won't be erased ever.
i will just put this episode aside but not closing it and move on to the next chapter STEP BY STEP.
i just want to thank god for sending me angels friends into my life.
i just love my frens a lot.
i love nenen, zira, ansari and not to forget fela A LOT!
they were the one who stayed by my side and make my life happy.
i thank u guys a lot!
muacks!
as i've said upteen times...
i will never ever forget u.
and i locked up my heart.
just in case u wanna open it back..
the key is with u.
let your heart out.