Why do birds suddenly appear
Every time you are near?
Just like me, they long to be
Close to you.
Why do stars fall down from the sky
Every time you walk by?
Just like me, they long to be
Close to you.
On the day that you were born
The angels got together
And decided to create a dream come true
So they sprinkled moon dust in your hair of gold
And starlight in your eyes of blue.
- The Carpenters
HAPPY TEACHERS DAY!!!!
there was a celebration for the teachers todae.
it went well.
but wasn't enjoying it tt much.
even though i was laughing n smiling around there's a lot more of sorrow behind it.
onli god knoes.
nieways many of the ex-changkatans came.
was surprised tt isk n kak nazirah also came.
met them for a while n have a few min of chat wif them.
then i left them in sch n went home wif nenen n the gang.
all the way in sch the weather was reli cool.
i've been going to the toilet so many times.
my mind wasn't really on the concert just now.
syazwan reli resembles him a lot.
n it make my mind think abt him again.
haiz...
wateva lah...
heard he went back to his secondary sch back.
so many he's gonna get a lot of girls looking at him cos he's so much charming now.
haiz...
came home as per normal went to sleep.
was reli having a bad headache on the way home.
had a great sleep wif bear2 just now.
wif the cooling weather and the softness of bear2 reli make me wanna sleep forever.
and at last!!!
JOAKIM IS FINALLY OUT!!!!
sorie indah but im so glad he's finally out.
so now indah its time for u to keep voting for HADY!!!!
hahaha...
it seems u're the one disappearing.
nvm its ok.
im still able to take it.
dun be shocked when u finally see me like a zombie walking ard like as if im dead.
but i reli do hope u wun forget 20 november.
u promised me abt this day.
so im reli looking foward to this day.
do take care wherever u are.
let your heart out.
mock exams are over. finally....
the SS studies paper was ok. the science pp 1 hmmm....
DISASTROUS i think...
i just hate physics.
dunno y.
today got my chemistry and eng paper results.
and not to my surprise....chem i failed.
eng paper....to my surprise i passed.
hahaha....my mid year exam i failed so u tot i wun be doing well for mock.
but alhamdullilah i passed.
haha...
tomorrow will be having teacher's day concert so i think i will be slacking for the day.
after having a great day we will always end up like this.
haiz...
i dunno lah eh.
and i knew tt the sunday was the last day im gonna have tt treatment from u.
i just wish the day on last sunday wun end.
i just love every moment of it.
i said tt im gonna disappear just to let u move on.
n im trying to do it cos it reli hurts me to do so.
everytime i sit in the bus biting my lips the memories in the bus wif u came into my mind.
i reli wish u were right by my side looking at me and stopping me from biting my lips.
do u know tt when u were talking to me on tt monday nite,
my heart was reli crushing and i can reli feel it.
the pain was still there when i went to sch the next day to sit for my paper.
and i was reli hoping not to bump into u at inter when i was goin home.
but i did bump into u and i can't bear to have a look at u.
my heart was reli in a crushed state n my tears kept wanting to fall in the bus.
when itah asked me how am i and how are the things around me,
i answered happily tt everything was goin on fine cos during tt time we were reli ok.
but now....u know it for urself.
i just wonder why all this must happen again when i was starting to get my happy life back.
i know i deserve all this heart pain.
im not complaining about it.
just wanting to soul search my life again.
hoping tt u r goin on well wif ur moved on life.
im reli sure ur frens wun even like it if u were back wif me.
they just wun ike seeing me leading a happy life wif u.
i know im bad once but im can't i have another chance to change myself?
its ok.
i know im changed or else i wun be even be facing a heart pain or even im always in my lala land wif the thoughts of mr flat butt.
im not reli njoying the time in sch cos im always back in my lala land.
i will reli smile and laugh out loud and forget abt all this things for a moment when im wif iqah.
she reli do help me a lot without she knowing it.
i know i dun deserve the chance tt im asking u for but pls....
can u pls sort things out wif me n tell me wat u reli want?
tell me wats the thing tt ur heart wants.
i reli can't stand long int his condition.
i reli can't.
i've no one to turn to. not even my bestfrens.
not even my frens.
and i reli mean it. NO ONE!!!
so could u pls. pls. tok to me n tell me everything tt u've been keeping inside u. pls!!!!
n pls take care of my pooh bear.
u know i wun like it if my pooh bear is wif someone else like how u dun like it when bear2 is wif someone else.
if u wanna give me back my pooh bear u know u have to give it to me PERSONALLY.
i dun know if u reli mean wat u said when i said i will disappear n u will try every ways to contact me.
just take care of urself k.
i reli do wish tt sunday wun end just like tt.....
been lazing aroung this few days.
keep thinking of it no matter wat i do.
think he wun reli care abt it.
k lah.
wanna go to the clinic and buy my medicine.
bye then....
think im gonna be a zombie soon....
let your heart out.
tomorrow's the last paper for mock exams!!!
whooohooo!!!
dun be too happy yet aziemah.
next month after ur one week holiday u're gonna sit for ur prelims.
so no more relaxing for u aziemah!!!
wakey wakey!!!!
just had history and physics paper.
and again BIG BIG ????? on my head
tts because i nvr study.
ok i know.
im lazy.
im sitting for my O's.
ok ok ok.
i know!!!
i have to buck up k.
tenkiu MR FLAT BUTT for the wonderful day yest
even though u were sleepy u still accompanied me
it just feel good to sit by the beach and njoying the cool breeze
hahaha...
wun forget the memories we spent yest
cool!!!
hahaha....
k lah have to sign out.
nid to revise through my SS.
got to go!!!
toodles~
let your heart out.
one week no update from me.
hahaha....
many things happened.
after the incident my mind was in a mess.
but luckily i've managed to overcome it and sorted things out wif him.
everything's in order now.
and he have explained to me everything to me now.
now i know tt jumping to conclusion is bad.
not only it will make u angry and sad but it will also make the relationship wif tt someone turn sour.
so dun jump to conclusion without knowing the real reason aite.
hahaha.
i think when someone loses something tt are precious to them in life,
and when they realise it,
they will be become more matured in life.
tts wat i feel lah.
but then dunno whether its true or not.
nieways this week is mock examination week.
so been coming home at 9+.
by tt time i will be damn tired.
have to reli buck up.
prelims are coming up and O level will nearing too.
so have no time to think abt the unneccessary stuffs.
i did log in to internet past few days but too tired to blog.
so far the mock papers, chemistry and the maths pp 2 was damn diff.
the was a big ???? on my head when i did the papers.
i did study but its not sufficient.
so reli have to buck up.
reli wanna go to poly.
now i nid to log off and get ready.
going out studying wif mud, aidil, eton, sue n faiz.
at esplanade.
wheee....
k lah. dun wanna be late.
toodles~
let your heart out.
yest was the suckiest day of all.
been planning to meet you since like last two weeks.
i've been even reminding u like hell.
but see the outcome....
bz lah, family outing lah...
wateva it is i just assume u will never want to meet me k.
i dun even think u even care abt me.
i just dunno y yest u act to me in tt kind of manner.
ur behaviour reli sucked to the core.
u know how much i hate liers.
and u still lied to me.
if u think u're not the wrong, shld be explaining things to me,
like how u did the last time.
and yest when i smsed u, u didn't even bother to reply me.
why?
bcos u're so damn bz wif that "fren" of yours.
i wouldn't even know if u're lying to me all along.
if u've done nothing wrong and u're reli sincere abt it....
TALK N EXPLAIN things wif me.
dun shut ur bloody mouth.
nieways yest went out wif adil n mud.
studied at raffles place wif them.
n i reli did studied.
dun tink i dun study huh!!!
after 3 hrs of studying we decided to relax ourselves by the bay at esplanade.
yeah so we did went there.
and that was the place when i started to get angry and tensed up.
bcos of HIM!!!!
wateva lah eh.
just dun wish to elaborate more on it.
makes me sick.
today, dun think i will be goin out.
mum n dad are out for the wedding invitation.
now im at home wif my sis doin notin.
my sis is currenly sleeping.
just came home from her religious class.
k lah.
wanna log out.
just dun have the mood to surf the net animore.
let your heart out.
its been a reli long long long time since i touched the keyboard on the comp.
its because i've been BANNED by my bro.
yeah...BANNED.
but somehow today when i asked for his permission he allowed me too.
so must grab the chance.
nieways sch are as per normal but getting more stress.
have LOTS n LOTS of things to catch up on.
n i've finally decided not to retake my malay O's.
i know many ppl said i have the ability to get a distinction but haiz....
dunno lah...
i think its better for me to get started on my other subjects as it all SUCKS.
hahaha...
i also do think i can get the A but i think i just have to sacrifice the A to get good grades for the other subjects too.
am i doing the rite thing?
can someone answer me pls????
my life have changed since the fight tt happened last few days.
i've been keeping a lot of things to myself.
i think there's just no one who could understand me.
so just be it.
just let me suffer alone as long as they're ok.
tomorrow will be goin out for study.
after tt will be meeting jeff.
dun know if HE wanna meet or not.
haiz...
k lah.
im super duper tired today.
had mendaki.
then followed kak rin to go shopping.
my body's reli aching.
k lah.
nid my rest.
toodle doo~
let your heart out.
a pathetic result for a pathetic girl.
suits rite?
haiz...
yest got my malay O level results....
and i got a pathetic B3 merit for it...
reli reli reli dissappointed at myself...
i knew im gonna get a bad result for my oral just bcos of the word "megambil kesempatan"
tt i told u the last time.
fcuk lah...
reli not hepi wif my result.
i dunno whether to retake again or not...
stress lah...
where were you when i needed ur comfort?
where were you when i needed a shoulder to cry on?
where were you when i needed someone to calm me down?
do you even care abt me?
are you reli so busy wif ur work tt u dun even have to the time to check on me?
do i even reli exist in ur life?
let your heart out.
HAPPY 41st BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!!!!
its been days since i updated my blog.
actually i updated my blog the other time but i dunno wat happen tt it suddenly disappear.
so after tt im lazy to write the whole story back.
nieways yest went out at 8+ pm.
reached home at 12+ am.
hahahaha....
late rite.
was reli njoying myself.
nobody even bothered to contact me especially him.
haiz...
yest didn't reli get to watch the fireworks at espalanade cos there was reli a heavy jam at the road.
but today i got to watch the full view of the fireworks.
it was reli damn beautiful.
how i wish i could watch the fireworks wif my HAPPINESS.
haiz....
there's also full moon today.
wish i could reli spend the time wif my happiness watching the full moon and the fireworks.
just got home too.
no sch tomorrow and its gonna be a reli bored day for me.
nth to do and nobody asked me out.
damn bored.
k lah wanna take a rest.
toodles~
let your heart out.
today i dunno why i woke up early.
hahaha.
9+ i've oreadi woken up.
hee...
then fela called me to tell me that she can't make it to meet me.
she's reli having a bad sore eyes.
then after receiving her call i realised i have another 3 other missed calls.
it was frm him in the morning just now. 1.55 and 1.56.
guess i went to my lala land oreadi.
yest i was shouted at by someone.
it was the very first time i was shouted at by tt person.
it scares me off.
haiz.
nieways todae wake up early so tot of goin to the MARKET wif mum.
so quickly got ready and i tagged her to the market.
wah...so many ppl was there.
its been ages since i went to the market.
i was sweating in there.
so crowded.
i hepled my mum carried all her groceries bag except for one bag.
the bag which contains the fish.
i just can't stand the smell of it.
furthermore the bag was wet with the fish water.
yuckies....
so tt bag i left it wif mum.
hee...
then i bought a winnie the pooh pencil case for just $1.
hahaha...a big one.
so it fits all my stationaries.
i have lots of stationaries.
kiasu mah. hahaha...
currently finished having my breakfast.
so have to clean up the house.
so i will update again later aites.
maybe goin out so more things to update.
till here then.
toodles~
let your heart out.
today a definately BORED day.
woke at 8 to wake faizal up again.
today it was easier waking him up.
called him once and he's awake.
get back to sleep after waking up and at 11+ i was reli up.
got a call from him.
asked me to call him back and he's not werking todae.
his fren was covering him up.
he told me tt he was goin to town to buy his cousin's present.
told him to come down to tamp but he's plain lazy.
haiz...
wateva lah eh.
then at 1+ i tink.
my cousin called to meet him up.
told him i was lazy.
i dun have the mood to meet him.
too lazy to go out and meet him.
stayed at home all day watching tv and talking on the phone.
bored bored bored!!!!
he never called me back after tt.
called him like mad but no response frm him.
then at 7+. my dad and my mum asked me out to eat at the coffeeshop nearby.
so tagged them along.
ate young tau foo.
then went home.
been searching for my sis's sunglasses frm just now at yahoo auctions.
got a few for her to choose already.
currently talking to him on the phone.
k lah gtg. wanna tok to him now.
toodles~
let your heart out.
"aziemah hari nie kat skola ade pape tak?"
"takde ah"
"aziemah takya gie skola lah. tlg jage mak kat umah"
PAP i went back to sleep.
hahaha....
yeah so at 8 am i woke up to wake faizal up.
can die wake him up.
called him for many times he never pick up until 8.55 then he picked up.
he was shocked when i called him using my home phone.
yeah so after calling him tot of goin back to lala land but aiman was up.
so have to bath and clean up the house.
my mum's sick today so i must take care of tt little brat and clean the house.
b4 bathing i called 67773777.
hahaha...McD of cos.
hee...i ordered sausage mcmuffin wif egg meal.
i ordered for mum filet meal.
so rite after 30 mins of bathing, my breakfast was rite in front of the doorstep.
hahaha...
used my own savings to pay the $13 meal.
hee....
after having my breakfast, cleaned up the kitchen, heat up yest food.
and todae was the first time i clean up for aiman who just 'korek' his 'taik'.
disgusting rite?
tts what i had to do.
his whole pampers was filled with brown smelly shit!
cleaned him up. bathed him.
and he was ready for the day.
but he was sitting very quietly on the sofa instead of running around the house cos i took out the vacuum to vacuum the house of cos.
hahaha.
after making my bed, my sis bed i started vacuuming the house.
then i mopped the house.
then i folded the clothes tt have been washed yest.
after tt watched tv wif aiman.
untill my dad came home.
then my sis came home.
we shared nasi ambeng.
after eating i went to my bed and read the danielle steel book untill i knocked off.
hahaha...
tired seh...
woke up at 6+ and headed to shop.
bought dinner.
and now im blogging.
hee...
nieways i just bid an ellese orange watch.
very nice.
its oni for $12.
cheap rite? hahaha....
k lah. now im waiting for his call.
wonder if he's reli gonna call me...
let your heart out.
school was as per normal.
and as per normal, every thursday i won't be goin to maths remedial.
straightaway after sch i went home.
feel kinda tired todae.
have the feeling to go to lala land now but can't.
cos as wat to mr ridzwan said,
"its not good to sleep during asar and magrib time. the cells in ur brain are dying"
so tt was why i dun dare to sleep.
now i reli dun have anything to do.
except to bath, eat and study untill magrib.
cos after magrib maybe i will be meeting fela.
i can feel tt she's upset abt something.
so as her friend, its just rite for me to ask wats wrong wif her.
so maybe miting her later.
nieways just now for english lesson we were supossed to finish up our assignment.
after we finished up the assignment, we can play words on the internet.
so these two bloody idiots in my class, they went to this alamak chatroom.
they were pretending as a girl and they gave my number to the guy.
when i was in my malay class i got a call from an unknown number.
i picked up and he said he was the guy just now.
without knowing anything, i just hang up the phone and msged the number back.
i asked who's the person and he said he was the guy just now at the chatroom.
i was so pissed off with the two bloody guy.
i can, i will want to shoot them off with the big bazooka.
they reli irritate me.
and they are reli childish.
they think they are the only perfect person in this world when theya re certainly NOT!
its reli irritating to have these kind of people around you.
they think tis bloody damn joke is veri funny.
so stupid.
wish the school days can be ended faster cos i wouldn't want to face the idiots animore.
just a big pain in the ass.
called him to tell him abt this sickening incident but he didn't pick up the call.
so pissed off wif the two idiots.
haiz.
let your heart out.
todae ended the remedial late.
art reli do sucks.
i tink my batik is not gonna make it.
tinking of giving up.
haiz...
today's the 1st of aug n tomorrow is the 2nd.
hahaha.
1 month of patience and endurance wif him
hee...
he's teaching me to be patient.
tts gd....
hahaha...
tomorrow sch will end late for me again.
mendaki till 6 pm.
but i will for sure enjoy the mendaki lesson cos the teacher is cool.
hehehe....
i wonder when will i ever get to meet him.
one month? two months? or years?
time will tell.
i just have to keep on being patient.
no matter wat happens i willl still be waiting for the day....
let your heart out.