ok i've decided!!! its final. im goin for him.
n thank god the other perty understands me. thank him lots.
n i wish if he read tis blog he will understand me n not think negatively anymore bcos my mind is decided n he is my choice.
hahaha. nieways i give my mind a rest now cos i've decided n the ans is inside my head.
thx everione who has been by my side always giving me advices thx guys.
especially fela, syiqah n kak fiza my darling!!!
tenkiu so much!!!
let your heart out.
haiz been having a lot of misunderstanding n quarrels wif the two boys lately. first was wif fadly then hakim then fadly again.
maybe im just bein hot headed.
dunno wats got into me.
nieways to the two guys im so sorie.
nieways i bought this phone on fri cos my old 3310 nokia phone is DEAD!!
hahaha. my dearest eldest sis lent her money to but the phone.
ok lah the phone.
these are the few pics i took wif my dear darling kak fiza. hahaha. she's so crazy tat day. dunno wats got into her. but we had a great time on that day. hahaha. except fort he misunderstanding.
few pics that i took at the esplanade.
more pics will be uploaded at the pics section.
so do take a look.
let your heart out.
so sorie i updated my blog later that i t was suspossed to be.
got my results on sunday but now its wednesday n i stilll haven't tell my results.
we got the stupid bloody CONSOLATION PRIZE.
pathetic rite. i know.
but at least i shld be thankful cos i got $30 from the consolation prize.
haiz. nvm at least we tried our best rite. hahaha.
nieways been goin out after sch for group study wif my frens n got home late at nite.
tats y no tyme to update my blog.
nieways started on my 'o' levels art supporting studies oreadi.
so stress sia. then now more hw piling up. ish.
so stressful. just now went to mit my old pri sch frens.
syiqah n sila. my old best frens. hahaha. the crazy old us was back together again.
so fun meeting up old frens.
n they were teasing me all the way cos i've changed a lot physically as in im getting plummer.
hahaa.
nieways i have a great bad news to tell u. i've gain 6 damn kg. see!!!
im getting fatter n fatter. arghhh!!!
nieways i've uploaded some photos at expon on the art comp.
so do take a look aite.
k lah wanna go n have my rest.
tired lah.
when i wanted to forget abt u
u will either msg me or even col me
why must u do that to me?
u suffering me
i understand ur situation n i dun mind
have u ever given a thought abt it y im doin this to u?
u shld know what i know wat i feel
but u ignored it( i tink)
in any way im afraid the feeling will go away
cos there's someone who's goin to grab my heart
aren't u goin to save it?
if u're not n i tink u will never save it
i would like to thank ALLAH to make me mit u
cos u're the best n i will never forget u
thx for everything that u've done for me
just a promise that i will never ever forget u
let your heart out.
nth much happened todae.
its just that i reli had a tiring day today.
woke up at 6.30 to go to sch n left the the sch at 12.15 to go to xpo for the art comp. veri2 tiring.
dirtied my jeans n shoes wif the paints just now.
nieways i took some pix but will update it tomorrow aite.
will tell u all the results for the comp tomorrow too.
so wanna have my rest now. having backache now. s
o do read my blog tomorrow aite.
bubye!!!
let your heart out.
sooooo tired todae.
came home frm sch at 9+ just now.
doin my art project for tomorrow.
its an art comp tomorrow at singapore xpo frm 2-6. haiz.
did some preparation for the comp just now.
actualie we started frm wednesday but todae most of it is done.
there's a LOT more to do. so stress.
i have even a cut on my elbow while cutting the stupid big chicken grill.
it hurts man! n my fingers oso got some blueblack. hahaha. pain seh.
INSYA'ALLAH if i win the comp each of my group member will get $300.
we are trying our best to get our aim n target.
n now im so so tired. haiz.
but wat makes me happy todae is HE smsed me!!!! whohooo!!! hahhaa.
n todae is also full moon. hahaha.
the mon reminds me of him tats y im happy.
nieways kak fiza dun be too sad.
just col me whenever u need someone to tok to. im always here for u.
dun be sad k. just wanna u know that i lurve u owaes k.
n u're not alone. im here for u.
k lah i wanna have my rest so i have full energy for tomorrow.
let your heart out.
back to sch n my stress is back.
n there's a prob at home tats y more stress.
actualie mostly im stress abt is my sch.
haiz.
end of this month oni i have to finish 80% of my art n
how the hell am i goin to finish that work.
wat tat mean i no need to concentrate on my other subjects xcept for my bloody art is it?
haiz. so stress n veri stress!!!!
is there anione out there hu is willing to help me wif my bloody art.
i want to drop this subject but im scared that i will fail my 'O' level
cos i went up to 5n wif the help of this bloody art.
n if i wanna pass my 'O' level i have to pass all my 5 subjects.
n tats wat im afraid of.
can someone out there give me an advice pls!!!
im so stressful!!!!
let your heart out.
whohooo!!!
yest went out wif my dear cousin syahirah n her frens, hakim n nazri.
promised to meet at 1 at plaza sing
n when i reached there exactly at 1 no one was there.
so pissed off with them.
after half n hour later syahirah came. n after n hour later hakim came.
i didn't realize wat tyme naz came but he was the last one to come.
nieways after everione came we proceeded to yamaha shop n hakim played the keyboard.
he was sticked to the keyboard that syahirah n me decided to leave him to eat.
we ate at KFC n few min later they came.
after eating my cousin need to go home to take her bursary so i followed hakim n naz to kite flying at maina bay.
i had lots of GREAT MOMENTS there. fun.
even though it rained while we were flying the kite at least we get to fly the kite.
hahaha.
after flying the kite went to suntec city just to go n eat mcdonalds there.
hakim reli wanted to his big mac so have to go suntec just to get his big mac.
after eating proceeded home.
hakim took mrt home wif me but he wasn't able to sent me home cos he nids to go to his aunts place to take care of his grandma n he was late.
i didn't mind cos i know family is the first priority.
ya so i don't mind.
nieways i bullied hakim on the way home. hehehe.
pinched him a lot cos he was teasing me all the way.
reached tamp inter my mum was nagging at me on the phone.
its the usual routine of my mum nagging at me.
total overall i had reli a great time when we were at marina bay.
thx hakim!
n tis monin my mum started the day wif her nagging.
bored wif her nagging n her usual nonsence thinking of me.
wateva lah eh.
sick n tired of her nagging.
a mother who doesn't even trust her own daughter.
let her be lah.
let her think that im the worst daughter that she ever had in her life.
let your heart out.
haiz...this is oni the fourth day of sch n im so stress wif sch work.
how can i not be stress. yest oni got 4 hw.
then now i have to think of a theme for my 'O' level coursework.
then have to start on my art supporting studies oreadi.
haiyooo!!! stress ah!!!
luckily todae not much hw. oni maths hw.
n todae i reli have to squeeze my brain out to think of a theme.
n i have to find pics for it n start some drawing or else i will be left far bahind.
so stressful go to sec 5. wonder if i can cope wif the stress.
todae i got migrane. been thinking alot this few days.
hopefully tomorrow i can have my full rest n njoy myself tommorow.
can't wait for tommorow.
so now i have to finish all my hw now so i can have fun tomorrow.
so guys i will update soon aite.
bye!!!
let your heart out.
hola hola!!!
hahahaha.
indah!!! thx for the testi aite!!! hehehe.
i will do my best for the O's. hope i can make it.
nieways first dae of sch todae is boring.
did nothing much in sch. t
he first four periods was with my new form teacher n she breifing us wif the sch rules n all the other craps lah.
n to my surprise n to ur surprise i was elected as the class monitress.
hahaha. all those crazy frens of mine lah elected me.
n my form teacher gave me the responsibility. haiz.
nieway tomorrow lessons will start as per normal.
so now i wanna go take my bath n pack my bags.
so anything i will update soon aite.
take care n start studying aite!!!
let your heart out.
haiz. sick sick sick tats my condition now.
having a veri bad cough n now im having fever.
i always get fever when its nitetime. dunno y.
n i will oso always get flu in the morning.
im having both monin n nite sickness.
wat telah happen to u aziemah? sick? hahaha.
the time now is 12.13 am so HAPPY NEW YEAR everione.
wah time flies fast uh.
so many things happens just like that.
so lets take a review of wat have happen in my life this 2005 year
myself
getting a bit taller. hahahaha.
n getting a bit fat. now getting thinner cos sick
made new wonderful frens tat i will never forget: mr hakim ((: n not to forget mr fadly
they've been the one who always bring happiness to my life
thx guys! will never forget u
passed my N's n goin for O's
memories of them....
fadzli: heard he's goin overseas to further his studies on religious things. so wish him gd luck in everything u do.
iskandar: dunno where he is n i dun even bother where he is. but hope he's doin fine out there wif his destroyed ite life. all the best to him.
jeff: still frens wif hym but lost contact cos he changed his no. n he's now hepi wif her marissa. all the best to u mate!
zameer: my best buddy when im down. now he's wif one of my sch mate. all the best to u too. stop ur buihness n get on wif a new fresh normal life aite. i'll be here if u nid any help.
faizal: matured one of all. the name'matured' is there but he's not. a lier he is. but overall he's below ok. he's now oso wif his dear tinkerbelle. hope u dun dump her wif ur stupid excuses n be too egoistic huh!
to my close cousins....
syahirah: hey gurl u better studi hard ah! u want me to go for my O's n poly u also have to studi hard kz. n one more thing, throw ur fickle minded habit away k. ;)
kak oda: u've been the best kakak sedare i have. u gave me all sorts of advices n thx a lot!
indah: my kakak sedare too but she's smaller than me. hahaha. eh indah gi telan gala confirm bsok pagi tinggi. hehehe. nieways u're the bubbliest kakak sedare i have. crazy n cute. hahahax. all the best to u too.
amirah: yo yo yo meow! hahaha. the becok adek sedare i have. n not to forget the preetiest adek sedare i have. oit! mandi2 lah selalu eh nanti org bau lari tau! hahaha. studi hard k. be like kak oda. so clever! hehehe.
nabilah: my twin! hahaha. seminah minah kau aku tetap syg kau. cheybah! eh kau pon blaja eh. jgn jadi pemls asik nak melawa jek. n choose frens wisely aite.
to my family
ayah: thx for everything that u provide me. u're best father in the whole world. i love u lots!!! n i will never forget all the things that u do for me since im a baby till now. i owe u lots.
mak: i love her the most after ALLAH. no matter how naggy she can be she's the best. her cooking is my fav. i wanna be a good cook like her one day. n bcos of her im where i am now. syggg mak!
kak rin: be a good mum to aiman! n thx for everything
kak ekin: cepat2 lah kahwin. hahaha. nieways thx for evrything too.
abg: .........
a message tat u wun understand
im still in confusion. i reli feel bad.
choosing either one will hurt the other one n i dun want anibody to get hurt in this story.
im sorie if my decision later will hurt either one of u
im reli so sorie
but one things i wanna say is thx to the both u
i hope one of u will be able to accept my decision
n im reli sorie if my decision hurt one of u
im reli so sorie
but i will never forget the two of u
never!
till here then folks. tired lah.
never do anything at grandma's place oso tired. dunno wats wrong wif me.
k lah will update soon aite.
byez!
let your heart out.