Why do birds suddenly appear
Every time you are near?
Just like me, they long to be
Close to you.
Why do stars fall down from the sky
Every time you walk by?
Just like me, they long to be
Close to you.
On the day that you were born
The angels got together
And decided to create a dream come true
So they sprinkled moon dust in your hair of gold
And starlight in your eyes of blue.
- The Carpenters
to all muslims i wanna apologise any for wrongdoings that i've done to you guys.
especially to my frens.
and to all readers i apologise aite!
yest sat at my grandma's place for the whole day.
me n my cousin helped our grandma out.
i had to wash the glasses, refill the dishes, cut the ketupat and the lepat.
tiring sey...
but it was all worth it.
alhamdullilah i got quite a lot of collection yest.
$300+ in total yest.
alhamdullilah rezeki banyak...
hehe....
todae never go sch again.
woke up late.
but then went for the science class just now wif nenen.
tomorrow have to go sch to do my art.
have to at least finish up 5 pieces tomorrow.
next week is already the art paper.
haiz...
time flies reli fast.
wonder if i can make it to poly next year.
insya'allah.
i was so happy to get ur msg yest.
didn't expect for ur msg but then u still msged me.
hehee...
thx eh!
ouh yah!
raya jgn lupe dtg umah tau.
u gave me ur word to come here rite.
so will be waiting for u aite.
org raya memang lah slalu penat.
tapi smalam kate lagi 10 min call.
tup tup....10 min tu die tido.
orang ade lah tunggu die sampai 1+,
die mengorok.
haiz...
let your heart out.
wipe the dust on the television cabinet.
cleaned the sliding door at the balcony.
helped my parents wif the money.
put the money inside the envelopes n sort the money out.
then went out to meet my dear bestie fela.
bought ovalette for my mum, ribbon for the bottles and castor sugar.
then i took a nap for a while.
woke up bathed, then got ready for breaking fast.
after tt i decorated bottles.
then i did my art.
then rested for a while.
now of cos im blogging.
yest went for the science class.
the class started at 2.30 ended at 6.
then i break my fast wif MacDonalds.
boringggg day.
tomorrow maybe im goin out.
going geylang to fela maybe.
c whether her mother allow her or not.
if not i'll just sit at home lah.
do housework again obviously.
haiz....
hey got to know ur baju raya oso BLUE colour ah?
same ah!!!
hahaha...coincident².
i wish i can see u wearing baju kurung one day.
insya allah...
ah meng!!!
raye nak sampai!!!
hang on there ya....
puasa PENUH eh!!!
u can do it ah meng!!!
later i reward u wif del monte banana k.
let your heart out.
hahaha...
the paper was ok lah.
i dun wanna be too confident abt the paper.
but somehow i did get the correct name for the salt.
wooohooo!!!
hahahaX~
i was smiling all the way after the practical cos im happy one paper was over and,
i feel good after doing the prac.
just hope the other papers can be done too.
insya allah.
btwn me n sis...
its still like tt. since everything i do makes her irritated or not satisfied,
then i'll just play dumb la.
ouh yah by the way sis...
i got 34 for my L1R4 during mid yr exams.
but as for prelims i got 26 for L1R4.
so improved a bit better.
i know u're still not satisfied.
but wateva it is.
think wateva u want to think abt me k.
i do the best tt i can do.
too bad im not as clever as u lah eh.
13 more days to art paper!!!
n i still have lots to do.
gosh!!!
now the mood for art suddenly disappeared.
haiz...
nvm...will try doing it again later.
haze is getting heavier...
take care of urself.
cos i know u're prone to get flu.
take lots of plain water aite...
ah meng!!!
hahaha....u want the part-time job i offered for u?
its $90 per day seh.
big money seh.
y not u try it.
suit for u to become a real ah meng.
hahaha...JK lah.
hahaha...takle trime sudah eh.
jgn nak majok.
hahaha....suke nye aku buli kau!!!
(",)
let your heart out.
reached home ard two plus.
watched my fav cartoon.
at three thirty i set off to my dreamland oreadi.
and i woke up at six thirty.
hahaha...too tired and sleepy lah.
as soon as i woke up there were nine missed col.
hahaha...sorie my dear ah meng.
there's something wrong wif my sis's phone.
yeah nieways tomorrow will be going to sch but then i will oni attend the lessons tt i feel like going.
hahaha...most importantly i nid to finish off my art.
the sooner the better.
todae before going home we went to TM.
i bought these cute teddy bear studs.
veri cute!!! i loike! hehehe...
then i bought clips.
i just can't resist seeing all these things.
see oni must buy. so cute n nice.
hehehe...
k lah now nid to continue my art.
no more time to waste.
toodles~
yest during the suria advertisement,
syed azmir appeared on tv.
and he reli reminds me of u.
haiz...i dunno when can u reli get out my mind.
or will it never go off my mind.
i wonder sometimes...
y can't i get u off my mind
when i am easily forgotten by u.
haiz...maybe tts the fate tt god created for me.
i tried to find the gorilla.
cannot find seh.
alah....nvm.
i'll to find the gorilla no matter wat.
just for my dear ah meng.
hahahaha....
eh make sure u tahan ur puasa tau!!
few more days to go.....
hehehe....
let your heart out.
here i am again.
i have lots to do now.
so dun expect me to be updating this blog tt often.
todae break fast wif lontong goreng(fried rica cakes) n KFC.
hehe...the delivery guy was quite cute even though he big n dark.
he was bowing n smiling sweetly at me when i said "keep the change"
hehehe...
nieways i was at home whole day todae.
did nothing much.
just did my art n did some revisions on chem.
tomorrow gonna have science class from 9-1 i guess.
yeah, then have to go n search for ribbons n some small flowers for decorations the bottles.
just now my 1st sis asked abt my prelims results.
i shook my head wif the meaning its bad lah.
n she was blabbling away.
hate it man.
she said wat for i always go out everyday studying wif this bad results.
n she said wif this kind of results looks like im goin to ITE lah.
hey come on ah!!!
its my life man!!!
i reli hate it whne she look down on me like tt.
so wat if she has a degree and all tt.
i so hate her attitude now.
then i say ah " kalau belajar tinggi2 prangai mcm gini pon uat aper"
n she kept quiet.
hahahaha!!!
i so like it when i spit back to her face.
i dun care abt her animore ah.
if her attitude is going on to stay like tis forever i dun mind being in ITE wif a better attitude than hers.
she's reli looking down on ITE lah.
wat?!? study oni means u must pass lah.
must get good marks lah.
wat the heck man!!!
heck care her oreadi ah.
wateva it is i know i've tried my best.
n if my results says im going ITE means i have to go wat.
tak semestinye blaja nak mampos leh masok poly eh!!!
wateva ah kak!!!
few days back my cousin saw u
but pls im begging u
if u hate me pls dun treat the way u're treating me wif my cousin
she's not in the wrong k
my O's are round the corner,
so i hope u will pray for my success.
take care of urself....
is this the place ah meng?
heee....
ok...
now i love the place!!!
i can go underwater n go for scubadiving!!!
hehehe ....
kkkk....8yrs huh!!!
lots of money ah!!!
must must must hor!!
hahaha......
let your heart out.
today i woke up reli late.
hahaha...luckily ah meng called me or else i will never wake up untill i feel tired of sleeping.
woke up watched tv.
i didn't have the mood when i woke up.
had a slight headache when i woke up.
maybe because i slept too much.
hahaha...nvm.
then helped mum cleaned the kitchen walls.
transfered all the rempah into new bottles.
then i bathed n watched hindi movie at the vasantham central.
today is quite a boring day i can say.
sit at home all day.
with aiman at home my mum's not going to make any more kuih.
but ah meng was njoying himself helping his mum making kuih.
hopefully everything was nicely baked n done.
heehe...
i can't deny abt my own feelings.
even though i've decided to go for my reality, my thoughts of u will never run dry.
even though u hate me so much i can do nth but just keep quiet.
i will just keep the feeling to myself n never ever bother u again.
tts a promise i made to myself.
looks like u r serious abt the 8 yrs plan.
hahaha...
hopefully we can together go through it.
n hopefully u can be patient wif me.
n i hope u wun get bored of me fast.
together we can guide n help each other along during our way to the 8 yrs.
let your heart out.
i won't want to run for the thing tt i can never get.
i dunno whether this is the rite decision but rite now i've decided.
i will rather want to step into my reality world rather than staying in my fantasy world.
fantasy world means i will get wat i want n what i've wished for but as for my reality world,
i could get happiness, he's leading me to the path where i would always do my duty to god.
rite now i will reli have to confuse RELI RELI RELI focus on my O's.
have to get at least either a B's or a C's.
i will never want my cert to have D's.
n i reli have to work hard for it.
i have to prove everyone who have given me the support tt i can do it.
i dun wanna disappoint them.
n i hope he can give me the support.
may ALLAH guide me through this diff path of mine now.
ali tenkiu for the times u helped me with my art.
in the end i've handed up the batik n my boards.
u reli helped me wif a lot of things.
n u can also see that the batik layout is from ur idea too.
n i thank u for tt.
if i get a B for it im reli reli greatful to u.
i owe u one if i get a B.
hope u r doing fine now wherever u r.
do cheer up n be the old ali tt ur frens nid.
take care....
ah meng!!!
hehehe...
thx for always being the listening ear to me.
n tenkiu so much for being patient wif my mood swings n nonsence.
i reli appreciate it a lot.
we will together help each other guide through the rite path where ALLAH wants us to go.
tenkiu so much for showing me the love, care n concern.
let your heart out.
lots of things was going around in my mind.
first ting was my results.
second thing was about the noe attending the class.
n the third ting was him.
i know i wasn't suppose to think abt him oreadi.
but as i've told u before, no matter how hard i tried....
its a reli diff task to do.
but on the other hand i dun wish to hurt other ppl.
i admit tt ali is still in my heart no matter wat....
but...
haiz....i dunno...
i reli dunno wat to do.
i reli pity him a lot.
he's lonely now.
no more fiza.
I DUNNO LAH!!!
reli confused.
actually todae i was supposed to be going to the library to find new books,
develop photos n find my ingredients for the chocolate dessert.
asked for fela's company but she said she was going out wif syiqah then i was like ok lah.
so today sit at home one whole day lah.
actually mind mind is absolutely blank todae.
dunno y.
maybe im thinking too much.
k lah. tink i'll continue again one day.
the third time oreadi.
reli shows the meaning for me oreadi.
should i just stay away from u forever oreadi?
u give me the answer for this?
and this qn pls...
why didn't i ever get the last chance? y?
it hurts me to c u in this state where always have no mood.
u always stare in the space thinking abt something.
and ur smoking habit is getting worse.
u dun care abt ur health but other ppl do.
think abt others around u who cares abt u.
i know u dun care abt me animore cos u gave me the hints oreadi.
i understand.
but pls do take care of urself.
dun smoke too heavily.
thx for always being there for me when i always nid someone to tok to since ali was gone.
but one thing is...
im afraid i will hurt u.
i promised myself not to hurt anione animore.
i seriously am afraid if i hurt u.
i did it once to ali n i dun want to do it animore.
u know my wat state is in now.
i reli dun want to hurt u.
im a bad girl u know.
hehehe....
let your heart out.
veri disappointed.
maths...gone case.
i know i can never make it for maths.
eng....the most shocking result i ever get.
humans....alhamdullilah, out of all the papers i managed to pass this.
chemistry...veri disappointing.
art...haven't get the results yet.
physics, will never ever pass.
see lah...
wif this kind of result i know i WILL NEVER EVER GET TO POLY.
haiz...AZIEMAH U'RE HOPELESS FOR GETTING INTO POLY!!!
U WILL NEVER GET TO SMELL THE POLY LIFE EVER!!!!
just bear wif me.
im reli disappointed.
im losing hope....
let your heart out.
after getting our art paper 2 most of us went home.
hee...
this is the time when the 5n3 puils get so united.
wakakaka...
tomorrow most of us won't be going to sch oso.
hehehe...
bad bad 5n3.
im reli losing hope on my O's.
so far now i got my maths, eng, chem n humanities paper.
my maths...haiz. gone case.
eng...the most shocking result of my life.
chemistry...reli disappointing.
humanities....thank god i passed.
nid to drill up more on my SS since i can oni depend on it.
physics i know i will fail oso.
art dunno lah.
now have to concentrate on my art back oreadi.
got the paper just now.
n i've decided to take the roadside topics.
it sounds easy but wait till u find the pics n colour it.
seriously im reli losing hope on my studies oreadi.
the prelims results reli make me loose hope.
NO HOPE FOR U TO GO POLY OREADI AZIEMAH!!!
FORGET IT!!!
U WILL NEVER EVEN GET TO SMELL POLY LIFE!!!
let your heart out.
hahaha...
stayed home whole day doing nth except vacuuming the house.
mopping the living room andf olded the laundry.
after tt stucked in front of the comp.
tts it.
now waiting for the time to break fast.
then watch my korean drama n back studying heymath!
thx iqah for lendind me ur account.
hee...its helping me!
haha...
toodles~
let your heart out.
haiz...
no hope for poly oreadi.
nieways todae got my class photo.
here it is....
i look so gemok seh.
hahaha...
nvm lah eh.
just take a look at it aite.
anithing just leave a comment on the tagboard.
hahaha...
as days goes by,
i think im reli moving on.
but wateva it is as i've promised,
i will never forget u.
since u've moved on,
i am moving on too as there's someone who's there for me now.
he's able to make me happy and listen to my grievences.
hope u are happy too.
wish u all the best n may u be happy always.
let your heart out.
frm 9-10.30 cleaned the sofa b4 it was given away to my aunt.
it was not a small sofa but thick yellow leather sofa.
wah piang eh!!!
4 families break fast at my house.
piles and piles of dishes to wash.
after they go home packing the extra food for sahur,
3 periuks and more dishes to be washed.
my palm are getting reli rough man.
hehe...
but wateva it is.
i feel good helping my mum out.
wat a good daughter am i.
wakakaa...
nid my rest.
tomorrow schling. haiz...TIRED!
let your heart out.
CONTINUATION FROM PREVIOUS POST.....
our reward after a day of fasting. anderson's ice cream...yummylicious!!!
indulging on the yummylicious ice cream. SLURP!
me n reward for the day
the foursome at esplanade
tts me n the b'dae girl for the day....my bestest fren...fela
semua step cute. haha....
AND HERE GOES MY BATIK
let your heart out.
k im back!!!
hehehe....
its oni 7.17 am but im awake!
unbelievable...
hee...no lah, its just tt i feel more peace after doing my job to god.
so i feel a lot more fresher more.
furthermore there's someone accompanying me now.
so...hehe.
yeah. not worry the all the oics for the break fast outing will be uploaded at the bottom.
had lots of great fun!!!
whoohoo!!
miss hakim's craziness. hehe...
but there's some things tt made me feel down tt day.
but hakim came to the rescue.
thx huh giler!
hahaha...
conincidentally i met ali at esplanade.
just finished the yummylicious anderson's ice cream.
suddenly i saw the bright full moon in the sky.
and u know moon will always remind me of whom.
so yeah, i suddenly remembered abt him.
then my kuzzie saw him caled told me.
i was dumb strucken to see him after for a period of time not hearing anything from him.
i then smsed him to mit me.
but no replies.
i went to them to salam them lah.
i did not even dare to see him.
haiz...
wat will u feel when someone just disappeared frm ur life just like tt.
and when u want to meet him he just hack care abt it.
it was full moon seh tt day.
haiz...no comments oreadi ah.
i've been scolded by hakim so reli have to move on.
thx ya hakim!!!
by the way yest went to geylang.
bought my baju kurung oreadi.
BLUE colour.
i dun even like tt baju.
bought it just to satisfy my mum.
haiz...nvm lah.
not going to reli celebrate raya anyways.
so yeah.
nieways here comes the pic.....
hehehe....
its oni 7.17 am but im awake!
unbelievable...
hee...no lah, its just tt i feel more peace after doing my job to god.
so i feel a lot more fresher more.
furthermore there's someone accompanying me now.
so...hehe.
yeah. not worry the all the oics for the break fast outing will be uploaded at the bottom.
had lots of great fun!!!
whoohoo!!
miss hakim's craziness. hehe...
but there's some things tt made me feel down tt day.
but hakim came to the rescue.
thx huh giler!
hahaha...
conincidentally i met ali at esplanade.
just finished the yummylicious anderson's ice cream.
suddenly i saw the bright full moon in the sky.
and u know moon will always remind me of whom.
so yeah, i suddenly remembered abt him.
then my kuzzie saw him caled told me.
i was dumb strucken to see him after for a period of time not hearing anything from him.
i then smsed him to mit me.
but no replies.
i went to them to salam them lah.
i did not even dare to see him.
haiz...
wat will u feel when someone just disappeared frm ur life just like tt.
and when u want to meet him he just hack care abt it.
it was full moon seh tt day.
haiz...no comments oreadi ah.
i've been scolded by hakim so reli have to move on.
thx ya hakim!!!
by the way yest went to geylang.
bought my baju kurung oreadi.
BLUE colour.
i dun even like tt baju.
bought it just to satisfy my mum.
haiz...nvm lah.
not going to reli celebrate raya anyways.
so yeah.
nieways here comes the pic.....
before breaking fast
hmm...sedap nye da buka....
after breaking fast
while waiting for the other girls window shopping
the forever charming fren of mine. HAKIM!
TO BE CONTINUED....
let your heart out.
comfirmed goin ot to marina square later.
my rite shoulder backbone is painful.
n my mum cooked my fav food todae.
haiz....
never later sahur can still eat.
hahaha...
k lah.
got to get ready.
toodles~
let your heart out.
i've done my mounting board AND my batik!!!
whooohhoooo!!!
PEACE for the moment at last.
i promise myself i am never ever going to touch anything tts got to do wif art after my O's.
i've has enough for this yr and last yr.
no more for me!!!
todae in sch there was art prelims paper which starts at 10 but me,
hehehe...
i woke up late.
thx to my dear iqah's call i woke up at 9.15.
hehehe...i bathed as quick and as fast as i could.
9.40 like tt i met her at the bus stop.
i was kanchiong like hell.
we reached sch at 10.30.
30 mins late but hell....
i finished my whole final art piece within 1 and half hour.
amazing rite.
hahaha...but my piece was a piece of crap.
total crap.
hahaha....like pri sch.
but kirk's one was worst.
he drew a rainbow and a mango and his background he put " i love my mummy!"
u all should see it.
damn funny. he was also strangled by mrs chan.
crazy him.
frm 1pm till 7pm i was stucked in the art room finishing up my batik.
and alhamdullilah, all done just now.
tomorrow i still nid to mit iqah at 7 to go to sch to have my pic taken wif the batik.
and maybe after tt im goin to mit zira.
see how.
ouh yah, just now i saw the moon.
so B-E-A-U-TIFUL.
i just love the moon and the starts.
ali knows it.
kkk...enough bt him!!!
k lah now wanna tok on the phone oreadi.
later org tu majok.
k lah.if can i upload my batik aite.
toodles~
let your heart out.
this picture was sent to me the last two days i guess.
it reli brought back the old memories to me.
haiz...
but no matter i HAVE to move on.
i HAVE to be strong.
he moved on leaving all the past behind him.
but me...i'll move on but i won't forget my past.
nieways these days i've been happy.
no more worries.
cos everione around me makes me happy.
hehehe....
todae went to sch to finish up my art.
wah....i got so stressed up the moment i stepped into the art room.
all of them kept asking me about the grad day.
haiz...
they insisted of doing it at the hotel.
i can't afford man!!!
haiyooo....
nieways...
gotta go.
nid to sent the breaking fast food to my neighbour.
as always i have to do this job.
wateva lah eh.
toodles~
i dunno why but i think i have the same feelings as yours.
but im afraid if u're too late, u will get hurt.
but no worries.
i wun forget u.
hee....
let your heart out.
its in GRRREEENNN!!!
hehehe...
just love green.
wheee...
nieways later will be goin to my grandma's place.
hope to meet somone there.
but...hmmm...tak tau lah eh.
frm friday till i dunno how long.
i can't fast.
-PERIOD-
haiz....wasted seh.
why must girls have this ting uh.
haiz...
nvm, must thank god for everything.
todae 1 mth oreadi seh.
hahaha...
k lah. wanna do other things.
will update more once i have the time.
toodles~
dun forget to tag me huh.
let your heart out.
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