Why do birds suddenly appear
Every time you are near?
Just like me, they long to be
Close to you.
Why do stars fall down from the sky
Every time you walk by?
Just like me, they long to be
Close to you.
On the day that you were born
The angels got together
And decided to create a dream come true
So they sprinkled moon dust in your hair of gold
And starlight in your eyes of blue.
- The Carpenters

a lot of things happened in my life recently.
last sat had the biggest fight wif my mum.
wun want to elaborate on tt.
n things btwn me n my mum is still sour till todae.
dun know when tis thing will end.


haiz...
n one more miserable thing happened.
it happened midnite todae.
nieways here's a paragraph for tt person to read.
you may say wateva i say now is BULLSHIT.
but i do reli mean it.
n its up to u to understand and accept it or otherwise.
like as said in the beginning before all this started,
this thing will not be happening like wat u wanted it to be.
but u still wanted to go on wif it n i tagged along.
in the beginning everything was normal.
but as times goes on it started to fade away BUT not in a fast manner.
but after the big fight we had, u said ur feelings fade away badly,
n i was so hurt by tt.
and the bloggy thing came n it was another incident tt hurt me A LOT.
but i forgive everything tt happen and i dun keep any grudges abt it.
but one thing is i cannot forget abt it.
i just can't.
n as i've told u yest.
i did not lie to u abt the person i was chatting wif.
n i told u every single thing yest.
u understood.
but wat i was dissappointed at myself was, i can't give u the care n 'manja'
tt u want in a relationship.
cos im not tt kind of girl.
cos i myself dun get kind of things in my house.
u urself know tt im having a big problem wif my mum at home.
n im utterly feeling down n sensitive abt it.
i knew u understood abt my problems but i just can't bring myself
foward to have another problem wif my relationship
or even to hurt someone's feelings.
i've u more than enough n i think i dun think u would even want to be hurt more.
just bear in mind tt i WILL NEVER FORGET u.
n i reli TREASURE all those memories wif u n the sacrifices u made for me.
n i will reli bear in mind tt u were the only guy who tried every ways to be wif me.
u went through a lot things to be wif me.
n i apologise frm the bottom of my heart to hurt u once again.
its the best for U n me.
ur frens must be reli angry at me when i make this decision.
but they once said tt its better to let u go than to hurt u more.
so i heed their advices n to let u go than to hurt u more.
i know ppl may think tis is a selfish decision for me.
but we decided yest.
n to let u know, u're the first guy who reli made me know how to be appreciative.
n u're the first guy whom will do everything for a girl
like me who is not even worth for ur love.
but im reli sorie to do this to u.
its ok for me if u dun want to be my SPECIAL fren.
but bear this in ur mind tt u're still my SPECIAL fren no matter wat happens.
i will treat u the same like how i used to treat u b4 we start the relationship.
n i hope i can be the 'ball' in ur life forever.
cos u're the winnie the pooh in my life.
n i reli do want to know wat u wanted to say to me when u called me
5+ and 6+ in the morning.
i know u want to say something but u just dun want to say it.
even though u say it no point for u to say it, it can be a point for me to hear it.
n i reli hope u will call me n tell me wat u reli wanted to tell me in the mornin just now.


i know its a long thing but tts wat i wanted to tell him.
hope he reads this.
to all his frens im reli sorie i hurt ur fren once again.
this is our decision.


till here then.
too tired n having a bad headache now.
toodles~

let your heart out.

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