u're the one i love.

Why do birds suddenly appear
Every time you are near?
Just like me, they long to be
Close to you.
Why do stars fall down from the sky
Every time you walk by?
Just like me, they long to be
Close to you.
On the day that you were born
The angels got together
And decided to create a dream come true
So they sprinkled moon dust in your hair of gold
And starlight in your eyes of blue.
- The Carpenters

was browsing through my friendster just now n i read bt this month thingy.

i read through june as i was born in that month

and this was wat it was written....

------------JUNE-------------

You've got the best personality and are anabsolute pleasure to be around.

You love to make new friends and be outgoing.

You are a great flirt

and more than likely have an a very attractive partner.

a wicked hottie.

It is also more than likely that you have a massive record collection.

You have a great choice in films,

and may one day become a famous actor/actress yourself

- heck,you've got the looks for it!!!

hehehe. some of it are true. i said some ok! not all!

the part tt i agree the most is i LOVE making new frens.

and this is the decmber part....

---------------DECEMBER---------------

This straight-up means ur the most good-looking person possible...

better than all of these other months!

Loyal and generous.

Patriotic.

Competitive in everything.

Active in games and interactions.

Impatient and hasty.

Ambitious.

Influential inorganizations.

Fun to be with.

Easy to talk to,though hard to understand.

Thinks far with vision,yet complicated to know.

Easily influenced by kindness.

Polite and soft-spoken.

Having lots of ideas.

Sensitive. Active mind.

Hesitating, tends to delay.

Choosy and always wants the best.

Temperamental. Funny and humorous.

Loves to joke. Good debating skills.

Has that someone always on his/her mind.

Talkative. Daydreamer.Friendly.

Knows how to make friends. Abiding.Able to show character.

one guy/girl kind of person. Loveable.

Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. loves music

as for december...hmm...ok lah.

but the part of one guy/girl of person is definately WRONG!

he's not tt kind of person.

he's the OPPOSITE!

but the part where they said loveable and easily influenced by kindness

is true

he's like that..he made me feel loved all the time

now im reli in a confused state

to accept or not to accept

i dun want to be an unfair girl

a promise is a promise

and i can't bear to break it

its reli DIFF to forget bt him

VERI DIFF

but no matter wat i have to

love cannot be forced rite?

and like wat my fren said...

love that someone who loves u

haiz....

still thinking.....

its reli diff to make a decision

if u guys read tis..

could u give some comments on how to forget that someone

who have hurt u a lot

pls n tenkiu!

let your heart out.

its a reli tired day for me!!!

my leg is aching.

especially my corn. its reli damn painful.

had my crosscountry run just now.

and...

.i never get any position.

i dunno la eh.

reli PANCIT like hell lah tis year.

half way run i stopped then i walked.

wanna run back my heart was reli painful, had muscle cramp on my stomach

and my corn was aching like hell.

so i walked all the way.

at least i did some exercising rite.

hahaha. ya so after the run waited for zira to get her trophy.

she got the 8th position.

so good sia.

nvm i got 4 prizes for the crosscountry run for the last four years oreadi,

so nvm (action mesti mau lebih!) hahaha.

ya so after the ceromany ended went TM and CS

cos the 5n2 students wanted to find their class t-shirt.

ya so tagged them along.

after that went to eat at food culture.

haiz. when i entered there

it reminds me back the memory of the first time i met him there.

nieways ate chicken rice just now.

after eating and the 5n2 finally decided abt their class t-shirt we headed home.

i entered my house put my bags down,

washed my feet and i went to

SLEEP....

reli tired lah.

cannot tahan. frm 1+ i slept till 5+ ah.

my mum woke me up at 7 am in the morning just now

when i was supossed to mit iqah at 7.15 am just now.

she was late too (actually she's forever late).

i was reli rushing just now in the monin

and because of rushing i wasn't that reli ready for the run.

ok wateva to the run lah.

5+ my mum woke me up telling me that we're goin out to toa payoh (again).

so woke up, got ready and waited for my cousin to pick us up.

reached toa payoh, the aunties as usual went on with their shopping.

me and my other cousins just tagged along.

after the shopping, we went to eat. i ate (again) crispy noodle.

after that went to our family port which is at eunos, my aunts place.

the uncles watched soccer.

liverpool scored 3 goals to everton.

i tink. hahaha.

ya and now im home so restless and tired.

tomorrow still have to go for my religious class.

so tired sia.

k la. i wanna get my sleep now.

so toodles!!!

let your heart out.

ola eh ola oh!!!! hahaha.

just finished watching my APM show just now.

and it so great cos TAUFIK BATISAH won!!!

woohoo!!!!

he was nominated as the best male singer

and his competitor are all veri damn good.

im so proud of him!!!

firstly he won the singapore idol and he made the malays in singapore proud

and now he made SINGAPORE proud!!!

yeah!!! go taufik go!!! hehehe.

nieways just now went to sch cos i postponed my appointment time

and there was a lot of things that was need to be done in sch just now.

A LOT OF hW.

so stress sia. my SS luckily i managed to copy (hahaha).

but my history....hahaha.

is still not done yet. u just imagine..

u nid to do THREE SEQ. u c lah!!! so many rite.

then still got SBQ. anyways aku buat tak tau je..

.so i just went home after sch for my appointment.

and i met him todae.

the appointment was like hell!!!

its reli painful man!!!

they cut off the dead skin on my corn theni dunno wat they do.

after that they spray my leg with this chemical.

i dun even know wat it is. they sprayed in on my corn for like 20 sec

and two rounds somemore.

i felt like crying but luckily i was strong enough to endure the pain. yeah!!!

the spray is stinging my corn. reli painful.

and when the treatment ended, i came out of the room and guess who i saw...

its him.

he was laughing at me. bloody idoit.

u know y?

i was limping.

stupid seh.

what does he expect?

me running ard just after my treatment?

crazy guy.

ya nieways he took the book oreadi and he paid me the money.

after that he followed me to tamp back to take the POA textbk.

after that went to long john to eat.

but obviously we sat on diff tables

as they did not other girls to c they are wif me n my dear neighbour eka.

wateva to them!

after eating he just walked off without even saying tenkiu to me.

wat an attitude was that man.

i reli hate it.

abeh tadi pon bebual cam nak tak nak.

wateva ah eh!

then i went to sunplaza park to mit dil, syiqah, bobo, ali!!! and fir.

sat for a while i headed home cos my mama called me oreadi.

bought her cheeseburger n fries n i bought myself choco milkshake.

reached home on my comp and checked my mail.

after that watched APM untill now i oni get to updat3 my blog.

ya so tts for todae.

even though my leg is still painful im still goin to run for the crosscountry.

i have to k. i want to.

so i'll update u all wat my position is.

ya so tata guys.

wish me luck for tomorrow aite!

let your heart out.

todae i never go to sch.

veri lazy.

furthermore my corn is acting up.

so early in the morning i woke up had my breakfast

and i went to the polyclinic with eka my neighbour.

ya waited for like one hour for my turn to c the doctor

and it oni take 5 mins for the doctor to examine me.

shit lah!!!

nieways i'm referred to the hospital for the skin doctor consultation.

and i tink they wanna cut off my corn.

so scared.

nieways the appointment is at 9 in the morning

but i postponed the meeting to 2.20 so there goes my outing to suntec city.

nieways will be goin to changi general hospital for my appointment.

and i know its gonna be damn painful.

ouch!!!

ya anyways called his mum just now to confirm bt tomorrow

and she told me that he will call me personally to confirm wif me

but in the end its still his mother that confirmed wif me

so which means he's reli avoiding me.

so i heck care lah!!!

k lah so nieways tomorrow have to go to sch as per norma

l and after sch have to go home straight for my doctor's appointment

at changi general hospital.

ya so guys.

tata!!!

let your heart out.

im back again!!! wohoo!!!

nieways my bro is at home lately

so i didn't get to update my blog.

so now he's out werking then i can update my blog.

hmm...btwn me n my sis...

everythin's fine.

i've sorted things out wif her oreadi.

n we're both fine as per normal.

so now im gonna tell u wat happened for the past few days....

friday

my sis called me to go to her sch to ask me help me take care of aiman

so i went

and aiman didn't want to go wif me

hahaha!

after that my sis gave up and we went to have our lunch at compass point

after lunch proceeded to grandma's place

saturday

went out wif my families to parkway parade

actualie in the first place dun want to go

but was forced by my mum so have to go

after reaching at PP i asked my mum for jeans

and i got it

hahaha

after goin for shopping we went to restu at tamp for dinner

the food there is not that delicious

and the service is slow

had to wait for our food for such a long time

after dinner went to sims ave

my aunties including my mum was longing for durians

so went to get some durians

and we proceeded to my aunts place at eunos

and i ate the durians

yum yum yum

after all the shopping and eating we went home

sunday

for this whole day i sat at home doing nothing

did some of my art

and end the day with doin nothing

monday

yest nth much happened

oni tt i had a conversation wif him

and i told him everything abt wat shld be learned for 'O's

and we had a short conversation

hehehe

had a good and ok conversation wif him

everything's fine and smooth yest

and had mendaki yest

and the mendaki session was fun

mr bala was so sarcastic yest and he made us reli laughed

he was so cute

hehehe

today

went home straight after sch todae

no remedials todae as the teacher's are having contact time

so went home straight and now im blogging

k lah wanna log off now

i wanna watch my korean drama

cannot miss it

k lah will update more later k

let your heart out.

this few days has been a reli stressful days i had.

had problems wif so many ppl.

having some sisters problems is the biggest problem i had.

last time i lost my bestest fren

now i lost my bestest sis.

i dunno la.

just bcos of one person i lost two ppl.

im crying like hell cos i dun ever want to lose my sis.

besides my own mum she's the other one that i reli nid the most.

we would always joke around n i will always be there accompanying her wif her shopping.

now im trying to win her back.

im reli feeling down rite now.

one after another problems that comes to me.

first was HIS problem then fela.

but it was settled oreadi.

now its fadly's and my sis.

haiz!!!! i reli feel like giving up!!! im so tired!!!

nieways guys.

till here then.

im reli too tired.

let your heart out.

i just dun want to hurt u for the second time.

tts all.

i dun want to break ppl's heart

and i dun want to be hurt ever again.

i would want to try it out with you

but my heart just can't bring it foward.

tried veri hard

but still can't.

im veri sure i didn't give u any false hope.

but if there's a bit then i'll admit.

but u're the one who's setting high hopes on me.

i dun want to give u false hope

tt is why i've been toking to u in a rough sarcastic way.

im trying my very best not to give u any false hope.

i oni want u to be my very special fren

cos i know we will be happier this way.

i admit tt that i can't lose u.

but im reli sorie to hurt u this way

cos i reli can't bring myself foward to accept u.

a very special fren is the best that i can treat u.

tts it.

nieways todae im getting closer back with my bestest fren fela.

my wish came true.

she's back.

n i dun ever want to lose her animore.

went to visit syiqah's mum at KK hospital.

she was having her rest when we reached there.

hopefully syiqah's mother will get well soon.

and on the way home i toked to faiz haiqal for the first time.

actually not the first time lah.

i mean a long conversation with him.

hehehe. now i know the real faiz haiqal, my pri sch mate.

hahaha. cool lah toking to him.

nieways i've had a tired and stressful day today.

so till here then.

nid to go to bed early as tomorrow im having my malay oral.

so wish me luck aite guys.

byez!!!!

let your heart out.

firstly i wanna apologise

to my dear best fren fela if i've hurt her a lot.

n secondly

im happy for as naz her x-boyfren

has called last sat nite. hahaha.

im so hepi for her.

i feel tt her life is gonna get better now

as im reli sure tt naz heart is still wif her n her heart is still wif naz.

i wish them all the best.

hopefully they can be together back again.

tts my wish for them.

as i know tts wat fela wants.

this is my advice for fela:

everione deserves a second chance.

i know u wouldn't want history to repeat itself

but im sure it will not as i tink naz has learnt his lesson.

give him a second chance to prove himself

as the trust will develop itself as days goes by.

trust me....

nieways yest was so shocking as i got a phonecall frm hakim.

hahaha. HAKIM!!!! hehehe.

we talked for like 1 1/2 hours.

hahaha. missed him lah.

we talked a lot yest.

he toked abt his life n i toked abt my life.

yeah. nieways his gettin on well with his life.

tts gd.

n todae had my eng oral.

i was gibberish just now.

dun know y.

mayb bcos i was woken up in a shocked manner

while waiting for my turn.

i was so blur just now.

after the oral we went for my history remedial.

it ended at 1.40

n for ur info i learnt nothing at the remedial.

it was so damn bored inside at the AVA rm.

anyways todae another shocking phonecall frm HIM.

he asked for his fren phone number.

i was reli damn shocked as i picked up the phone

without looking at the caller id.

suddenly he asked eh ade no. nazurah?

i was like huh?

i asked sape nie n he mentioned his name.

i was ouh! ouh! ok!

then i gave the number as n he said tenkiu and he hung up the phone.

after tt i went out a while to mit iqah.

went to buy bubble tea n met ali.

he bought his fish ole.

mengidam sgt benda tu mcm org mengandung.

and after that i went straight home.

n now im blogging.

n my sec 5 life...

it sucks!!! totally sucks!!!

so much hw n so much remedial.

but i nvr even hand up any assignment as im just plain lazy.

PLAIN LAZY.

just look at my fcuking pathetic grades for term 1.

it totally sucks!!!!

i reli have to buck up for term 2.

ARGHH!!!!

feel like giving up.

too much things inside my head!!!

too many lectures tt went inside my ears!!!!

im sick and tired of this life!!!!!

ARGHHH!!!!

let your heart out.

hola hola!!!

went to watch teater on friday with my cousins and a few of her frens.

ok lah the drama.

it was presented by 'teater kami'.

the tittle of the drama was 'lorong 12'.

among all the actors there i liked one woman the best. i

n the movie her name was i tink tiara.

the way she acts was so professional with the indonesian essence in her speaking.

so good leh.

she was caught bcos she was suspected of killing a guy after they made sex.

pitied her.

she did this job as it is easy cash for her

as she nids to support her family back in her village.

overall i enjoyed the drama.

after the teater we proceeded to tanjong pagar to mit my other cousin.

he just got his car license and his father just bought a car

so picked us up at tanjong pagar.

then we went to mustafa centre.

bought my younger cousin her present

n i bought myself adidas deodarant.

it smells reli nice. hahaha.

i veri kiasu one.

i ordered my cousin a perfume frm her workplace

n i bought another perfume frm mustafa.

hahaha. crazy me.

nieways after mustafa i proceeded to my aunts place.

slept there.

we reached my aunts place at around 2+ am

cos we sent my bro's gf first at bukit batok.

a long way frm bukit batok to hougang.

was so sleepy inside the car oreadi.

reached my aunts place i quickly changed take my 'supper'

and went to sleep.

the next day which was yest we woke up at 12.

too tired i guess.

then helped my cousin a bit for her younger sister's b'dae party

later in the afternoon yest.

it was a normal b'dae celebration.

went home at 10+ yest.

n todae i had movie marathon all by myself todae.

continued watching korean movie tittled 'the classic'

which was halfway watched yest.

then proceeded with 'my tutor friend' a korean movie too.

and i ended the movie marathon with hindi movie 'dosti'

which means friendship.

i liked all the movies.

but the best one was 'the classic' and 'dosti'

i nearly cried watching this two movies.

haiz...

im touched by how their friendship went in the hindi movie.

by a saving person's life it can turn out to be a lifetime friendship.

how i wish to have a friendship like tat.

go through our life's ups and downs together through thick n thin.

and the promises that they made btwn each other are never broken.

tts wat i liked.

PROMISES ARE NOT SUPOSSED TO BE BROKEN!!!

unlike some other ppl who just lurves to break their promises

and hurt other ppl's feelings.

haiz...

wateva it is.

the wound is still there.....

life is nothing without friendship

because it's only in this ralationship

that one has to be oneself

when friendship is once rooted deeply,

no storm can uproot it

let your heart out.

hola hola!!!

i tink its been days since i wrote my blog.

nieways my life is still as usual.

nothing great reli happened.

btwn me n HIM...

we never contact each other animore

its just tt he made tis idiotic lame fcuking joke late at nite few days back.

k wateva bt him.

its a full-stop n close bk abt him.

haiz..a big haiz abt tis prob....

fela...

my dear BESTEST fren.

dun even know if she still treat me as her BESTEST fren

as she has new crews in her life.

i tink im just a nobody.

haiz. its reli sad lah.

she's not been treating me how she used to treat me last time

ever since we had a tiff abt that useless 'basket'.

till now she like nak tak nak lyn.

so sad sia. veri heartbreaking sia.

now she has lots of new frens.

even though i always hang around wif her frens she acts as if she dunno me.

talk oni for a while n then tats it.

she will spent the whole day wif her ite frens.

its reli sad tt u lose ur one n onli BESTEST fren tt u once knew 4-6 years back.

its a year or two years but more than that.

a fren that u always share ur problems with,

a fren that will cry with u when u're down

n a fren who consoles u wen u're sad.

and a fren who will write for u a message or a poem.

its so great to have that kind of fren.

but as for me..

i lost it.

im reli feeling so down rite now.

fela whom i've always been toking to now is now no longer close to me.

i dun even know if she cares bt me or not.

i reli miss my swit n lembut old fela.

i want her back.

pls god!!!

as for me n fadly..

everithing's fine...

wait!!!

b4 any of u think anything else...

me n fadly are oni frens aite.

not more than that.

he's just one special fren i got now ever since...

fela is no more longer cares for me.

fadly is reli kind toward me.

he will always sent me home.

n the gerl who gets him is reli lucky as he's reli kind, gentleman and swit.

hahaha. n he has been helping me a lot on my art.

tenkiu so much ali!!!

its great to have a fren who have talents on drawing. l

essen a bit of my stress for my art.

n he even blanja me CHOCO MILKSHAKE tat tyme.

yum yum yum. wakakaka.

tenkiu once again my dear ali!!!!

n as for my common test....

its a total DISASTEROUS!!!!

seriously...i tink my progress report card will all be in f9's mostly

cos i failed my bloddy idoitic fcuking malay paper!!!

wat the heck sia!!!

jus bcos i wrote the compo out of point

n i failed the paper PATHETICLY!!!

aiyoo...dunno wats happening.

but wat i know is im reli gonna buck up for term 2.

i know i can do it n i will do it.

go aziemah go!!!

wakaka. k lah till here then.

tired lah. i'll update more soon aite.

* pish out*

let your heart out.

k...todae after sch actualie planned to go to polyclinic to go for my checkup

cos i've been having flu for three weeks oreadi n its still there.

haiz. so irritated with my flu n nose.

then when we were on our way home, nenen n zira decided to catch a movie.

so i just said ok as i was feeling fine on that time.

n so we went to TM to c what movie can be watched at that time.

after deciding n quarelling we decided to watch BIG MOMMA'S 2.

hahaha.

if u believed what ppl said abt that movie which they is bored that u're so wrong

cos its so funny.

the starting was quite bored lah

but when he turned himself to big momma then the exciting part came.

it's reli a great show.

u guys shld go n watch too.

after watching the comedy show u shld feel hepi rite

but as for me i felt sometin was goin wrong.

n true enough something happened!!!.

we were on the escalotor down to level one when i saw his cousin.

n when i turned to the right side of his cousin it was HIM!!!

he was there at TM where i knew i will bounce into him.

gosh!!!

i was so shocked to see him.

when i saw him my heart reli hurts.

n i dunno y. shit man!!!

he saw me n he quickly walk off

. my frens were all telling me to go to him

n ask for ..... back n i was goin to ask from him

but when i looked at his face i was dumb-stricken(is there such a word?).

then i just walked off.

my frens were all nagging at me so we turned back into TM

but too bad he no where to be found.

so all of us proceeded home.

after accompanying zira for her bus me n nenen went to the 293 bus berth.

n while we were on the way there terserempak ngan die lagi!!!

he saw me n he turned the nice n smooth 180 degress to run away frm me.

so i quickly chased him frm behind.

n i was fst enough to catch up with him.

i tegur him like this " mr ....., when can i get my .....?"

in a veri polite manner.

n he replied " eh lek ah sia, tak tau sabar per"

i replied " relax lah. im asking u in veri soft manner so relax. im just asking cos i nid it"

n he replied " bbl ngan audi ah"

n his cousin said " he's goin to get ur money later at 7 pm but we're in some kind of trouble."

n i said " ok! i understand"

i turned to him

n said " i understand k so take ur time"

n i just walked away.

hahaha.

but by looking at his eyes i knw

he's facing a lot of stress

n his face was showing as if he didn't get enough sleep n he was looking veri tired.

pitied him.

i can feel it that he's stress n tired.

just got that feeling.

but why shld i care cos he has the minah rip.

ah!! nieways wateva!!!

let your heart out.

hahaha. feel so relieved!!!

went to tamp inter after got back frm sch to mit zurah

as she wanted to give that sicko the money.

so i tagged her along

as i wanted give that sicko's sister's thing i promised to give her.

n when i met him.

he was staring me as if he wanted to eat me n beat me up.

im not even scared of his stupid stares cos i know im not in the wrong.

u just imagine...

ONLY two days n he found the new one.

MINAH RIP AH BEB!!!

hahaha. good n perfect combination...

MAT N MINAH!!! BRAVO!!!!

talked sarcasticly all the way to him till he gave up

n said if he can throw away the rubbish bin down he will

n i answered back by all means.

if anything happens u're in trouble n he totally gave up.

hahaha.

IM THE WINNER. HES A BIG FAT ASS LOSER!!!!

n this is wat i learnt after all those days...

A MAT RIP WILL ALWAYS BE A MAT RIP!!!

hahaha.

hate all the MATS N MINAHS.

they reli irks e especially the girl just now.

*BLUEK*

make me feel reli sick!!!

wateva it is good luck n all the bst to him.

SICKO!!!!

let your heart out.

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