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2007-06-12T11:36:00.000+08:00

halu halu haluuuu!!!!
hahaha....im bank again!
firstly, holidays are coming and im so looking foward to it.
because i can wake up late!!!!
yayness!!!
but the boring part of it is....i need to work.
but working means more pocket money for me and more shopping right!
hahaha....another 2 more days and that dear friend of mine is going to be 18 soon.
tengok tu muke die....

siang2 da kena sabo.
thanks to me kan qad?
hahaha.....
had superb fun time with my class during our class pit.
they celebrated my birthday.
or to be specific the JUNE BABIES birthday.
hahaha...yang bukan dilahirkan dalam bulan JUNE boleh....BELAH!!!!
hahaha...
i also got my accounting results and alhamdullilah i passed!!!
wheee!!!!
BZF is as per normal, as boring as ever!!!
ouh ya. my and my other three girlfriends went to city plaza to eat Arnold's.
all thanks to hidayah.
ain and hidayah ate the chicken as if they have not eaten for days.
just look at them!

and i also met a few new friends from hidayah.
i think she knows mostly everyone in singapore.
mane2 pegi mane2 gambar die tengok mesti die kenal.
hahaha....
i think i'll stop here cause it's gonna be break time soon.
having SW later and meeting him up.
so yeah....i'll upload the rest of the pics when i have the time aite!

2007-06-05T11:04:00.001+08:00

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2007-05-30T18:12:00.000+08:00

as for now i h ave nothing much to blog about.
something happened just now in school and it pissed me off real bad.
not only it pissed me off.....it breaks my heart too....into pieces!!!!
i think it's my fate to have this kind of treating to get from that person.

khair seemed to change a lot.
i know what i did to him was real bad.
but i had to do it....
im really sorry.
that's why i have promised myself not to get into any relationship anymore untill i finished studying.
i don't wish to hurt anyone anymore.
i just want to concentrate on my studies and make it to poly as i've promised mum.
khair....im really sorry.
but i hope you will have a brighter ahead.
ride carefully aite!

2007-05-24T16:05:00.001+08:00

hidhoooob....
here im updating yerp!!!!
and please stop calling me 5 points.
hahaha.....i thank you all for the compliment.
kan lebih bagus korang doa kan aku.
insya'allah aku boleh jadi 5 pointer yang korang harap kan.
thanks for the compliment and support.
i love you all!!!!!

it's been days that he last msg me asking about me.
the day right after we met with his friends.
i think i was the problem.
and i think i really should make a move and forget about everything.
before i get hurt.
love should not be in my list for the time being.
but FRIENDS is a must.
i just love my friends!!!!
anyway that someone.....
i don't think you will be reading my blog cause i know you don't even know about my blog,
but i just want to let off what's been stuck on my chest.
yes, i do like you.
from the very start i met you last year when you were still attached.
but at that time you didn't know about it.
but now i think you know about it and that's the reason why you're getting away from me.
but i don't blame you for it.
i know you still do keep thinking about your ex.
and not to worry i'm hoping anything from you.
what i feel is only for me to know.
not to worry i will still treat you the same.
and it takes time for me to forget you and not to like you.
good luck in your future endeavours and i wish you luck in everything you do.
just to let you know i will always be here whenever you need my support and help.

school life is getting better.
enjoying every day and time in school.
eventhough sometimes it's quite bored in school my friends are around that makes me forget about my boredom.
CAs are coming next week and i'm super not prepared for it.
especially for ACF.
but do wish me luck.

im so missing my partner.
was supossed to meet him today but he had to work.
so, our meeting will have to be postponed till next month.
and he is sure have to treat me when we're out.
he also have to buy my birthday pressie.
hehehehe....
too bad i can't celebrate it with my classmates cause we're on holiday on my birthday itself.
but never mind it's ok.
i still have my family.

-i just hate mat reps!!!! a lot!!!!!!-

2007-05-20T19:24:00.000+08:00

im super sick!
haiz....i feel warm inside my body but when i touch my neck and forehead it seemed to be normal.
i reli hate to be sick...but thanks to my foul mouth im really sick now.
im down with bad dry cough and flu. and maybe fever too.
i feel super weak.

my school days are superbly nice.
i just love all my classmates.
now im still thinking whether i should be going to school tomorrow.
i feel really weak on the other hand i think i can miss even a lesson of ACF.
im just loving it. eventhough its numbers and i hate numbers but hell i understand the topics and im really loving it!
i just wonder why i feel a bit left out with my classmates.
why must there be different groups when we are all classmates?
did i treat all you differently?
i know i did a mistake in the past but i've apologised and im treating all of you the same.
so why the diff treating?

i think im missing someone.
but does that someone even think of me?
i doubt so.
i don't expect or hope anything from that someone.
but i really do miss that someone.

kak muff!!!!
bile nak buat kan blog kite nie?
im dead bored with this skin.
pls pls pls i need a new skin for my bloggie.

2007-05-08T20:05:00.000+08:00

just bear with this pathethic layout aite.
im still waiting for my dear kakak muff to do my blog layout for me.
so far school's been really great.
shakir is out but sharifah nabila is in.
just got to know a minute ago that she is also one of his friend.
aiyooo....so much connections lah him.
PENING!
nieways eventhough he's not my classmate anymore he's still my dear dear friend.
im having muscle cramps now.
SW lesson just now was great its just that the fatty bom bom guy is forever with his exageration and his goat voice.
irritaing FAT! i just feel like cutting his fat BOOBS out man!
GERAAM!!!!
i just so love my class and my classmates of course.
we have the teamwork and i believe we can all reach the top together with success!
we can do it ISA!!!!
so i think i'll end my post here.
wanna finish up my accounting fundamentals and start dreaming.
hahhaa.....

*STARlikeTOBEY

2007-04-23T16:06:00.000+08:00

its been weeks since i update my blog.
nieways school have started a week ago.
my new school life is GREAT!!!!
i loike!
new schoolmate, new classmates, new teachers and new environment.
the first day of school give me a good exprience. i already new friends in just one day.
just for the information for the people who doesn't know my course and where my school is....
its ite college central bishan campus and im taking higher nitec business administration.
i will update the photos of us when i get the pics from my classmate.
oh ya, i even got a classmate who have some close relation with my cousins.
coolness.
but the thing that stressed me up till now is....PROJECT.
we got a project with a deadline for three weeks from the 3rd day of the school.
till now not even one slide i've done.
hahaha....AYIM!!! thank you so much for buying for me the thumbdrive.
i just love my new classmates....A LOT!!!!

ayim-the big bro of mine!
shakir-my crazy and idotic "bf"
muff-the chubby girl who's always hungry
haida-the big sis tt im afraid
ain-the craziest girl in class
shira-makcik melatar, minah dangdut
diyanah-the girl who always have a lot to ask
khalifah-blackmetal girl
qad-the 'kuai kuai' and quiet girl
khai-can be partners with muff...always hungry
shaiful-elmo!!!
hasif-hahaha....syakir u know i know he dunno.
ali-the chinese guy whom we the class turned him into a malay

the long list of my classmates. love them all.
but not to worry....i still love my old friends.
hehee....hope to meet u girls again one day.
and i also hope u girls are having lots of fun in your new school.
miss u all very much!!!!

2007-04-04T23:21:00.000+08:00

its been a long time i've been MIA.
hehehe...lots of things happened.
i've been busy with my work and i just don't have the mood to update the blog.
yeah so here i start my story...

things between love are ok. alhamdullilah everything's is on good condition eventough some quarelling have happened. we have not meet for at least a week already and i do miss him a lot. but we still do contact each other everyday to keep the love bond still strong together. hehehe...

i missing my secondary school friends a lot!!! i wonder when will be the next time we're going to meet. when i meet them the first thing i will do is to hug them really tightly. i really really miss them a lot!!! nenen and me have become the part time office girl, eton is working at watson, zira is working at raffles hotel, ririn is working at swensens, namira MIA and sue is becoming famous one day with doing the make-up thingy for danielle. i really miss those times we spent together girls.

but i sure still do miss my primary school mates too. ITAH!!!! i miss u lots!!! hahaha...fela not forget. i can meet anytime i want actually. hehe....i really hope for a gathering whreby we can all meet and catch up with the old times. haiz....miss you guys lots!!!!

the happy news....my sis have give birth to baby girl today!!! at 12.09 noon just now. hehehe...her name is aliah nauffah(i think that's her spelling lah). so cute!!! she's fair, small chinese eyes and aiman look alike face. i just love my niece a lot!!! not to forget my dear nephew aiman. hehehe....

do u realise that we're getting apart?
i do realise it. but have you make an effort to save it?
you spent your time more with your friends than with me?
i don't even complain about it cause i don't want any fights to happen between us.
yes i did went out with partner but do you think i enjoyed it?
we merely went out for 1hr and that's it. we went on our separate ways.
i bet you really have a lot fun with her bringing up your mood. you were laughing and having a lot of fun.
she gave you happy mood when you were in the bad mood.
i just think that i am not the one for you. i don't even know how to give you a happy mood.
the only thing that i've been giving you is trouble and problems.
i am really sorry for not being the one that you wanted.

2007-03-22T13:28:00.000+08:00

life's great!!!
yesterday was the day for the gala premier for Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtle.
the movie was ok lah.
but love thought it was illogical cause the ninjas was supossed to be fighting with the shredder.
but the fact is shredder is DEAD dear.
and yesterday they were fighting with the 3000 years myths.
never mind if you are telling people around not to watch the movie, but i do enjoyed it.
oh wells....
yesterday was the day i got to meet love after 1 week and two days of not meeting him.
the first we met yesterday guess what we did?
we FOUGHT!
yes...because i was late and he was in a bad mood as he was having a bad flu.
he kept sneezing in the cinema.
poor him.
but everything went back to normal after the movie and on the way home.
we joked around.
with my next pay which i will be getting next week.
i want to shop, IF the money is enough for me to go shopping lah.
the new bed that i bought last saturday have arrived safely just now.
i love my new bed. hehehe...nut the mattress have yet to arrive.
i just can't wait to sleep on my new bed today.
woohoo!!!!
now i want to eat my lunch and get ready for work.
have to wait for dad to reach home with my pokka green tea.
it just add up to appetite while eating my lunch.
yum yum....
toodles~

2007-03-14T18:13:00.000+08:00

firstly happy birthday to my dearest auntie alizah.
bought for her a little pressie just now.
was really glad that she liked the present.
then i waited for her till her interview with someone who wants to publish her company whatever it is lah.
then she sent me off to work.
feel really lonely today.

i just don't understand you.
i am your own daughter but you will NEVER want to believe whatever i said.
eventhough i told you the truth you still won't give me your trust.
do you even realise that you trust your niece more than your OWN daughter?
i tried my best to everything that can please you but nothing works.
what more do want from me?
do you even realise because you trust your niece more makes me like this?
you expect me to go out with her wherever i go.
you expect me to bring her along wherever i go.
and you expect me to tell her wherever i go.
is she you daughter or AM I?
i feel that i am not you daughter at all.
you know i am really sensitive and you criticise me more about it.
you always compare me with your other nieces.
i know i am the WORST, VERY SENSITIVE and WORTHLESS daughter you ever had.
i know. and i wished i wasn't even born in this world if everything i do is not what you expected.
yes, i AM SENSITIVE and u born me like this.
i just want to apologise to you for whatever i mistakes i've done to you.
i know i can't be like syahirah whom you always praise.
i am sorry that i am STUPID and i can't be clever like indah or even kak rina.
so much for me telling you truth.
and so much for me helping you out and keeping my mouth shut always whenever you scold me nowadays.
i don't know what else i can do to please you cause it seems that whatever i do now just make you angry.
so now i decided to just keep my mouth shut in the house.
i will be like a mute girl that you have wished to be born in the house.

i am sorry if nowadays i've been in low spirits.
i really feel lonely cause my family are giving me all those attitudes.
i really feel left out by own family.
you yourself always spend you time with your friends.
i am not complaining.
it's ok with me if you want to go out with your friends.
i just hope you know when i am lonely and i really hope you will be there for me when i need you.
i don't like the lonely feeling that's all.

kak rin, if you're reading this i just want to apologise k.
i know i've not been the sis that you want me to be.
but if you want to leave me out like the others then i am ok with it.
take care always.

2007-03-11T18:55:00.000+08:00

why do i have such a sucky life?
my mother is ALWAYS siding you.
you are ALWAYS the good one and i am ALWAYS the bad one.
whatever you say my mother will ALWAYS believe you.
if you say you both do care about me then it's good enough.
like what people always say: action speaks louder than words.
the feeling sucks when someone in your own family doesn't believe you.
if whatever happened to me have happened to you then you will feel whatever i'm feeling now.

everything between me and love is greatly fine.
eventhough we have a lot of misunderstandings going on between us we managed to solve it within a few minutes and we will back to normal.
alhamdullilah we are both getting on fine.
yesterday's farewell party was fine.
we had great time together.
his friends were also great.

i am really sorry i was in a bad mood just now.
i didn't meant to spoil your day but i was really not in the mood.
i'm really sorry.

2007-03-09T13:50:00.000+08:00

all the things in my life are getting on fine now.
back to my late work place and busy with my work there.
on tuesday i was working with my aunt's company at shangri lah hotel cause her company provides with all the equipments for any conferences.
me, my cousin and my dear fela.
we had lots of fun doing the job although it ends late.
it was kind of a relaxing job actually.

mr lee kuan yew was of the speakers on the forum and i envy him.
i wish i could have a brain like his cause eventhough he's old he still have that brain that young people now do not have.
he's kind of cute when he smiles and laughs.
haha...ok stop it people might think im crazy.

kak rina, not to worry about my previous post it has absolutely nothing to do with you.
i also would not want you to know whom i referring to.
people might think i take things too hard but that's what i am.
just take care of my little niece in ur belly.
i can't wait for her arrival next month.
for sure she's going to be as beautiful and smart like you.
but not as mischevious as her elder brother hopefully.

saturday love will be having his farewell party.
i don't know whether i want to go or not cause basically it's his farewell party and i want him enjoy his day with his friends.
on sunday it's his family day and his mother wants me to come over.
we'll see how for tomorrow.
but as for sunday i will go for the picnic cause mum knows i will going out and i have her permission already.
but for tomorrow i will have to think about it first.
as for now, i want to think what i want to wear for work today.

will update more if i feel like it.
toodles~

2007-03-04T21:53:00.000+08:00

you're MUCH MUCH more preetier than me.
everyone KNOWS that and they can SEE that.
it's the fact isn't it?
i know it.
you and your sister are the good daughters among all our cousins.
you girs are the preetiest, the cleverest, the ones who always knows how to dress themselves up.
and not to forget you girls are everyone's favourites.
i am just a piece of shite in people's eyesight.
that's the cause that whenever i go out with you girls i will always, ALWAYS look down on myself.
that's also the cause why i rarely meet up with you girls or even slept over your house like how i used to.
i know you girls will say that you don't mean it that way but i can feel it.
i can really feel it and it feels really sucks. i hate the feeling.
i thought i could look up on to you girls whenever i had a problem but now i realise that i am not up to you girls standard.
i know im not as preety as you girls.
im not as clever as you girls.
i just make people feel disgusted a lot when they look, talk or even with me.
you girls are the pearls and anybody's eyes.
you girls are the best in everything.

yesterday was the worst feeling i ever had in my life.
i just can't keep the feelings in me any longer.
i justhad to pour everything out yesterday.
kak fiza, im really sorry the date didn't work out as how it was supossed to be.
im really sorry.
hakim, thank you for talking to me and ease a little of burden yesterday.
i am really thankful for your help and your listening ears.
you're such a great pal.

the bright moon that we watched yesterday just soothe my heart my even more.
i thank you for being there for me ALWAYS when i need a shoulder to cry on.
thank you for wiping away my tears and thank you for making me realise something that i don't even know.

Tercipta Untukku

menatap indahnya senyuman diwajahmu
membuat ku terdiam dan terpaku
mengerti akan hadirnya cinta terindah
saat kau peluk mesra tubuhku

banyak kata
yang tak mampu kuungkapkan
kepada dirimu

aku ingin engkau slalu
hadir dan temani aku
disetiap langkah yang meyakiniku
kau tercipta untukku
sepanjang hidupku
aku ingin engkau slalu
hadir dan temani aku
disetiap langkah yang meyakiniku
kau tercipta untukku
meski waktu akan mampu
memanggil seluruh ragaku
ku ingin kau tau
kuslalu milikmu
yang mencintaimu
sepanjang hidupku

2007-03-02T11:55:00.000+08:00

i am feeling really low today.
bad mood really make everyone's day go worse.

so much for the promise WE made for not keeping anything from each other.
ya as if.
all along it's been you who keeps anything that you're mad about.
i don't want to say anything more.
i don't want to find fault with you.
so i guess tomorrow will be a bad mood day for you.
so there's high chances that we're not meeting.
suit yourself then.
meet your friends and enjoy yourself as if you don't have anyone to think about.

plans for tomorrow is getting lesser.
itah is working.
and that someone is BAD MOOD.
one last hope i am putting on is my future-sis-in-law to be.
hopefully she will contact me and confirm with me as soon as possible.
i don't want to make myself think too much.

now i am getting ready to meet fela.
take the pics and cool myself down without his help.
so long then.
toodles~

2007-03-01T23:29:00.000+08:00

the last time i saw you,
there's a big wide change i see in you.
but whatever it is i wish you luck in your new relationship.

the pay i got on wednesday,
was really lesser than usual.
it's all because of the chinese new year celebration.
i really have to cut down on my expenses and save this pay of mine till i get my next pay.
or else i just have to diet myself and restrain myself from treating myself to eat delicous food.

i have a lot of plans coming up this saturday.
since my plan of working this sat is taken up by someone else so...
might as well i go out and enjoy myself.
ya, as i said,
love asked me to accompany him to visit his cousin who just received a new born family.
it's either he wants to go and visit his little new born family or go to esplanade and meet his friends.
i also thought of asking kak fiza out to bugis to find her jeans.
that will happen if she wants to go.
its been a long time since i last saw this lovely sis-in-law to be of mine.
i missed her like hell.
my third plan is that i want to meet my darling itah.
she's the second person that i missed too.
so she came up with the plan of meeting up this sat to catch up with the old times.
she planned to sit at starbucks.
all the list above are my plans for this sat.
but i'll decide which to entertain first.
because im a girl of my word(is there such thing?)hahaha.
ya so we'll see what plans of above happened.
now i want to go and watch my future-dream-forever husband show.
PRISON BREAK!!!
hehee....toodles~

2007-02-26T13:21:00.001+08:00

bored irritating day i describe today.
having a big ulcer on inner side of my lips.
the weather today is also damn hot.
the promised call never fulfilled.
its just not my day today....

2007-02-25T00:26:00.000+08:00

i feel so fresh after a cold bath.
one whole day i give out sweat.
i rushed after getting ready to meet fela at the coffeeshop.
reached at the coffeeshop i was already sweating.
after taking my jeans me and fela proceeded to orchard.
she wanted to buy for magic's birthday present.
after a few minutes(hehe)we then went back to orchard mrt station to meet love and the others.
they were quite late and i was earlier than them. haha.
someone even lost the bet!
from orchard mrt station then we walked till far east plaza to have our dinner.
empty stomachs are fully filled then we walked all the way to plaza sing.
along the way i thought we were suspossed to watch chingay.
but nope, they wanted to watch the fireworks instead at esplanade.
ririn, nadia, my dear cousin, izzatul, i am really sorry i didn't watch chingay with you girls.
i am really sorry. but i am glad that you girls enjoyed it.
fela then went to meet magic.
actually we did stopped somewhere in the middle of orchard road to watch chingay for a while.
by then i was sweating as if i have just finished running 2.4km.
it was so cramped up and it was bloody crowded.
there was this mat salleh guy with his big black dog.
love was so freaked out that he prespired like hell.
cute lah him..hahaa. he looks cute when he's freaked out.
haha.
reached esplanade, cooled ourselves down and BOOM! fireworks.
i LOVE the fireworks. but this time the fireworks were not as beautiful as the last week's.
bumped into wando and the gang.
i missed my dear chubby friend wando. hehe. it's been a long time since i met him and joked around with him. we used to be close but now he's already attached and having his own happy life.
ali was there too. he really do change a lot. he was with his new gf. didn't bother about him that much.
he's happy with his gf and i don't even want to know about him anymore.
i am enjoying my life and i am happy with it cause love is making my happy.
and i thank god for making me meet love.
hee...life's great for me now.
i have my friends who loves me and i have someone who loves me as much as i love him.
he's still there at esplanade with his friends.
will be waiting for his call when he comes back home.
ouh yah. bo and kechik was like super glued to each to other.
they were not separated even for a minute.
and they are really do suited for each other.
happy for them.
i think i'll my post here then. i want to go and watch NORBIT.
toodles~

2007-02-21T13:40:00.000+08:00

the holidays were not that great.
but i really had a lot of fun particularly on monday.
went out with love and his friends to somerset.
i was really late.
after everybody came at somerset we went to cineleisure.
they wanted to eat at LJS.
after eating their dinner we walked pass all the CLOSED shopping centres.
our last pit stop for the day was at esplanade.
two of their friends were there first with their girlfriends.
at 9p.m sharp there were fireworks in the air.
it was really B-E-A-U-TIFUL!!!!
i LOIKE.
i like it more when i watch something i really love to watch with someone i love.
he was there with me.
watching the colourful fireworks with me.
hee....
today my everyday routine will start back.
wake up in the morning, watch rtm1 malay drama.
cleanup the house.
have a short rest.
eat my heavy lunch then get ready to go to work.
this routine will keep continuing till friday.
today i don't really have the mood to display a long post.
im having a really bad bad stomach cramp.
i really hate this cause this thing will always come once a month.
so till here then~

-PERIOD-

16 feb 07

2007-02-16T12:03:00.001+08:00

aiman in getting sick and more sick day by day.
his cough is getting worse.
such a small little kid but his cough is like one adult coughing like hell.
he went to another doctor yesterday.
a lot of medicine to be eaten.
i really hope he will get soon.
can't bear to see him cough like that.
anyway got my pay yesterday.
not as much as what i used to get cos there's one day that i did not attend work.
sick of course.
but never mind. im trying to save up the money that i have now.
the money i have now have to last till the end of the month.
i can't spend on things that i don't need.
but as for FOOD it's must to buy.
we need food to live. haha.
k now i need to get ready my things.
meeting fela at 2 at inter then accompanying him to the hospital.
ya. so off i go now.
i will update more if i have the free time.
so toodle doo~

2007-02-15T12:50:00.000+08:00

syiqah thank you for shifting this blog of my mine.

im a blur in these kinds of things.

hee...

hey itah,

i read syamim's blog just now.

he really touched me with all his post that has got to do with you.

i know he did a lot of things that hurt you.

but i can feel that he's really regretful and sorry for all the things that he did to you.

i know you are not ready to commit in any relationship right now.

but i just thought of giving you a piece of mind when i came across his blog just now.

just one piece of advice,

follow your heart k darl.

eventhough i always did bad things to you,

i want you to know that i still love you

eventhough i am always the one bullying you,

i want you to know that i still love you

eventhough i always make fun of you,

i want you to know i still love you

eventhough there's always misunderstandings and quarrels between us,

i want you to know that i still love you

and eventhough i have a lot of guy-friends talking i,u,

i want you to know that i still love you

to summarise it all,

you are the one and the only one

("v")

2007-02-13T23:52:00.000+08:00

firstly HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY to whoever celebrates it.
hahaa.i don't celebrate valentine's day but 14 february is a special day for me.
hee.only a few people know what a special day it is for me.
i just ("v") every 14th in each month.
got back my mp3 just now.
but the meeting was absolutely pissing me off.
so i head off to work with a real heartache because i was really sad and angry.
my emotions really took over me just now.
well anyways, everything's back to normal.
i wonder when will i get the phone call that that person promised me.
bet he's really stucked in his lala-land that he's not able to give me a call.
hmmm. "da biase da".
im really wishing that we could meet tomorrow.
i really wish for that.
but i don't think you will make any arrangements for us to meet.
not to worry your valuable that's with me will be cared for with all my heart.
i will make it as if it's mine.
if you want to give it to me also can.
i'll be really happy to receive it.
i think i'll end my post here.
the thing is i am getting sleepy!!!!

HAPPY 2ND MONTH!!!

("v")s YOU LOTS!!!!

so toodle-dooo~

2007-02-12T13:27:00.000+08:00

got my 'O' level result last friday.
and the results was i what i expected.
i knew i can't make it to poly.
i am really bad at my maths and i got bloody E8 for it.
that's why i am not qualified for poly.
i know i make everybody who knows me especially my families and cousins disappointed at me.
but what i know is i did my best.
and i promise myself and to my mum that i am going to study really hard when i enter school.
and i am going to study like hell so that i can enter poly like what the others want me to.
i am really sorry to those who really expected me to go to poly.

kak rina,

im reli sorie i didn't give what u wanted.

but i want to tell u that tt's the best that i did.

u know how weak i am on my maths.

but i promise u i will study hard for my

business admin course and make it poly.

insya'allah.

i know u're reli disappoited at me.

im reli sorie.

toITAH....

congrats girl u make it poly.

im reli happy for u.

ur wish to go to RP will soon come true.

hee....bile nak jumpe aku nie?

i miss u lots lah girl!!!

things are getting better now.

fights will always happen but in the end it will be ok.

i am always the fire.

hahahaha...and he's the water.

that's why everything will always get back to normal.

can't wait for the 2nd month.

hee...

take care wherever you are.

don't ever forget to take your medicine!!!!

2007-02-05T23:17:00.000+08:00

i reli beg u...

pls dun do stupid stuffs to urself.

i reli beg u!!!

if i reli do mean anything to u...pls stop wateva u're thinking in that head of urs.

stop doing stupid stuffs.

i reli beg u.

2007-02-02T00:42:00.000+08:00

i guess u're changing

its been three days u fall asleep while talking to me

and u seemed bored when u're talking to me

takraw seems everything to u

i dun want to get into a fight but....

nvm...

i dun even know wat to say

u always feel tired and sleepy

while im always the one who will keep waiting for ur call

even though i know u will not be calling

just hope that u can open up ur mind and think abt it

2007-01-21T15:54:00.000+08:00

sunday will always be a bored day for me.
firstly there's nothing for me to do at home.
and secondly my love is schooling today.
religious class.....
so yeah....im damn bored now with nothing to do.

yesterday met up with my love, yazzier and syahirah after work.
i was working yesterday till 4.45.
abang ali and kak lia sent me till expo mrt station.
thanks a lot.
met up with them at bugis mrt station at around 5+.
then we proceeded straight to bugis street.
i bought a pair of jeans and two t-shirts.
bought syahirah a jeans too for her belated birthday present.
after shopping went to have my lunch+dinner at burger king.
had turkey bacon meal as per normal. my favourite.
some misunderstanding happened between me and my love at bugis.
after calming him down, took the jeans that we bought cause syahirah did some alterations to her jeans.
then we proceeded to parco bugis cause i need to find a pair of sandles for my dear nephew.
but too bad all the sports outlets at bugis doesn't sell kids sandles.
but i promised myself i will get him the sandles asap.
from bugis we took the bus to esplanade to meet my love friends there.
at last i got to meet hakim.
it's been a very long time since i met him.
so all the way i let my love have a good time with his classmates.
i was all the way talking to either hakim or my cousin.
at 10.30 i proceeded home.
shared a cab with syahirah and of course i paid the most.

love reached home at 3.15 am and he called me up.
talked to him till 5+.
i apologised to him and all that kind of stuffs.
talked things out and he was dead tired.
so we hung up the phone and went to lala land together.

now im just waiting for the clock to tick till 5.
waiting for my love to call.
for now...
i want to go and watch a dvd that i just found inside my brother room.
just to kill my time and my boredom.
so till here then....

TOODLES~

we had a lot of misunderstandings these days

but i hope it will still keep us standing together side by side

handling and solving our problems together

i know you wouldn't want to end this thing that soon

i also don't want the same

so i hope we can be patient with each other

and i promise you....

we won't go to a crowded place like that again k

and thank you for keeping your promises yesterday

i appreciated it

whatever i do i hope you know it's for your own good

hopefully mak will give a green light to us one day

2007-01-17T14:39:00.000+08:00

my day is a total boredom today.
i was awaken by my love call at 8 am in the morning.
he called up to say he was waiting for his friend's message to go to school.
talked for a while on the phone...
and back to my lala land.
my dear nephew woke me up again at 11+.
that's when i really woke up.
fold the clothes.
brushed my teeth.
and out to iqah's crib.
yeah WITHOUT bathing.
heck...who want to smell me except for iqah of course.
inserted few songs inside my mp4.
quickly rushed home.
ate my lunch and waited for my love's call for hours.
in the end he was online at msn and got to know he's still in school.
he's busy with his school work.
never mind then. still have other days to meet.
now just waiting for the clock to tik till 3.30
then i will get ready to go to work.
now i want to go and watch NICKELODEON.
bored what. so watch the tv can a least cheer me up.
heee...toodle doo~

2007-01-16T12:47:00.000+08:00

THANK GOD I FOUND YOU
I would give up everything
Before I'd separate
Myself from you,
After so much suffering
To finally find unvarnished truth
I was all by mysel
fFor the longest time
So cold inside
And the hurt from the heartache
Would not subside
I felt like dying
Until you saved my life

CHORUS
Thank God I found you
I was lost without you
My every wish and every dream
Somehow became reality
When you brought the sunlight
Completed my whole life
I'm overwhelmed with gratitude
My baby I'm so thankful
I found you

I will give you everything
There's nothing in this world
I wouldn't do
To insure your happiness
I cherish every part of you
'Cause without you beside me
I can't survive
Don't want to try
If you're keeping me warm
Each and every night
I'll be alright
Because I need you in my life

REPEAT CHORUS

See I was so desolate
Before you came to me
Looking back I guess
It shows that we were
Destined to shine
After the rain, to appreciate
The gift of what we have
And i'd go through it all over again
To be able to feel this way

i reli love the lyrics...
a lot...
its actually meant for my love a.k.a pakcik sepet....heee...:p
firstly sorie becaouse i've not been updating my blog at all.
hahaha...been busy working and another factor is laziness.
u all know me.
my life have been good since i started working.
getting my own pay as my own income.
it feels great when you get the money on your hands as you feel satisfied after working hard for it.
i just got my 3rd pay yesterday.
gave some money to mum and some i saved it in the bank.
the rest for my own expenses.
i thought of buying for my little nephew a new pair of sandals as his crocs sandal is small for him already.
once i see any nice sandals when i go out then i'll buy it for him.
later i will be going out.
as per normal to work.
oh yah...i just got my hair permed last saturday.
most my cousin liked it a lot as they said it suited me better than my last hair.
the hairdresser got my fringe rebonded too.
but now its getting back to its normal curl.
no worries, i am goint to rebond my fringe again this saturday.
its only a maybe...my love said he will try to find out how much it will cost and he wants to pay for it.
yeah so i will just wait for this saturday.
ok lah.
now i want to get my lunch and get ready for work.
i need to buy sweets for the jws in my office.
big big jaws.
hahaa...till here then. toodle doo~

its been one month and 2 days now.
i just hope it will last longer.
i just want to thank you for holding on and being patient with my behaviour.
you are really wonderful.
you knew how to make me laugh and make me smile.
i really enjoyed those fun times with.
my day will be a non-stoppable laughing day whenver im with you.
i apologise for the jokes that i always made on you.
its just my way for making myself laugh.
i hope you won't take it to heart.
we had a lots of fun times together,
lots of laughter,
lots of sharing,
and i really hope we can go through the thick and thin of life together.
you made me realise how special i am to you.
and you are really special to me my love....

2006-12-19T10:43:00.000+08:00

so sorie for the updates at all since the last post.
i never update more bcos the first ting is im werking.
the secong thing is bcos i tot no one will be reading my blog anyway.
but since my fren syiqah is asking me to update....
so yeah here i am updating my blog.

my life is like a cycle since i started werking.
i will wake up in the morning watch tv and have breakfast.
then i will help my mum by folding the clothes.
then i will watch the tv again.
by 3.15 i will get ready for work.
4 i will go to work oreadi.
by 11+ i will be home.
then tok on the phone till late nite.
tt will be my weekdays cycle.

on weekends the plans of the makciks² will decide my day.
if i have plan wif him then i will go out wif him.
if not then i will either stay at home or go out wif my family.
and tt will be my weekends cycle.

see told u rite how bored my life is.
its been raining non-stop the past three days.
and i've freezing like hell in the office.
wat do u expect sitting rite under the air-con.
no choice...im only a part timer and i have no right to choose where i wanna to sit.
sleeping wif hte cold weather just makes me want to not wake up and just go to sleep all the way till i feel i reli wanna wake up.
haha..
life's bored during the weedays cos i have to werk.
the weekends depends.
if im able to go out wif him then i can have a shorty, sweet and funny joker.
haha....
my mp3 is on under repairation so i have to work wif boredom.
but i just got a msg a few days ago saying tt the mp3 is ready for repairation.
so im gonna collect it tomorrow maybe wif him or maybe wif fela.
see how.
so now i wanna go and get my breakfast.
my head is giddy bcos my stomach is empty.
tts the side effect of my empty stomach.
haha..k lah. i will update more when i have the time.
toodle doo~

2006-12-09T23:13:00.000+08:00

im gonna move on like wat all my lurvely frens asked me too.

i am reli.

since he's happy i oso have the right to be happy rite?

im not gonna dissappoint all my frens animore.

im gonna leave my past behind.

im gonna put it in the bottle and throw it into the sea.

and make the bottle go with the wave to a faraway place.

i dun wanna face wif it animore.

a new life, but the same me.

i wanna be independant, and i wanna be happy always.

tts wat im going to be.

say goodbye to ali and my past.

im starting a new life.

im gonna be happy in my life.

i will make it happy.

tenkiu god for opening up my heart and my mind widely.

i reli thank u for tt.

tenkiu so much!

2006-12-05T14:08:00.000+08:00

been bz wif work since i started werking at dpex last thurs.
the work is quite easy lah.
the pay is also not bad.
i thank god for giving a me job to keep me busy and not thinking of anything else.
the job really does keep me busy.
as usual i will wake up late.
then i will take my breakfast.
i will help my mum do some household chores.
and then watch the tv then eat my lunch b4 getting ready for work.
5 i will start working and ends at abt 10.30+++.
hahaha....once i reach home i will one th comp if my bro's not at home.
i will log on till 12+
till im tired then....zzzzzzzz.

had barbeque with my f amiles at east coast on sat.
it was not tt enjoyable.
but ok lah.
reached home at abt 12+
reached home straightaway i went to zzzzzzzzz.
i saw the bright full moon.
and it straight bring back the memories of him.
haiz....

i dunno why my heart told me to call him yest.
yeah....so somehow the first call i told to just talk to his soon-going-to-be gf.
at tt moment....my heart CRACK!
haiz...
i dunno why.
then the second call i called i was acting as per normal despite the the tears which won't stop rolling down.
yeah...actually he suspected something.
but i just told him i was ok.
just got the mood to cry for over nothing.
and he goes...ouh ok!
haiz...a person who is DEEPLY MADLY IN LOVE won't realise his surrounding except the girl.
nieways yest had a long tok wif him.
i forced myself to put everything behind and tok normally.
yah so we atalked abt lots of things.
how he got to know the girl and all.
we even talked abt prison break.
hahaha....yah then he needs to col the girl.
then i went to sleep bcos of the energy i put for crying.
haiz....
last night chat will be the last one of all.
i hope he will happy.
i will just stay on at the bottom of the ladder while he's up the stairs,
CHANGED, HAPPILY WIF THE GIRL.
and im below looking up to see the person in my heart happy.
its my fate k.

what fela said is true.
i just have to let him go for now.
if he's really meant for me then he will come back.
at least i got a chance to be loved by him.
i have the fond memories i spent wif him.
and the footprints he left in my life won't be erased ever.
i will just put this episode aside but not closing it and move on to the next chapter STEP BY STEP.

i just want to thank god for sending me angels friends into my life.
i just love my frens a lot.
i love nenen, zira, ansari and not to forget fela A LOT!
they were the one who stayed by my side and make my life happy.
i thank u guys a lot!
muacks!

as i've said upteen times...
i will never ever forget u.
and i locked up my heart.
just in case u wanna open it back..
the key is with u.

2006-11-24T19:55:00.000+08:00

the wonderful 5n3 pupils (without eton of cos!)

the wonderful mrs ho -form teacher of 5n3

me n my dearest nenen

me n eton!!!

sue n me

me n my lurvely zira

ririn n me

the forver sweet aidil n me...

the oni chinese guy i love the most.....for 5 yrs

i like him...haha...the handsome arif n me

me n taufik

me n the nice and hot saber

me n the non-stop-smiling adi

atikah n me

me n the crazy wati

the forever laughing nuyul n me

me n kindergarten mate

the newly married cikgu hezrina, cikgu hasana n me

the cutest ever discipline master mr francis

bestest security guard

the coincident meeting wif him

the caring mr donavan

2006-11-24T19:12:00.000+08:00

its two days after my graduation day.
i had lots of fun on my grad day.
thx to kak fiza i looked totally diff on tt day.
took lots of pics and i reached home late tt night.
hahaha...
gonna miss all the five years i've spent in tt sch.
after the grad ceremony all, me and the 5n2s' students went to raffles place.
we slacked by the riverside and played games.
hehe...ouh yah aidil....
tenkiu for carrying me when i complained my leg hurts.
its so sweet of him to piggyback me.
hahaha.....
i'll upload the pics later but be shocked wif my diff and thick face uh.
i myself dun believe i look like tt on the grad day itself.
ouh yah on tuesday and the morning of the grad day,
me and some of the 4es' students decorated the hall.
i will upload all the pics aite.
not to worry.
somehow yest something happened.
nenen somehow felt sad abt wat happened on the grad day.
she said now she knows who her true friends are.
its sad lah when she said like tt.
haiz...
but wateva it is she's still my fren.
and more thing tt just make my whole day.
i met ALI at eastpoint.
actually i didn't saw him at first.
i was njoying the aircon form the shopping mall.
nenen called out for my name and when i turned i saw him!!!
hahaha...
total coincidence.
wateva it is i thank god for answering my prayers.
i was thinking abt him the day b4 the grad and i saw him on the grad day itself.
hahaha...kkk
enough abt him.

till now i've yet to open my mouth and speak to HER like how i used to.
after wat happened last week i still want to keep mum and talk nothing unless its reli necessary.
i still can't bring myself foward to open my mouth being afraid if i HURT HER feelings again and if she can't accert wat i said.
im sorie for wateva i've done from the day u gave birth to me.
i know im not being the best for u and SHE is the best in ur eyes.
for now im just gonna keep my mouth shut and let SHE do the talking.
she's the best, she's the cleverest so i might as well shut up rather than fighthing wif SHE whom will never listen to wat ppl say.
SHE is always right and HER is always standing by her side giving SHE the support even if SHE was in the wrong.
from now on i will just act as a nobody in the house and let HER and SHE be happy and let them think they are always the right one.
-SHE n HER are two diff person...

....here are the pic of the preparation of the grad day and on the grad day itself.
pls do feel free to post ur comments on the tagboard.
be it a bad or good comment.
im happy to accept all ur comments.

k this was me on tuesday. haha...stupid me. tired after all the decorating thing.

and this is me doing the curtain on the mornin of the grad. dun mind my big butt huh.

this was after the whole thing was done. look at the b-e-a-u-tiful curatin tt was made by me and the atikah.

before we go home to take our rest.

on our way to the grad nite.

our class portrait

the malay girls

2006-11-19T18:37:00.000+08:00

today is the 19th of november...
which means its FADLY'S B'DAE!!!
hey ali....
if u r reading my blog...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY FADLY!!!!
sorie i never celebrate ur b'dae like how u used to celebrate mine.
im dreadfully sorie abt it.
but somehow i missed the day u celebrate my b'dae.
tt was the veri last time ever i watched sunset with u.
the last sunset with the first guy i know for a long time.
i'll treasure every moments of it.
reli....
but too bad memories will oni stay as memories.
as what u said.
we have to move on.
but seriously i reli have wonderful sweet and romantic moments wif u.
and oni u.
thx a lot ali.
i reli appreciate it a lot.
A LOT.

nieways i went out to vivo yest.
the place was damn big.
haha...
i went there to survey clothes for my grad day.
yeah so my cousins were helping me out to choose an outfit that fits me best.
most of frens are forcing me to wear a dress.
HELL NO am i goin to wear tt thing.
even though when i was survey-ing all the clothes, some of the dress reli caught my attention.
but too bad im not goin to buy it and wear it.
its soooo not me.
hahaha...
ya then just now went down to bugis.
bought my grad day clothes oreadi.
wooohooo!!!!
no more stress oreadi.
all done.
just have to wait for the day to come.
with my make-up and my hairdo.
im not goin to be me on tt day.
im goin to be someone else.
hahaha...
i bought a formal top and pants.
and i feel reli comfortable wif it.
so its ok k.
so to those who wanna c me in dress...
DUN EVER DREAM ABT IT.
hahaha...
aziemah? in dress? NEVER!!!!!

2006-11-17T20:11:00.000+08:00

one more paper to go n im free!!!
wooohooo!!!
so hepi tt i can not use my brain for the whole three months just to think abt maths problems.
hahaha...
i reli hate maths...A LOT!
had hist paper just now.
was so happy that russia came out.
and i did a last min revision for tt but alhamdullilah i can still make it.
hee...
hopefully i can make it to poly.
but i dunno why my mindset kept thinking abt ite.
maybe becos i know wat my results will be.
haiz...
but never mind.
we'll just c wat my results will be.
heehe...
after monday i will never go back to tt sch animore.
but obviously i nid to go back to sch for our graduation day on wed.
on tues i still have to go back to sch to be representative for the leaving cert.
haiyooo..
troublesome lah..
wat to do...
my duty of being a monitress.
k lah gtg now.
have other things to do.
will update more once i have the time.
toodles!

im sorie for wat i did.
im reli sorie.
i know im reli bad but i dun want to hurt u more later.
im reli reli sorie.
u can hate me for all u want but i have to do this in order not to hurt u more.
once again, im sorie.

2006-11-14T22:39:00.000+08:00

whoa!!!
been days i never blogged.
hahaha...too busy wif my O levels.
and my own personal life problems.
but all are back to normal.
got my mp3 oreadi.
and oso a slingbag from my own money.
haha...
actually i was in a confused state last two days.
but now my mind is set.
no changing oreadi.
haha...
ouh yah...graduation day is oni next week but i have yet to buy anything for my grad.
i dun know whether i should go or not oso seh.
no clothes no nothing.
haiz...
an ugly girl wearing a nice dress won't make any diff.
its still ugly...
so yeah....
still tinking of goin or not.
nieways i tink i'll end here then...
nothing to jot down here.
my mind is empty.
till here then....
toodles~

i am going for u and oni u...
is my choice the best?
i wun know but its up to u to make it the best...
hehe....

2006-11-05T13:12:00.000+08:00

maths paper 1 and socials studies paper is the first two papers that im gonna take tomorrow.
veri nervous.
veri veri...
now im still thinking and reflecting back to myself if i can make it to poly or not.
later my dear nenen will be coming over to my house.
studying together.
hopefully i could catch some of the maths topics later.
nadiah is quite an expert in it so most probably she can help me out wif it.
for the past few days...
nothing much happened.
my life were as bored as per normal.
after completing the whole chunk of written paper exams next week...
maybe on saturday my classmates are all planning to go out for raya!!!
yeah...
at least the next two weeks im oni left wif the history paper.
and my teachers and frens reli know me well that i reli hate that topics.
haha...
the next three weels will be my last paper...
YEAH!!!!
the one last paper exam of my secondary sch life!!!
yeah...
science paper 1...
after the paper....IM GONNA RELI NJOY MY LIFE LIKE HELL!!!!!
hahaa...just have to wait for the day to come...
20th november 2006...
the day that im gonna shout for my free life....

kenape kiter slalu gadoh ah?
haiz...
where's the old us who always joke around???
sorie lah eh of my childish and irritating behaviour...

2006-11-02T17:16:00.000+08:00

art O levels are over yest.
to me the paper was ok.
and to me my final layout is like primary sch colouring.
hahaha...
dun care lah eh.
its the best i could do.
nieways more papers to come.
ready or not i still have to endure through it.
no matter what i must try my best to at least step into poly.
MUST TRY!!!!

raya is so-so for me this year.
dun have the raya mood that much.
so far my collection is oni $320.
but spent some of it for my mp3 oreadi.
so left wif oni a few bucks.
never mind can still go and collect money next week.
haha...

yest after sitting aroung wif my frens for a while,
i had to rush home to take the tickets and pass the KL trip ticket to my cousin.
wif the sch U i rushed to the interchange.
when i was rushing to the inter.
guess who i saw.....
ALI.
yeah him...
him with his highlighted blond hair.
he saw me he looked down on me and just walked off.
heart pain man!
but wateva it is i know he's happily contacting wif a chinese muslim girl.
calld n chatted wif him for a while yest.
ouh yah...
somehow yest i got this breathing difficulty.
veri hard for me to go to sleep.
but somehow at 2+ i guess i was already sound asleep.

im sorry for wateva happened yest.
my fault k.
i dunno why i was so pissed off when u told me u were at ITE simei.
just the fate that we can't meet each other.
god oni knows when the time will come.
haiz....

2006-10-25T20:38:00.000+08:00

SELAMAT HARI RAYA!!!!
to all muslims i wanna apologise any for wrongdoings that i've done to you guys.
especially to my frens.
and to all readers i apologise aite!

yest sat at my grandma's place for the whole day.
me n my cousin helped our grandma out.
i had to wash the glasses, refill the dishes, cut the ketupat and the lepat.
tiring sey...
but it was all worth it.
alhamdullilah i got quite a lot of collection yest.
$300+ in total yest.
alhamdullilah rezeki banyak...
hehe....

todae never go sch again.
woke up late.
but then went for the science class just now wif nenen.
tomorrow have to go sch to do my art.
have to at least finish up 5 pieces tomorrow.
next week is already the art paper.
haiz...
time flies reli fast.
wonder if i can make it to poly next year.
insya'allah.

i was so happy to get ur msg yest.
didn't expect for ur msg but then u still msged me.
hehee...
thx eh!
ouh yah!
raya jgn lupe dtg umah tau.
u gave me ur word to come here rite.
so will be waiting for u aite.

org raya memang lah slalu penat.
tapi smalam kate lagi 10 min call.
tup tup....10 min tu die tido.
orang ade lah tunggu die sampai 1+,
die mengorok.
haiz...

2006-10-21T23:54:00.000+08:00

did a lot of housework todae.
wipe the dust on the television cabinet.
cleaned the sliding door at the balcony.
helped my parents wif the money.
put the money inside the envelopes n sort the money out.
then went out to meet my dear bestie fela.
bought ovalette for my mum, ribbon for the bottles and castor sugar.
then i took a nap for a while.
woke up bathed, then got ready for breaking fast.
after tt i decorated bottles.
then i did my art.
then rested for a while.
now of cos im blogging.

yest went for the science class.
the class started at 2.30 ended at 6.
then i break my fast wif MacDonalds.
boringggg day.

tomorrow maybe im goin out.
going geylang to fela maybe.
c whether her mother allow her or not.
if not i'll just sit at home lah.
do housework again obviously.
haiz....

hey got to know ur baju raya oso BLUE colour ah?
same ah!!!
hahaha...coincident².
i wish i can see u wearing baju kurung one day.
insya allah...

ah meng!!!
raye nak sampai!!!
hang on there ya....
puasa PENUH eh!!!
u can do it ah meng!!!
later i reward u wif del monte banana k.

2006-10-19T17:39:00.000+08:00

alhamdullilah the practical can be done wif eased mind.
hahaha...
the paper was ok lah.
i dun wanna be too confident abt the paper.
but somehow i did get the correct name for the salt.
wooohooo!!!
hahahaX~
i was smiling all the way after the practical cos im happy one paper was over and,
i feel good after doing the prac.
just hope the other papers can be done too.
insya allah.

btwn me n sis...
its still like tt. since everything i do makes her irritated or not satisfied,
then i'll just play dumb la.
ouh yah by the way sis...
i got 34 for my L1R4 during mid yr exams.
but as for prelims i got 26 for L1R4.
so improved a bit better.
i know u're still not satisfied.
but wateva it is.
think wateva u want to think abt me k.
i do the best tt i can do.
too bad im not as clever as u lah eh.

13 more days to art paper!!!
n i still have lots to do.
gosh!!!
now the mood for art suddenly disappeared.
haiz...
nvm...will try doing it again later.

haze is getting heavier...
take care of urself.
cos i know u're prone to get flu.
take lots of plain water aite...

ah meng!!!
hahaha....u want the part-time job i offered for u?
its $90 per day seh.
big money seh.
y not u try it.
suit for u to become a real ah meng.
hahaha...JK lah.
hahaha...takle trime sudah eh.
jgn nak majok.
hahaha....suke nye aku buli kau!!!
(",)

2006-10-17T23:06:00.000+08:00

todae i reli slept for long hours.
reached home ard two plus.
watched my fav cartoon.
at three thirty i set off to my dreamland oreadi.
and i woke up at six thirty.
hahaha...too tired and sleepy lah.
as soon as i woke up there were nine missed col.
hahaha...sorie my dear ah meng.
there's something wrong wif my sis's phone.
yeah nieways tomorrow will be going to sch but then i will oni attend the lessons tt i feel like going.
hahaha...most importantly i nid to finish off my art.
the sooner the better.
todae before going home we went to TM.
i bought these cute teddy bear studs.
veri cute!!! i loike! hehehe...
then i bought clips.
i just can't resist seeing all these things.
see oni must buy. so cute n nice.
hehehe...
k lah now nid to continue my art.
no more time to waste.
toodles~

yest during the suria advertisement,
syed azmir appeared on tv.
and he reli reminds me of u.
haiz...i dunno when can u reli get out my mind.
or will it never go off my mind.
i wonder sometimes...
y can't i get u off my mind
when i am easily forgotten by u.
haiz...maybe tts the fate tt god created for me.

i tried to find the gorilla.
cannot find seh.
alah....nvm.
i'll to find the gorilla no matter wat.
just for my dear ah meng.
hahahaha....
eh make sure u tahan ur puasa tau!!
few more days to go.....
hehehe....

2006-10-16T20:59:00.000+08:00

well....
here i am again.
i have lots to do now.
so dun expect me to be updating this blog tt often.
todae break fast wif lontong goreng(fried rica cakes) n KFC.
hehe...the delivery guy was quite cute even though he big n dark.
he was bowing n smiling sweetly at me when i said "keep the change"
hehehe...
nieways i was at home whole day todae.
did nothing much.
just did my art n did some revisions on chem.
tomorrow gonna have science class from 9-1 i guess.
yeah, then have to go n search for ribbons n some small flowers for decorations the bottles.

just now my 1st sis asked abt my prelims results.
i shook my head wif the meaning its bad lah.
n she was blabbling away.
hate it man.
she said wat for i always go out everyday studying wif this bad results.
n she said wif this kind of results looks like im goin to ITE lah.
hey come on ah!!!
its my life man!!!
i reli hate it whne she look down on me like tt.
so wat if she has a degree and all tt.
i so hate her attitude now.
then i say ah " kalau belajar tinggi2 prangai mcm gini pon uat aper"
n she kept quiet.
hahahaha!!!
i so like it when i spit back to her face.
i dun care abt her animore ah.
if her attitude is going on to stay like tis forever i dun mind being in ITE wif a better attitude than hers.
she's reli looking down on ITE lah.
wat?!? study oni means u must pass lah.
must get good marks lah.
wat the heck man!!!
heck care her oreadi ah.
wateva it is i know i've tried my best.
n if my results says im going ITE means i have to go wat.
tak semestinye blaja nak mampos leh masok poly eh!!!
wateva ah kak!!!

few days back my cousin saw u
but pls im begging u
if u hate me pls dun treat the way u're treating me wif my cousin
she's not in the wrong k
my O's are round the corner,
so i hope u will pray for my success.
take care of urself....

is this the place ah meng?
heee....
ok...
now i love the place!!!
i can go underwater n go for scubadiving!!!
hehehe ....
kkkk....8yrs huh!!!
lots of money ah!!!
must must must hor!!
hahaha......

2006-10-14T21:18:00.000+08:00

aloooha!
today i woke up reli late.
hahaha...luckily ah meng called me or else i will never wake up untill i feel tired of sleeping.
woke up watched tv.
i didn't have the mood when i woke up.
had a slight headache when i woke up.
maybe because i slept too much.
hahaha...nvm.
then helped mum cleaned the kitchen walls.
transfered all the rempah into new bottles.
then i bathed n watched hindi movie at the vasantham central.
today is quite a boring day i can say.
sit at home all day.
with aiman at home my mum's not going to make any more kuih.
but ah meng was njoying himself helping his mum making kuih.
hopefully everything was nicely baked n done.
heehe...

i can't deny abt my own feelings.
even though i've decided to go for my reality, my thoughts of u will never run dry.
even though u hate me so much i can do nth but just keep quiet.
i will just keep the feeling to myself n never ever bother u again.
tts a promise i made to myself.

looks like u r serious abt the 8 yrs plan.
hahaha...
hopefully we can together go through it.
n hopefully u can be patient wif me.
n i hope u wun get bored of me fast.
together we can guide n help each other along during our way to the 8 yrs.

2006-10-13T21:06:00.000+08:00

i've tot it over.
i won't want to run for the thing tt i can never get.
i dunno whether this is the rite decision but rite now i've decided.
i will rather want to step into my reality world rather than staying in my fantasy world.
fantasy world means i will get wat i want n what i've wished for but as for my reality world,
i could get happiness, he's leading me to the path where i would always do my duty to god.
rite now i will reli have to confuse RELI RELI RELI focus on my O's.
have to get at least either a B's or a C's.
i will never want my cert to have D's.
n i reli have to work hard for it.
i have to prove everyone who have given me the support tt i can do it.
i dun wanna disappoint them.
n i hope he can give me the support.
may ALLAH guide me through this diff path of mine now.

ali tenkiu for the times u helped me with my art.
in the end i've handed up the batik n my boards.
u reli helped me wif a lot of things.
n u can also see that the batik layout is from ur idea too.
n i thank u for tt.
if i get a B for it im reli reli greatful to u.
i owe u one if i get a B.
hope u r doing fine now wherever u r.
do cheer up n be the old ali tt ur frens nid.
take care....

ah meng!!!
hehehe...
thx for always being the listening ear to me.
n tenkiu so much for being patient wif my mood swings n nonsence.
i reli appreciate it a lot.
we will together help each other guide through the rite path where ALLAH wants us to go.
tenkiu so much for showing me the love, care n concern.

2006-10-12T16:58:00.000+08:00

yest,
lots of things was going around in my mind.
first ting was my results.
second thing was about the noe attending the class.
n the third ting was him.
i know i wasn't suppose to think abt him oreadi.
but as i've told u before, no matter how hard i tried....
its a reli diff task to do.
but on the other hand i dun wish to hurt other ppl.
i admit tt ali is still in my heart no matter wat....
but...
haiz....i dunno...
i reli dunno wat to do.
i reli pity him a lot.
he's lonely now.
no more fiza.
I DUNNO LAH!!!
reli confused.

actually todae i was supposed to be going to the library to find new books,
develop photos n find my ingredients for the chocolate dessert.
asked for fela's company but she said she was going out wif syiqah then i was like ok lah.
so today sit at home one whole day lah.

actually mind mind is absolutely blank todae.
dunno y.
maybe im thinking too much.
k lah. tink i'll continue again one day.

the third time oreadi.
reli shows the meaning for me oreadi.
should i just stay away from u forever oreadi?
u give me the answer for this?
and this qn pls...
why didn't i ever get the last chance? y?
it hurts me to c u in this state where always have no mood.
u always stare in the space thinking abt something.
and ur smoking habit is getting worse.
u dun care abt ur health but other ppl do.
think abt others around u who cares abt u.
i know u dun care abt me animore cos u gave me the hints oreadi.
i understand.
but pls do take care of urself.
dun smoke too heavily.

thx for always being there for me when i always nid someone to tok to since ali was gone.
but one thing is...
im afraid i will hurt u.
i promised myself not to hurt anione animore.
i seriously am afraid if i hurt u.
i did it once to ali n i dun want to do it animore.
u know my wat state is in now.
i reli dun want to hurt u.
im a bad girl u know.
hehehe....

2006-10-11T22:42:00.000+08:00

im reli disappointed wif my result.
veri disappointed.
maths...gone case.
i know i can never make it for maths.
eng....the most shocking result i ever get.
humans....alhamdullilah, out of all the papers i managed to pass this.
chemistry...veri disappointing.
art...haven't get the results yet.
physics, will never ever pass.
see lah...
wif this kind of result i know i WILL NEVER EVER GET TO POLY.
haiz...AZIEMAH U'RE HOPELESS FOR GETTING INTO POLY!!!
U WILL NEVER GET TO SMELL THE POLY LIFE EVER!!!!
just bear wif me.
im reli disappointed.
im losing hope....

2006-10-11T21:48:00.000+08:00

hahaha...the 5n3 pupils ~~CABOT~~ from class.
after getting our art paper 2 most of us went home.
hee...
this is the time when the 5n3 puils get so united.
wakakaka...
tomorrow most of us won't be going to sch oso.
hehehe...
bad bad 5n3.

im reli losing hope on my O's.
so far now i got my maths, eng, chem n humanities paper.
my maths...haiz. gone case.
eng...the most shocking result of my life.
chemistry...reli disappointing.
humanities....thank god i passed.
nid to drill up more on my SS since i can oni depend on it.
physics i know i will fail oso.
art dunno lah.

now have to concentrate on my art back oreadi.
got the paper just now.
n i've decided to take the roadside topics.
it sounds easy but wait till u find the pics n colour it.
seriously im reli losing hope on my studies oreadi.
the prelims results reli make me loose hope.
NO HOPE FOR U TO GO POLY OREADI AZIEMAH!!!
FORGET IT!!!
U WILL NEVER EVEN GET TO SMELL POLY LIFE!!!

2006-10-10T18:20:00.000+08:00

LAZINESS was the problem tt made not to go to school.
hahaha...
stayed home whole day doing nth except vacuuming the house.
mopping the living room andf olded the laundry.
after tt stucked in front of the comp.
tts it.
now waiting for the time to break fast.
then watch my korean drama n back studying heymath!
thx iqah for lendind me ur account.
hee...its helping me!
haha...
toodles~

2006-10-09T18:13:00.000+08:00

todae get my bad results.
haiz...
no hope for poly oreadi.
nieways todae got my class photo.
here it is....

i look so gemok seh.
hahaha...
nvm lah eh.
just take a look at it aite.
anithing just leave a comment on the tagboard.
hahaha...

as days goes by,
i think im reli moving on.
but wateva it is as i've promised,
i will never forget u.
since u've moved on,
i am moving on too as there's someone who's there for me now.
he's able to make me happy and listen to my grievences.
hope u are happy too.
wish u all the best n may u be happy always.

2006-10-08T23:31:00.000+08:00

tired!!!
frm 9-10.30 cleaned the sofa b4 it was given away to my aunt.
it was not a small sofa but thick yellow leather sofa.
wah piang eh!!!
4 families break fast at my house.
piles and piles of dishes to wash.
after they go home packing the extra food for sahur,
3 periuks and more dishes to be washed.
my palm are getting reli rough man.
hehe...
but wateva it is.
i feel good helping my mum out.
wat a good daughter am i.
wakakaa...
nid my rest.
tomorrow schling. haiz...TIRED!

2006-10-08T08:02:00.000+08:00

CONTINUATION FROM PREVIOUS POST.....

our reward after a day of fasting. anderson's ice cream...yummylicious!!!

indulging on the yummylicious ice cream. SLURP!

me n reward for the day

the foursome at esplanade

tts me n the b'dae girl for the day....my bestest fren...fela

semua step cute. haha....

AND HERE GOES MY BATIK

2006-10-08T07:23:00.000+08:00

k im back!!!
hehehe....
its oni 7.17 am but im awake!
unbelievable...
hee...no lah, its just tt i feel more peace after doing my job to god.
so i feel a lot more fresher more.
furthermore there's someone accompanying me now.
so...hehe.
yeah. not worry the all the oics for the break fast outing will be uploaded at the bottom.
had lots of great fun!!!
whoohoo!!
miss hakim's craziness. hehe...
but there's some things tt made me feel down tt day.
but hakim came to the rescue.
thx huh giler!
hahaha...
conincidentally i met ali at esplanade.
just finished the yummylicious anderson's ice cream.
suddenly i saw the bright full moon in the sky.
and u know moon will always remind me of whom.
so yeah, i suddenly remembered abt him.
then my kuzzie saw him caled told me.
i was dumb strucken to see him after for a period of time not hearing anything from him.
i then smsed him to mit me.
but no replies.
i went to them to salam them lah.
i did not even dare to see him.
haiz...
wat will u feel when someone just disappeared frm ur life just like tt.
and when u want to meet him he just hack care abt it.
it was full moon seh tt day.
haiz...no comments oreadi ah.
i've been scolded by hakim so reli have to move on.
thx ya hakim!!!
by the way yest went to geylang.
bought my baju kurung oreadi.
BLUE colour.
i dun even like tt baju.
bought it just to satisfy my mum.
haiz...nvm lah.
not going to reli celebrate raya anyways.
so yeah.
nieways here comes the pic.....

before breaking fast

hmm...sedap nye da buka....

after breaking fast

while waiting for the other girls window shopping

the forever charming fren of mine. HAKIM!

TO BE CONTINUED....

2006-10-06T15:12:00.000+08:00

never go sch.
comfirmed goin ot to marina square later.
my rite shoulder backbone is painful.
n my mum cooked my fav food todae.
haiz....
never later sahur can still eat.
hahaha...
k lah.
got to get ready.
toodles~

2006-10-05T00:05:00.000+08:00

at last!!!
i've done my mounting board AND my batik!!!
whooohhoooo!!!
PEACE for the moment at last.
i promise myself i am never ever going to touch anything tts got to do wif art after my O's.
i've has enough for this yr and last yr.
no more for me!!!
todae in sch there was art prelims paper which starts at 10 but me,
hehehe...
i woke up late.
thx to my dear iqah's call i woke up at 9.15.
hehehe...i bathed as quick and as fast as i could.
9.40 like tt i met her at the bus stop.
i was kanchiong like hell.
we reached sch at 10.30.
30 mins late but hell....
i finished my whole final art piece within 1 and half hour.
amazing rite.
hahaha...but my piece was a piece of crap.
total crap.
hahaha....like pri sch.
but kirk's one was worst.
he drew a rainbow and a mango and his background he put " i love my mummy!"
u all should see it.
damn funny. he was also strangled by mrs chan.
crazy him.
frm 1pm till 7pm i was stucked in the art room finishing up my batik.
and alhamdullilah, all done just now.
tomorrow i still nid to mit iqah at 7 to go to sch to have my pic taken wif the batik.
and maybe after tt im goin to mit zira.
see how.
ouh yah, just now i saw the moon.
so B-E-A-U-TIFUL.
i just love the moon and the starts.
ali knows it.
kkk...enough bt him!!!
k lah now wanna tok on the phone oreadi.
later org tu majok.
k lah.if can i upload my batik aite.
toodles~

2006-10-02T18:30:00.000+08:00

this picture was sent to me the last two days i guess.
it reli brought back the old memories to me.
haiz...
but no matter i HAVE to move on.
i HAVE to be strong.
he moved on leaving all the past behind him.
but me...i'll move on but i won't forget my past.

nieways these days i've been happy.
no more worries.
cos everione around me makes me happy.
hehehe....
todae went to sch to finish up my art.
wah....i got so stressed up the moment i stepped into the art room.
all of them kept asking me about the grad day.
haiz...
they insisted of doing it at the hotel.
i can't afford man!!!
haiyooo....
nieways...
gotta go.
nid to sent the breaking fast food to my neighbour.
as always i have to do this job.
wateva lah eh.
toodles~

i dunno why but i think i have the same feelings as yours.
but im afraid if u're too late, u will get hurt.
but no worries.
i wun forget u.
hee....

2006-10-01T14:15:00.000+08:00

new look!!!
its in GRRREEENNN!!!
hehehe...
just love green.
wheee...
nieways later will be goin to my grandma's place.
hope to meet somone there.
but...hmmm...tak tau lah eh.
frm friday till i dunno how long.
i can't fast.
-PERIOD-
haiz....wasted seh.
why must girls have this ting uh.
haiz...
nvm, must thank god for everything.
todae 1 mth oreadi seh.
hahaha...
k lah. wanna do other things.
will update more once i have the time.
toodles~
dun forget to tag me huh.

2006-09-28T18:34:00.000+08:00

hello hello hellloooo
hehehe...
today nothing special.
its just that i poured my grievences out to eton.
she gave me a lending ear.
i reli love all my frens a lot especially NENEN, ETON, ZIRA, RIRIN n NAMIRA.
they reli gave me a lending ear n always giving me advises n moral support.
they also comforted me whenever im down.
thx so much girls.
i will NEVER EVER forget u girls.
i LOVE u girls a lot!!!

fela...
not to worry i still love u no matter wat.

nieways just now went rounding my block to give out break fast food.
its been long time since i met my close neighbour.
and just now she said she dreamt about me dead.
haha...
i dunno.
she said i dropped from high level.
i told my mum abt it and she gave me a shocked reaction n then she just kept quiet.
maybe my time is coming.
u n i wun knoe rite.
maybe its reli time for me to go.
can anyone tell me wats the meaning of dreaming abt someone dead?
hahaha...
maybe im insane.
but GOD if u reli want to take my life away pls give me time to let me tell the ppl around me tt i love them a lot. n i wanna apologise if i did many wrong things to them.

so ppl if im reli dead just donate me lots of 'doa fatihah' aites.

hehe...but now im reli njoying my life.
wif my frens like the crazee girls around me n 'mcm paham'.
they never failed to show me love, care n concern towards me.
i just love them.
thx so muxh for giving me all tt. i reli nid all of u by my side.

to my family....i LOVE u all more than anything else.
i LOVE my mum n dad very much.
n if i were to reli to go away, i hope they can forgive me for wateva i've done to them.
im sorie mak, ayah.
k lah. gtg n get eady for breaking fast.
toodles~

may i rest in peace.

2006-09-27T18:12:00.000+08:00

Bukan Diriku - SamsonS

Setelah kupahami aku bukan yang terbaik
Yang ada di hatimu
Tak dapat kusangsikan
Ternyata dirinyalah yang mengerti kamu
Bukanlah diriku ..
Kini maafkanlah aku

Bila aku menjadi bisu kepada dirimu
Bukan santunku terbungkam
Hanya hatiku berbatas 'tuk mengerti kamu
Maafkanlah aku..

Chorus :
Walau ku masih mencintaimu
Ku harus meninggalkanmu
Ku harus melupakanmu
Meski hatiku menyayangimu
Nurani membutuhkanmu
Ku harus merelakanmu

Dan hanyalah dirimu
Yang mampu memahamiku
Yang dapat mengerti aku

Ternyata dirinyalah
Yang sanggup menyanjungmu
Yang ramah menyentuhmu

Bukanlah diriku

the song above is quite nice.
just heard it.
and the lyrics is reli meaningful.
and it fits for ali.
seriously seh.
reli fit.
thx to 'mcm paham' for recommending it to me.
hehehe....
ouh yah 'mcm paham',
thx for all the care n concern u poured for me.
i reli appreciate it.
thx a lot!!!
heee...(",)

2006-09-26T17:19:00.000+08:00

HADY is the idol!!!

whoohooo....

as i've thought so....

my 6 votes are worthwhile.

hehehe...

bulan ramadhan membawa rezeki dan rahmat.

alhamdulillah.

hahaha...

so happy that he won the title.

nieways yest(mon) had chemistry paper.

my comments: ok lah.

i could do the qns but not many.

i even left blanks. cos there was no time n the other reason: dunno how to do.

hahahaa...

todae was hist paper.

the SEQ was OK but the SBQ KO!!!

i did go through about china but i didn't go through long march.

unfortunately for me, it came out.

so wat i did was just to copy the entire ting on paper n dozed off.

hahaha...

wif this kind of bahaviour i know u all will say i will have no hope rite.

hahaha...

kk i know.

im reli concentrating on my studies.

nothing else in my mind now.

not even him for the moment.

seriously...

ali will no longer stay in mind for the time being animore cos i reli nid to focus on my studies.

furthermore, like wat ppl said....

why would u want to tink of tt someone when tt someone doesn't even give a damn about u?

and ppl have been telling me to move on.

tts wat im doing.

wat hurts me have to be left behind.

he himself is njoying every bits n moments wif fizah so i shall not be disturbing his life animore.

tts wat he wants too.

haiz...

nieways tomorrow will be sitting for my maths paper 2.

am i ready for it?

NO!!!

i just hate maths.

but by hook or by crook i just nid to open my book my memorise the formula.

k lah.

now i wanna log out and wait for tt 'mcm paham'.

till now he's still not online.

bagedol tol...

hahaha...

k lah.

nid to do my asar prayers.

toodle doo~

my charming idol....

but he's still my one and only idol tt i love....TAUFIK BATISAH!!! love him lots...hee...

p.s: there's something wrong wif my post so dun mind the underlines....hee...

2006-09-24T16:21:00.000+08:00

SELAMAT MENYAMBUT IBADAH PUASA SEMUA!!!!

hehe...

im so happy i can fast on the first day of ramadhan.

tot i was goin to get my periods but luckily no.

heee....

nieways he was online just now.

chatted wif him for while.

then he was suddenly offline.

actually i have lots to ask him....

but tink i'll just forget abt it since he oso have no interest to tok to me.

todae maybe breaking fast at my grandma's place.

but i'll c how first.

my other cousins not goin so dunno lah eh.

no i tink im gonna get back to my chemistry books.

tomorrow got chem paper.

wish me luck aite.

toodles~

2006-09-23T14:05:00.000+08:00

PUASA COMING!!!!

whoohoo!!!

heee....

just love it when puasa coming.

byk rahmat.

lots of rahmat for prelims.

hopefully ALLAH will guide me through this diff times of my life.

i reli wish to pass my prelims n O's.

im not at my aunts place.

slept over here last nite.

reached at around 2+ am.

went to mustapha center and headed up to Al-Amen at Bukit Batok for supper.

i had banana prata as cheese naan have finished.

later goin out again to geylang.

my aunts n cousins wanna find thier raya outfit.

i'll just follow along.

actually i just finished studying pysics n now i wanna go n watch tv.

so toodles~

2006-09-20T21:46:00.000+08:00

had science pratical just now.

the physics prac was diff.

the chemistry was ok.

todae overally my day is BORED.

yest went studying wif eton n zira.

n zira confiscated the photo of me n him.

haiz....

my mp3 still dunno where it goes.

haiz...actualli i got nth more in mind.

have to go and study for tomorrow's maths paper 1.

no time to think abt other things oreadi.

toodles~

2006-09-17T15:16:00.000+08:00

a veri veri veri veri SADDENING thing happened on friday.
i was reli sad n down on tt day.
my mp3 is LOST!!!
no where to be found.
i clearly remembered i placed it on my table beofre starting the eng lesson.
but to my carelessness....
i dunno wat happened after tt.
in the bus on the way to inter then i realised my mp3 is not the bag.
haiz...
i cried like hell seh.
its my most precious thing.
but wat to do...
when u lose something u lose it forever....
like how i lost him...
haiz....
k lah wateva eh..
till now im still praying n hoping tt i can get back my mp3.
pls god...make the person who found my mp3 to give me back my mp3.
haiz...
prelims starting soon...
hope i can do the prelims well n good.
now i have to get ready..my cousins asking me out to harbourfront.
dunno wat they looking for there.
k lah till here then~

u viewed my profile at frenster.
i was shocked to see u viewing it.
or maybe it was fiza who got ur password n she looked my profile.
god oni knoes.
i viewed ur profile back...actualli i always do view ur profile.
and none of my face is ever there animore.
i understand.
u wouldn't want to ever have me existing in ur life animore.
i clearly understand tt.
but aniways wateva happens....
till now i still keep thinking of u...

2006-09-14T22:57:00.000+08:00

hmm...been three days fasting....
at last my 'utang' to god is finally settled.
todae i fast because of 'puasa sunat'.
just to accompany my mum fasting.
and yest i break my fast at sakura as i wanted to celebrate ETON's B'DAE.
hee...had lots of fun yest.
todae break my fast in sch.
asked my dad to sent me the food to sch before going to werk.
reached home at about 8+ like tt.
got to watch S.I.
hee...yeah!!!
hady is going to the finals...
whooohooo!!!
so happy....
came home wif my sch uniform,
sat in front of the computer and kept myself bz sending songs to ppl.
haha....
just bathed.
now i have to pack my bags for tomorrow.
n go to sleep.
heee...tomorrow goin gym to exercise.
i wanna be fit n healthy.
haha....

todae somehow i didn't about u.
i was bz doing my sch werk especially my batik.
it was good cos it shows tt im concentrating on my work.
u too are having exams for the week.
so i hope u can do well for it.
i know u can.
wish u all the best n i will not stop praying for u k.
just want u to know tt no matter wat happens i still care for u.
n im always here for u.
take care wherever u are k.
i maybe starting to move on like u r now.
so gd luck k!!!

2006-09-12T21:24:00.000+08:00

alooha!!!
didn't go to sch todae.
my eyes were reli swollen in the morning just now.
so i decided to stay at home.
my mum asked me to go polyclinic.
so i did went.
and the doctor said there's something on my eyelid.
it small and yellowish(nanah).
i tink lah.
n its very itchy and painful when i close my eyes or blink my eyes.
lucikily my dear fren ansari accompanied me to the clinic.
zameer then came.
heee....so sweet of my dear frens to accompany me.
i was at the clinic for like 3 hrs.
the clinic was reli crowded even though its in the afternoon.
hahaha...
now im trying to squint my eyes to get a clearer view.
but it should be ok by tomorrow.
the doctor said if its still not ok by next week i have to go back there.
but hopefully it will be ok huh.

when i knew abt the girl yest
i was devastated
i was reli sad and heartbroken
i know n i realise that i reli have to move on
whenever i stepped to tamp inter or while waiting for the bus at sch
i was reli hoping tt i could c u for the last time b4 i reli move on
but wateva it is the lyrics from the song "kenangan terindah",
was afterall meant for u.
bila yang tertulis untukku
adalah yang terbaik untukmu
kan ku jadikan kau kenangan
yang terindah dalam hidupku
namun TAKKAN mudah bagiku
meninggalkan jejak hidupku
yang tlah terukir abadi sebagai kenangan yang terindah

2006-09-11T21:17:00.000+08:00

hand ok but now im down wif flu.
haiz....
my eyes are swollen too....
gosh...i can't stand it.
heee....
checked syiqah's and fela's blog just now.
hahaha....
so nice to see them having lots of fun at sentosa.
especially HIM.
i can see he's reli njoying himself smiling n laughing.
haiz...glad tt he's happy.
and im so happy for my dear bestie.
later i'll upload the pics for u to see.
reli happy for her.
i was feeling reli weak all over in sch just now.
my voice have also changed from a girl's voice to a man's voice.
hahaha....
k lah.
wanna log out.
talking to fela on the phone.
she said something tt makes my mood vanish.
haiz...
k lah...
oh yah the pics....

dil n magic...heee.....sweet rite....

him....can see his happy rite......

2006-09-08T23:50:00.000+08:00

my hand is ok oreadi.

did housework just now.

cleaned the windows of all four rooms.

haiz...tiring...

but wat to do.

have to help my mum.

yest stayed home one whole day.

todae wfter clening the house i went to meet an n hisham.

sat at mc cafe.

i drank double chocolate.

then we bought nuggets and fries.

hahaha...

went home did my prayers.

then do nothing till now.

my 2nd sis is sick. accompanied her to find a clinic just now.

but unfortunately all closed.

so she called her bestest friend to accompany her to the changi airport clinic.

just now i called his house.

the real intention was to ask HIS SIS whether their house area got any 24 hrs clinic.

but then he picked up.

and he toked wif me wif a lazy tone.

wateva lah.

its the full moon todae.

it seemed tt u've reli moved on.

im glad tt u're hepi wif ur new life.

heard tt u've been contacting wif ur oac member and she's a dancer too.

hepi tt u've found a girl better than me.

just take care of urself.

remember...

i always care abt u.

n still 456838....

2006-09-06T19:17:00.000+08:00

ouchy ouch!!!

hurt my hand in the physics lab just while doing my chem practical.

i was hurrying to the last part if the experiment.

then skali the measuring cylinder was goin to fall on the floor.

so i tried to catch the thing but the thing broke and it hurt my hand.

i just can't stand blood even if its mine.

yuckiesss...

after practical ate wif my darlinggsss.

ate kfc.

had lots of laughs wif them.

iqah joined us too.

crazy lah her never go sch.

pemls...

nieways after eating went to mendaki.

it was short n sweet lesson todae.

and now im home.

tomorrow maybe goin to watch movie at the cinema.

hahaha...

maybe lah...dunno whether want to go or not.

wif my cousins...they want to watch monster house.

so still thinking whether want to watch or not.

hmmm....k lah i wanna log off oreadi.

nid to do my solat aite.

toodles~

i dunno y,

but i was hoping to meet u just now.

but im just afraid to.

im afraid to face u.

but i reli do miss u a LOT!

n i mean it.

A LOT!!!

2006-09-05T22:02:00.000+08:00

TEN SOMETHINGS.
1. are you missing someone right now?: yes ( a LOT!!!)
2. are you happy: happy? hmm...a bit. just get to spend time wif my lurvly ziraa....
3. are you talking to anyone right now?: talking....nope....chatting...yes
4. are you bored: not reli
5. are you german: nope
6. are you irish: nope
7. are you french: nope
8. are you Italian: nope
9. are your parents still married: of cos!!!
10. do you like someone right now: heee...not like...but love.....

TEN FAVORITES.
1. store: titbits store....
2. flower: hmm....rose or maybe tulip...
3. color: GREENNNN!!!
4. sport: netball, badminton
5. mall: any malls will do
6. music: rock and some slow songs
7. food: NASI AYAM....heee....
8. season: spring
9. animal: cats
10. countries: australia, paris, new zealand

TEN FACTS.
1. hometown: Singapore
2. hair color: Black
3. age: 17
4. hair style: long...
5. eye color: not sure...but he told me its very dark brown
6. best feature:hmm...tis one i dunno...
7. mood: now? bored....miss him....
8. skin color: my siblings say im dark my frens say im fair...so? u decide....
9. available: nope...
0. lefty/righty: righty

TEN THINGS ABOUT YOUR LOVE LIFE.
1. have you ever been in love?: yupie yup
2. do you believe in love: yup yup
3. why did your last relationship faiL: haiz...long story...im at fault
4. how many ex u have?: hmm...must i tell u...dun want ah....
5. have you ever broken someone's heart?: ya...im a bad girl...
6. have you ever fallen for one of your CLOSE friends: huh...ish no lah...
7. have you ever liked someone but never told them: hahaha...ya...always do tt....
8. are you afraid of commitment: a bit...
9. has someone ever kissed your hand: ya...him
10. have you ever had a secret admirer: im sure everione has one

TEN THINGS: THIS OR THAT.
1. love or trust: both
2. hard liquor or beer: NOT both
3. night or day: night
4. one night stands or relationships: relationships
5. television or internet: both
6. pepsi or coke: coke
7. wild night out or romantic night in: hahaa...both
9. phone or in person: in person
10. msn or myspace: msn

TEN HAVE Y0U EVER.
1. have you ever been caught sneaking out?: nope
2. have you ever skinny dipped: huh?
3. have you ever done something you regret: ya...regret it a lot....
4. have you ever bungee jumped: nope..but i reli wanna try it
5. have you ever been on a house boat: nope
6. have you ever finished an entire jawbreaker: huh?
7. have you ever wanted someone so badly it hurt?: ya....rite now
8. have you ever wished upon a star?: once when i still a stupid girl....
9. have you ever danced in the rain?: dun tink so....
10. have you ever had a hang over?: nope..

i wouldn't want my post to be empty so i put this thing up.
hahaha....
just got back from zira's place.
watched two movies....
boo and ella enchanted...
ella enchanted was nice....
sweet fairytale...
hee....
tehn studies oni FOR A WHILE.
ate dinner...
for a week i haven't been eating rice i ate just now.
the asam pedas smell reli make me have the appetite to eat.
heee...
then she sent me to bus stop.
had to buy my sis's yong tau foo.
she's always crave for something i end up to be buying for her...
wat to do...
she's pregnant and she's carrying my nephew/niece inside...
so have to buy lah...
nieways tomorrow will going to sch..
practical and mendaki...
k lah..
wanna get my rest...tired liao....
toodles~

i miss you...
do u miss me too?
i doubt so...
looking at the bright moon in the sky makes me miss you more...
haiz...
heard "more than words" just now...
reminds me more abt you...
haiz...
i reli do miss you a lot...
but i dun dare to tell you...
when will i ever get a phonecall from u again?
will i ever get it again ever?
haiz...

2006-09-04T21:15:00.000+08:00

todae....
woke up 11+.
did housework then got a phonecall from cikgu rahman.
wat else...
MENDAKI.
haiz....
called the others and at 2+ got ready.
3.30 i was ready at the bus stop waiting for nen.
then took 38 and went to sch.
luckily never bump into him aniwhere just now.
the class finished at 5+ but had to wait for zira to finish up her sums.
then left the sch at 6.
another relieve.
never bump into him.
hee...
i just dunno y but i got this scared feeling of bumping into him.
reli...but i reli dunno the reason why...
hmmm...wierd rite...
nieways zira said i lost weight.
is it...im not sure.
but i haven't been getting my proper meals these days.
just dun have the appetite.
nieways tomorrow will be goin to zira's place to catch a movie.
hee...
just love goin to her house.
reli reli hoping tt i wun bump into him aniwhere tomorrow.
haiz...
till here then.
toodles~

2006-09-03T13:21:00.000+08:00

todae i dun have much to say.

met fela just now.

she teman me to buy something.

n i went to laminate something.

she knows wat it is.

secret huh fela!!!

trust u abt it!!!

wonder wat he will tink if he knows abt it eh fela.

kkk...stop it ziemah.

fela told me everything just now.

she's so lucky.

her life is MAGICAL now.

reli glad she's happy now.

its good to know when u're best fren is happy.

hee...

fela...for us to know for them to find out huh.

heee...

cheeky cheeky me....

eh fela hope tis happiness will last long aite.

so happy for darl.

u r my one n oni gf n so happy tt u're hepi.

animore news dun forget to tell me huh!!!

k lah toodles~

the pic on top is the oni memories of u i have left.

hope u're doing just fine.

do take care k.

remember i still do care for u.

456838 still...

2006-09-02T13:31:00.000+08:00

My life is 58% happy
:
[x] You know someone that cares aboutyou.
[ ] You have a boyfriend/ girlfriend/ fiancee/husband/ wife.
[x] You have your own room.
[x] You own a cell phone.
[x] You have an ipod/ mp3 player.
[x] Your parents are still married.
[x] You have more than 2 best friends.
T O T A L: 6

[x] You dress how you want to.
[ ] You hang out with friends more than once aweek.
[x] There is a computer and laptop in your house.
[ ] You have never been beaten up.
[ ] You never cry more than twice a month.( i cry every nite)
[x] You are allowed to listen to the music you want to.
[ ] Your room is big enough for you.
[x] People don't use you for something you have.
[x] You have been to a concert.
[ ] You laugh more than twice a day.
T O T A L: 5

[x] You have over 50 friends on Friendster.
[ ] You have pictures on myspace.
[x] Your parents let you have a Friendster
[ ] You have no problem in your studies.
[x] You collect something normal.
[ ] People don't make fun of you to be mean.
[x] You look forward to going to school.
[ ] You don't wish you were someone else.
[x] You do something after school at home/outside.
[ ] You always pass ALL the subjects in exams.
T O T A L: 5

[ ] You own a car.
[x] You usually don't fight with your parents.
[ ] You are happy with your appearance/looks.
[x] You aren't self-consious at all.
[x] You have friends.
[ ] Your parents working salary monthly is morethan $4000.
[x] You know your parents care and love you.
T O T A L: 4

[x] You know what is going on in the world.
[x] You care about so many people.
[ ] You are happy with your life.
[x] You usually aren't sick.
[x] You know more than one language.
[x] You have a screen name.
[x] You've gotten awards/prizes/trophies before.
[x] You know the words to more than 5 songs.
[x] You dont have any enemies at all.
[x] You are Happy that you're living.
T O T A L: 9

GRAND TOTAL : 29X 2= 58%
My life is _58_% happy

58%....
i guess its rite....
im not tt reli happy now.
so many things in my mind.
haiz...
just wonder if he knows tt im like tis.
n wondering if he even cares abt it.
wateva lah....

2006-09-01T09:31:00.000+08:00

mornin mornin mornin!!!
today i finally managed to force myself up.
wake up at 5.40 am todae.
wash myself up.
mandi hadas.
after tt did my subuh prayers and did my holiday hw.
now im stressing myself up thinking wat topic to do for my art prelims.
its 3 weeks to art prelims but i've done nth.
im gonna be killed by mrs chan.
k wateva it is i tink im gonna choose microscopic topic.
its kind of hard...actually all the topics are hard.
but i'll try my best.
now im having headache.
not used to wake up so early and start studying straightaway.
its diff frm waking up to sch and waking up during holiday u know.
i feel myself at peace after meeting god just now.
i ask for peace from him so i wun keep thinking of him.
now im gonna get to find my research pic for my art.
toodle doo~

2006-08-31T21:48:00.000+08:00

HAPPY TEACHERS DAY!!!!
there was a celebration for the teachers todae.
it went well.
but wasn't enjoying it tt much.
even though i was laughing n smiling around there's a lot more of sorrow behind it.
onli god knoes.
nieways many of the ex-changkatans came.
was surprised tt isk n kak nazirah also came.
met them for a while n have a few min of chat wif them.
then i left them in sch n went home wif nenen n the gang.
all the way in sch the weather was reli cool.
i've been going to the toilet so many times.
my mind wasn't really on the concert just now.
syazwan reli resembles him a lot.
n it make my mind think abt him again.
haiz...
wateva lah...
heard he went back to his secondary sch back.
so many he's gonna get a lot of girls looking at him cos he's so much charming now.
haiz...
came home as per normal went to sleep.
was reli having a bad headache on the way home.
had a great sleep wif bear2 just now.
wif the cooling weather and the softness of bear2 reli make me wanna sleep forever.
and at last!!!
JOAKIM IS FINALLY OUT!!!!
sorie indah but im so glad he's finally out.
so now indah its time for u to keep voting for HADY!!!!
hahaha...

it seems u're the one disappearing.
nvm its ok.
im still able to take it.
dun be shocked when u finally see me like a zombie walking ard like as if im dead.
but i reli do hope u wun forget 20 november.
u promised me abt this day.
so im reli looking foward to this day.
do take care wherever u are.

2006-08-30T18:41:00.000+08:00

mock exams are over. finally....
the SS studies paper was ok. the science pp 1 hmmm....
DISASTROUS i think...
i just hate physics.
dunno y.
today got my chemistry and eng paper results.
and not to my surprise....chem i failed.
eng paper....to my surprise i passed.
hahaha....my mid year exam i failed so u tot i wun be doing well for mock.
but alhamdullilah i passed.
haha...
tomorrow will be having teacher's day concert so i think i will be slacking for the day.

after having a great day we will always end up like this.
haiz...
i dunno lah eh.
and i knew tt the sunday was the last day im gonna have tt treatment from u.
i just wish the day on last sunday wun end.
i just love every moment of it.
i said tt im gonna disappear just to let u move on.
n im trying to do it cos it reli hurts me to do so.
everytime i sit in the bus biting my lips the memories in the bus wif u came into my mind.
i reli wish u were right by my side looking at me and stopping me from biting my lips.
do u know tt when u were talking to me on tt monday nite,
my heart was reli crushing and i can reli feel it.
the pain was still there when i went to sch the next day to sit for my paper.
and i was reli hoping not to bump into u at inter when i was goin home.
but i did bump into u and i can't bear to have a look at u.
my heart was reli in a crushed state n my tears kept wanting to fall in the bus.
when itah asked me how am i and how are the things around me,
i answered happily tt everything was goin on fine cos during tt time we were reli ok.
but now....u know it for urself.
i just wonder why all this must happen again when i was starting to get my happy life back.
i know i deserve all this heart pain.
im not complaining about it.
just wanting to soul search my life again.
hoping tt u r goin on well wif ur moved on life.
im reli sure ur frens wun even like it if u were back wif me.
they just wun ike seeing me leading a happy life wif u.
i know im bad once but im can't i have another chance to change myself?
its ok.
i know im changed or else i wun be even be facing a heart pain or even im always in my lala land wif the thoughts of mr flat butt.
im not reli njoying the time in sch cos im always back in my lala land.
i will reli smile and laugh out loud and forget abt all this things for a moment when im wif iqah.
she reli do help me a lot without she knowing it.
i know i dun deserve the chance tt im asking u for but pls....
can u pls sort things out wif me n tell me wat u reli want?
tell me wats the thing tt ur heart wants.
i reli can't stand long int his condition.
i reli can't.
i've no one to turn to. not even my bestfrens.
not even my frens.
and i reli mean it. NO ONE!!!
so could u pls. pls. tok to me n tell me everything tt u've been keeping inside u. pls!!!!
n pls take care of my pooh bear.
u know i wun like it if my pooh bear is wif someone else like how u dun like it when bear2 is wif someone else.
if u wanna give me back my pooh bear u know u have to give it to me PERSONALLY.
i dun know if u reli mean wat u said when i said i will disappear n u will try every ways to contact me.
just take care of urself k.
i reli do wish tt sunday wun end just like tt.....

been lazing aroung this few days.
keep thinking of it no matter wat i do.
think he wun reli care abt it.
k lah.
wanna go to the clinic and buy my medicine.
bye then....
think im gonna be a zombie soon....

2006-08-28T21:07:00.000+08:00

tomorrow's the last paper for mock exams!!!
whooohooo!!!
dun be too happy yet aziemah.
next month after ur one week holiday u're gonna sit for ur prelims.
so no more relaxing for u aziemah!!!
wakey wakey!!!!
just had history and physics paper.
and again BIG BIG ????? on my head
tts because i nvr study.
ok i know.
im lazy.
im sitting for my O's.
ok ok ok.
i know!!!
i have to buck up k.

tenkiu MR FLAT BUTT for the wonderful day yest
even though u were sleepy u still accompanied me
it just feel good to sit by the beach and njoying the cool breeze
hahaha...
wun forget the memories we spent yest
cool!!!
hahaha....
k lah have to sign out.
nid to revise through my SS.
got to go!!!
toodles~

2006-08-26T08:42:00.000+08:00

one week no update from me.
hahaha....
many things happened.
after the incident my mind was in a mess.
but luckily i've managed to overcome it and sorted things out wif him.
everything's in order now.
and he have explained to me everything to me now.
now i know tt jumping to conclusion is bad.
not only it will make u angry and sad but it will also make the relationship wif tt someone turn sour.
so dun jump to conclusion without knowing the real reason aite.
hahaha.

i think when someone loses something tt are precious to them in life,
and when they realise it,
they will be become more matured in life.
tts wat i feel lah.
but then dunno whether its true or not.

nieways this week is mock examination week.
so been coming home at 9+.
by tt time i will be damn tired.
have to reli buck up.
prelims are coming up and O level will nearing too.
so have no time to think abt the unneccessary stuffs.
i did log in to internet past few days but too tired to blog.
so far the mock papers, chemistry and the maths pp 2 was damn diff.
the was a big ???? on my head when i did the papers.
i did study but its not sufficient.
so reli have to buck up.
reli wanna go to poly.

now i nid to log off and get ready.
going out studying wif mud, aidil, eton, sue n faiz.
at esplanade.
wheee....
k lah. dun wanna be late.
toodles~

2006-08-20T14:41:00.000+08:00

yest was the suckiest day of all.
been planning to meet you since like last two weeks.
i've been even reminding u like hell.
but see the outcome....
bz lah, family outing lah...
wateva it is i just assume u will never want to meet me k.
i dun even think u even care abt me.

i just dunno y yest u act to me in tt kind of manner.
ur behaviour reli sucked to the core.
u know how much i hate liers.
and u still lied to me.
if u think u're not the wrong, shld be explaining things to me,
like how u did the last time.
and yest when i smsed u, u didn't even bother to reply me.
why?
bcos u're so damn bz wif that "fren" of yours.
i wouldn't even know if u're lying to me all along.
if u've done nothing wrong and u're reli sincere abt it....
TALK N EXPLAIN things wif me.
dun shut ur bloody mouth.

nieways yest went out wif adil n mud.
studied at raffles place wif them.
n i reli did studied.
dun tink i dun study huh!!!
after 3 hrs of studying we decided to relax ourselves by the bay at esplanade.
yeah so we did went there.
and that was the place when i started to get angry and tensed up.
bcos of HIM!!!!
wateva lah eh.
just dun wish to elaborate more on it.
makes me sick.
today, dun think i will be goin out.
mum n dad are out for the wedding invitation.
now im at home wif my sis doin notin.
my sis is currenly sleeping.
just came home from her religious class.
k lah.
wanna log out.
just dun have the mood to surf the net animore.

2006-08-18T21:38:00.000+08:00

its been a reli long long long time since i touched the keyboard on the comp.
its because i've been BANNED by my bro.
yeah...BANNED.
but somehow today when i asked for his permission he allowed me too.
so must grab the chance.
nieways sch are as per normal but getting more stress.
have LOTS n LOTS of things to catch up on.
n i've finally decided not to retake my malay O's.
i know many ppl said i have the ability to get a distinction but haiz....
dunno lah...
i think its better for me to get started on my other subjects as it all ~~SUCKS~~.
hahaha...
i also do think i can get the A but i think i just have to sacrifice the A to get good grades for the other subjects too.
am i doing the rite thing?
can someone answer me pls????

my life have changed since the fight tt happened last few days.
i've been keeping a lot of things to myself.
i think there's just no one who could understand me.
so just be it.
just let me suffer alone as long as they're ok.
tomorrow will be goin out for study.
after tt will be meeting jeff.
dun know if HE wanna meet or not.
haiz...
k lah.
im super duper tired today.
had mendaki.
then followed kak rin to go shopping.
my body's reli aching.
k lah.
nid my rest.
toodle doo~

2006-08-12T13:18:00.000+08:00

a pathetic result for a pathetic girl.
suits rite?
haiz...
yest got my malay O level results....
and i got a pathetic B3 merit for it...
reli reli reli dissappointed at myself...
i knew im gonna get a bad result for my oral just bcos of the word "megambil kesempatan"
tt i told u the last time.
fcuk lah...
reli not hepi wif my result.
i dunno whether to retake again or not...
stress lah...

where were you when i needed ur comfort?
where were you when i needed a shoulder to cry on?
where were you when i needed someone to calm me down?
do you even care abt me?
are you reli so busy wif ur work tt u dun even have to the time to check on me?
do i even reli exist in ur life?

2006-08-09T22:57:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 41st BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!!!!
its been days since i updated my blog.
actually i updated my blog the other time but i dunno wat happen tt it suddenly disappear.
so after tt im lazy to write the whole story back.
nieways yest went out at 8+ pm.
reached home at 12+ am.
hahahaha....
late rite.
was reli njoying myself.
nobody even bothered to contact me especially him.
haiz...
yest didn't reli get to watch the fireworks at espalanade cos there was reli a heavy jam at the road.
but today i got to watch the full view of the fireworks.
it was reli damn beautiful.
how i wish i could watch the fireworks wif my HAPPINESS.
haiz....
there's also full moon today.
wish i could reli spend the time wif my happiness watching the full moon and the fireworks.
just got home too.
no sch tomorrow and its gonna be a reli bored day for me.
nth to do and nobody asked me out.
damn bored.
k lah wanna take a rest.
toodles~

2006-08-06T11:50:00.000+08:00

today i dunno why i woke up early.
hahaha.
9+ i've oreadi woken up.
hee...
then fela called me to tell me that she can't make it to meet me.
she's reli having a bad sore eyes.
then after receiving her call i realised i have another 3 other missed calls.
it was frm him in the morning just now. 1.55 and 1.56.
guess i went to my lala land oreadi.
yest i was shouted at by someone.
it was the very first time i was shouted at by tt person.
it scares me off.
haiz.
nieways todae wake up early so tot of goin to the MARKET wif mum.
so quickly got ready and i tagged her to the market.
wah...so many ppl was there.
its been ages since i went to the market.
i was sweating in there.
so crowded.
i hepled my mum carried all her groceries bag except for one bag.
the bag which contains the fish.
i just can't stand the smell of it.
furthermore the bag was wet with the fish water.
yuckies....
so tt bag i left it wif mum.
hee...
then i bought a winnie the pooh pencil case for just $1.
hahaha...a big one.
so it fits all my stationaries.
i have lots of stationaries.
kiasu mah. hahaha...
currently finished having my breakfast.
so have to clean up the house.
so i will update again later aites.
maybe goin out so more things to update.
till here then.
toodles~

2006-08-05T21:27:00.000+08:00

today a definately BORED day.
woke at 8 to wake faizal up again.
today it was easier waking him up.
called him once and he's awake.
get back to sleep after waking up and at 11+ i was reli up.
got a call from him.
asked me to call him back and he's not werking todae.
his fren was covering him up.
he told me tt he was goin to town to buy his cousin's present.
told him to come down to tamp but he's plain lazy.
haiz...
wateva lah eh.
then at 1+ i tink.
my cousin called to meet him up.
told him i was lazy.
i dun have the mood to meet him.
too lazy to go out and meet him.
stayed at home all day watching tv and talking on the phone.
bored bored bored!!!!
he never called me back after tt.
called him like mad but no response frm him.
then at 7+. my dad and my mum asked me out to eat at the coffeeshop nearby.
so tagged them along.
ate young tau foo.
then went home.
been searching for my sis's sunglasses frm just now at yahoo auctions.
got a few for her to choose already.
currently talking to him on the phone.
k lah gtg. wanna tok to him now.
toodles~

2006-08-04T21:23:00.001+08:00

"aziemah hari nie kat skola ade pape tak?"
"takde ah"
"aziemah takya gie skola lah. tlg jage mak kat umah"
PAP i went back to sleep.
hahaha....

yeah so at 8 am i woke up to wake faizal up.
can die wake him up.
called him for many times he never pick up until 8.55 then he picked up.
he was shocked when i called him using my home phone.
yeah so after calling him tot of goin back to lala land but aiman was up.

so have to bath and clean up the house.
my mum's sick today so i must take care of tt little brat and clean the house.
b4 bathing i called 67773777.
hahaha...McD of cos.
hee...i ordered sausage mcmuffin wif egg meal.
i ordered for mum filet meal.
so rite after 30 mins of bathing, my breakfast was rite in front of the doorstep.
hahaha...
used my own savings to pay the $13 meal.
hee....

after having my breakfast, cleaned up the kitchen, heat up yest food.
and todae was the first time i clean up for aiman who just 'korek' his 'taik'.
disgusting rite?
tts what i had to do.
his whole pampers was filled with brown smelly shit!
cleaned him up. bathed him.
and he was ready for the day.
but he was sitting very quietly on the sofa instead of running around the house cos i took out the vacuum to vacuum the house of cos.
hahaha.

after making my bed, my sis bed i started vacuuming the house.
then i mopped the house.
then i folded the clothes tt have been washed yest.
after tt watched tv wif aiman.
untill my dad came home.
then my sis came home.
we shared nasi ambeng.
after eating i went to my bed and read the danielle steel book untill i knocked off.
hahaha...
tired seh...

woke up at 6+ and headed to shop.
bought dinner.
and now im blogging.
hee...

nieways i just bid an ellese orange watch.
very nice.
its oni for $12.
cheap rite? hahaha....
k lah. now im waiting for his call.
wonder if he's reli gonna call me...

2006-08-03T16:49:00.000+08:00

school was as per normal.
and as per normal, every thursday i won't be goin to maths remedial.
straightaway after sch i went home.
feel kinda tired todae.
have the feeling to go to lala land now but can't.
cos as wat to mr ridzwan said,
"its not good to sleep during asar and magrib time. the cells in ur brain are dying"
so tt was why i dun dare to sleep.
now i reli dun have anything to do.
except to bath, eat and study untill magrib.
cos after magrib maybe i will be meeting fela.
i can feel tt she's upset abt something.
so as her friend, its just rite for me to ask wats wrong wif her.
so maybe miting her later.
nieways just now for english lesson we were supossed to finish up our assignment.
after we finished up the assignment, we can play words on the internet.
so these two bloody idiots in my class, they went to this alamak chatroom.
they were pretending as a girl and they gave my number to the guy.
when i was in my malay class i got a call from an unknown number.
i picked up and he said he was the guy just now.
without knowing anything, i just hang up the phone and msged the number back.
i asked who's the person and he said he was the guy just now at the chatroom.
i was so pissed off with the two bloody guy.
i can, i will want to shoot them off with the big bazooka.
they reli irritate me.
and they are reli childish.
they think they are the only perfect person in this world when theya re certainly NOT!
its reli irritating to have these kind of people around you.
they think tis bloody damn joke is veri funny.
so stupid.
wish the school days can be ended faster cos i wouldn't want to face the idiots animore.
just a big pain in the ass.
called him to tell him abt this sickening incident but he didn't pick up the call.
so pissed off wif the two idiots.
haiz.

2006-08-01T20:37:00.000+08:00

todae ended the remedial late.
art reli do sucks.
i tink my batik is not gonna make it.
tinking of giving up.
haiz...
today's the 1st of aug n tomorrow is the 2nd.
hahaha.
1 month of patience and endurance wif him
hee...
he's teaching me to be patient.
tts gd....
hahaha...
tomorrow sch will end late for me again.
mendaki till 6 pm.
but i will for sure enjoy the mendaki lesson cos the teacher is cool.
hehehe....
i wonder when will i ever get to meet him.
one month? two months? or years?
time will tell.
i just have to keep on being patient.
no matter wat happens i willl still be waiting for the day....

2006-07-31T21:38:00.000+08:00

had class photo taking todae.
iqh wasn't in the pic as she went home early.
sick lah ape lah.
my day in sch was reli bored without the crazy girl around.
hahaha....
today the weather was reli COOL!!!!
i was shivering in the class even though i wore a jacket.
hahaha.
even during mendaki classes i wore two jackets on me.
still cold.
hahaha...
looks like i won't survive in cold countries.
i will die frozen there.
i just can't stand the cold.
wish that someone could be here hugging me making me feel warm.
hahahaha.....
tomorrow gonna have art remedials after sch.
haiz...sick and tired of art!!!
when can all this end?
we have to hand in our supporting studies next two weeks.
yet i have lots to be done.
im gonna be dead if all this is not done during tt week.
shyts man...
got to go oreadi.
wanna catch my hikmah show.
heee....
teuku ryan is so charming...
hahahaha....
toodles~

2006-07-29T23:26:00.000+08:00

coolness for the NDP preview just now.
i just love the night scenery and the fireworks.
u ppl shld know tt i reli love nite scenery, nature scenery
and of course anyting tts colourful.
the fireworks were reli just behind our seats.
hee...
overall i enjoyed myself but my butt is tired of seating for hours.
reached at the stadium at 4+ and had to wait like 1 1/2 hrs for the ting to start.
the sun was reli burning us there.
all of us were sweating like mad.
SI were also there and they were rounding at the stadium.
was hoping to see hady and rahimah face to face but didn't.
instead we got to meet jay, nurul, joakim and mathilda.
not tt reli upclose but clear enough to see thier faces.
hee...
yeah and the emcees for the preview was cool too.
shiek haikel, gurmit singh, michle sometin and the other one i forget.
hahaha...STM lah.
and now my legs are damn tired.
we had to walk a long way from the stadium to the bus stop.
after tt proceeded to coffee shop to have our dinner with my aunts.
and now at home updating my bloggy.
i've freshen myself up.
and my bed is calling me.
so dead tired.
but still i have some energy to tok on the phone.
so long nvr tok to him.
k lah wanna tok to him.
been ages....
MISS YOU SO MUCH!!!

2006-07-28T20:50:00.000+08:00

today...
i CABOT 1 period earlier for sch...
hee...
naughty rite?
i know...
sch was DAMN bored.
most of the students in sch went to TP for preparation of the concert.
the teachers wun even notice us.
so yeah.
went home logged on comp played till afternoon.
after tt sleep untill 7.
eat, bath and back online.
now updating and later dunno wat to do.
no one's online accept for few whom i rarely chat with.
he oso never msg me.
haiz....
BORED!!!!!!!!
but tomorrow im goin to celebrate with the other citizens of singapore.
hahaha...
i mean goin to watch the NDP preview.
its been ages since i went for the preview.
the last one i remebered was when i was pri 5.
ten yrs ago.
hahahaha...
something in sch pissed me off today.
yest i nvr go to sch rite.
so how was i suppose to know tt there will be a rehearsal at TP yest.
and tt girl didn't even bother to tell me when she was the one who signed my name up.
idiot seh.
i oso wanna watch the concert.
i was so hoping to mit the ex changkats.
IDIOT!!!!
haiz.
maybe its just my luck not to mit them.
but nvm....
k lah wanna log out.
toodles~
are you serious abt this relationship or not?
just curious abt it....

2006-07-27T16:32:00.000+08:00

today...
hee...
never go school....
having a reli bad headache...
feel like vomitting oso but can't cos im fasting again today.
but today im fasting not bcos of paying back but bcos of bulan REJAB.
i want to get more pahala than sins u know.
n todae i have the craving for mcdonalds.
have the thinking of breaking my fast wif mcdonalds food.
hee...
see how lah.
nieways i was supposed to accompany iqah to bishan to buy her medicine.
but i was too sick to go out.
so sorie my gf.
hee....
k lah now i have to accompany my sis to the shop.
she wanna buy something.
so will update again if im not lazy.
hee...
toodles~
y ppl bother abt my life when they dun understand me?

2006-07-26T21:53:00.000+08:00

after all im still alive.
hee...
things btwn me n mum are ok oreadi.
n at last i got to watch my high sch musical!!!
hahaha....
monday had maths mendaki.
monday was reli a tiring day for me.
had a reli long day in sch.
yest had art remedial.
yest was ok.
i was actually paying back my fast but i break fast halfway cos the weather was reli hot.
i couldn't take it.
hee...
but today i fast full day cos i ate something in the morning.
yeap yeap.
and today had english mendaki.
everything went on fine.
even got chocs.
hee...yummylicious.
n today unfortunately, im SICK!!!!!!
having a bad flu.
maybe having fever soon.
but i won't fall sick easily cause im STRONG.
hee...
nieways still tinking whether i shld go to sch tomorrow.
feeling so weak oreadi.
see how lah eh tomorrow.
ouh yah before i and my post todae.....
HEPI B'DAE EZAL!!!!!!!!!
hee...
old oreadi.
but however old he is he's still the best.
wish u all the best in everything u do.
love ya lots!!!
hahahaha....
k lah i'll end my post here.
tired and no energy oreadi.
toodles~
loving u more than ever everyday.....

2006-07-22T12:05:00.000+08:00

nieways after this post if i never write any post animore.
tt means im DEAD k.
i tink i've hurt a lot of ppl feelings even my mum.
out of all her children im the one tt give hell to her.
yelah mak.
dlm byk anak mak aziemah yg paling tak gune.
aziemah yg paling susahkan hidop mak.
aziemah yg paling kasi mak nangis byk.
aziemah beban mak YG PALING BESAR.
aziemah yg paling bodoh.
aziemah yg byk sakit kan ati mak.
kalau boleh mak nak buang aziemah kan.
takpe lah mak.
mak buat je ape mak nak kat aziemah.
mak nak tau kenape aziemah slalu bbl kat tepon?
pasal aziemah nak bbl ngan orang yg boleh aziemah bilang masalah.
da byk kali aziemah cuba nak kongsi masalah aziemah dekat mak.
tapi aziemah tau mak tak kan paham.
semua aziemah ckp mak tak pernah nak percaye
.mak lagi percaye ckp org.mak lagi syg anak2 org lain.
mak lagi suke memuji anak2 org lain.
mak pernah ke puji aziemah bile aziemah dpt ape2 award?
mak pernah tak dtg ape2 award atau performance yg aziemah buat untuk kasi sokongan?aziemah sedar aziemah nie anak mcm mane dlm hidup mak.sebagai mane aziemah buat buat pon semua nye tak baik dan tak betol dlm hidup mak.
aziemah da berubah mcm mane pon tetap mak pikir tak cukop.
aziemah nak ucap terima kasih byk2 kat mak sebab masih mampu bersabar
ngan perangai aziemah yg mcm SETAN nie.
aziemah nak mintak ampun byk2 dari hujung rambut
sampai lah ke hujung kaki pasal aziemah da byk menyusahkan,
da byk kasi mak nangis, byk menyakitkan hati mak dan byk buat dosa pada mak.
aziemah tak tau mcm mane nak mintak ampun berdepan ngan mak pasal aziemah rase malu.
aziemah tau aziemah anak yg paling tak bergune dlm rumah nie.
kalau aziemah bkn anak kandung mak, mak da lame nak buang aziemah kan.
aziemah paham mak.
kalau boleh pon aziemah nak tinggal kan rumah nie pasal
aziemah da tak nak menyusahkan sape2 lagi kat dlm rumah nie
terutama sekali mak.
sekali lagi aziemah mintak ampun byk2 kat mak.
byk2 ampun.

2006-07-22T11:27:00.000+08:00

a stranger whom i never tok to.
a stranger whom i never seen before,
suddenly came to me asking why my face is like this.
so many questions she asked.
and from the questions...
boy i know IM RELI DAMN UGLY!!!!

for those ppl who r reading this.
if u guys agree with wat i said pls do leave a tag n pls do say im UGLY.
even my cousins, my OWN sister n a UNKNOWN STRANGER even tinks so.
i tink u guys tinks so too rite.
what would u feel if ppl keep saying n keep asking about ur fcuking face.
my good fren comforted me by saying its part of a teenage life cos its a growing stage.
but why the others dun understand me?
because of my damn fcuking face, i dun have tghe confidance to do anything.
and because of that oso i quit tarian.
im afraid to go to places that have a lot of people walking around.
cos i feel im the ugliest one of all and everyone will be DISGUSTED looking my UGLY face.

i know my close schfrens have been saying its a growing stage.
but when the ppl around me like my aunts and cousins keep asking abt face i feel like runing away from this world.
it reli sucks when it happens to u all the time.

so many bad things happened over the weekend.
i cried a lot and keep things to myself.
i dun even know who to tok to cos i tink they dun understand me.
and wif my UGLY face i dun tink ppl will even want to tok to me.

this is for that person who HAVE BEEN WAKEN UP BY HIS COUSIN....
i think u are reli moving on wif ur life.
cos by the way i see ur behaviour yesterday, i assumed that u're reli hepi wif ur life.
tenkiu for bein there for me last time.
and tenkiu for sounding so hepi when u talked to me yest.

2006-07-18T20:57:00.000+08:00

ARGH!!!!
miss tt person a lot!!!!
a lot!!!

todae once again no mood for anything.
after sch went home straight.
no mood to hang out anywhere.
tomorrow will be having SS test but i have yet studied anything.
wonder if i can pass this test.
went t bank b4 goin home to deposit the bursary award i got.
$150 is enough for me.
alhamdullilah i got it.

k lah wanna get started on my SS.
till here then.
gosh!!! tomorrow i nid to fast to pay back my ramadan fast.
shyts!!!
toodles~
no msgs or call frm you reli make me miss you.
do you miss me too...¿?

2006-07-17T20:59:00.000+08:00

monday blues is here todae....
i dunno why but i just dun have the mood.
sat for the O level listening comprehension just now.
ok lah but the questions were tricky.
hopefully i can get at least 18/20.
haiz...
lets just wait for the results then next month.
pray hard for me aite guys.

yest i did went out.
but oni for a while.
hehe...
went to beach road.
a scary but fun experience journey.
wish i could have tt kind of experience again.

yest was my sis b'dae.
and boy she was so lucky to get a bf wif big pockets.
she got an mp3 the same as mine wif the mp3 skin.
and a titus watch.
haiz...
so lucky ah she...

nieways i dunno wats got into fadly this day.
he never called me oreadi.
tried to call him yest nite but his mum picked up the phone.
so i hung up the phone just like tt.
bad rite me.
wat to do.
and i even passed the msg fela n rahim.
but dun give a damn abt it.
wateva lah eh.
if he wants to give me tt kind of attitude go ahead k.
ali u have ur own thinking.
if i did something wrong but forgive me k.

k lah. my nyai's here.
nid to entertain her.
till here then.
toodles~

can u understand wats inside my heart.
i nid to meet u.

2006-07-16T12:59:00.000+08:00

happy birthday to you
happy birthday to you
happy birthday to KAK EKIN
happy birthday to you

yeah...
today's her birthday n she's 26 yrs old oreadi.
old rite? but u will be shocked to see her
cos she's much more shorter n smaller than me
but she's way preetier than me.
obviously cos im the ugliest on this earth u can say.

wateva it is..
yest i reli had a lot of food
went out wif the b'dae girl, my bro n elder cousins.
firstly the girls went to beach road n i ate fried rice.
then we made some shopping.
i bought 2 pairs of ear studs n 2 pairs of shirts.
after shopping at beach road we headed back to bugis.
waited for the guys cos they were at sim lim square
proceeded to the chinese halal coffeeshop at bugis.
i shared the fried fish soup without the milk wif my elder cousin.
i told my sis i wanna eat ice cream n my elder cousin planned to treat us to swensens.
but unfortunately the swensens restaurant at bugis was on full house.
luckily my elder cousin has a driving lesson so he drove us to parkway parade.
n luck is on our side, the restaurant there was not reli on full house.
we ordered the earthquake ice cream n two side dish.
by the time we finished up all the food my stomach was reli bloated.
i reli had a lot of food yest.
haiz...
look like i reli have to work more this friday at the gym.
hee...
by the way yest i was upset by something.
onli he knows....
k lah...
till here then...
toodles~

2006-07-14T22:16:00.000+08:00

CRACK CRACK!
tts the sound tt is produced by my bones.
went to the gym just now.
wif nenen, zira, eton and audrey.
the very first time goin to gym it is just now.
so paisey seh.
mcm org 'jakun'.
i did the cycling thing, trying to produce some abs.
hahaha.
actually did a lot of workout.
in the morning had my 2.4km nafa test.
got 15.20 for my running.
bad rite. i know.
but wat do to do.
nvm. im planning to go to the gym every friday.
reli have the urge to sustain some muscles n abs.
hee...
wanna be fit and strong.
whooohooo.
this week of schling not bad.
nth much happened.
its just tt i had a fight again wif my mum the other time.
but we're ok now.
hee...
just glad tt there's someone who can make me smile even though im down.
after goin to the gym i feel so much energetic.
its just tt i feel a lil bit aching here n there.
n i tink im gonna have an early nite todae.
one while day of exercising.
not bad huh.
hee...
nieways the other post i did write a paragraph rite.
n i sound reli stressful rite.
but nvm.
now i just leave it to watever she wanna do.
if she tink what she doin rite now is rite then up to her.
she 'MATURED' enough to tink.
its just no use to drool and stressed up abt ppl hu dun appreciate u.
i just wonder whether she reali appreciate me for the past few years we're together.
n if she's reli using me for the past years then im just a fool.
can't blame her.
wateva it is i have to treasure those ppl who appreciate me.
n i will want to appreciate ppl who treasure me in their life.
dun wanna tok to much oreadi.
till here then i will end my post.
gonna have an early nite todae.
veri tired.
toodles~

2006-07-10T21:08:00.000+08:00

halu halu haluuuu!!!!
hee...
long time never update my blog....
there's oni one for it...
LAZY!!!!
yeah yeah...
nieways nth much happened for the past few days.
its just tt my mp3 has been making probs.
but its ok after charging it.
dunno wats got into it.
oh yeah...before anything....

CONGRATS TO ISTIKADAYAWANA!!!!
for winning the second runner up position at the fiestari comp.
at last changkat defeated eastspring sec n cranberra sec.
hee....
at the effort u guys put in are all worthwhile.
so proud of u guys.

oh yah....
todae had my mother toungue O level oral.
haiz...
bad...
very bad...
reli bad....
i was so nervous tt i forget one word.
the word 'taking advantage' in malay.
sheesh!
it was supossed to be 'mengambil kesempatan'
but i just sat there in front of hte examiners and say nth.
stupid rite?
i know...
wat to do.
im just born to be like tis.
but hopefully everything will go on fine....
nieways here's a paragraph tt i reli want to let out

i reli dunno wats inside ur mind
n im reli wondering wats the cause of ur cold attitude towards me
i reli dun understand
if i make a mistake
pls do forgive me
everyone makes a mistake n everyone deserves to be forgiven
same goes to me n you
if i can forgive u
y can't u forgive me
i just want u to remember tt everyone has their patience limit
i can still be patient with ur attitude now
as long as i can be patient, i will just keep quiet

k lah till here then....
there's some pics below
so do take look...

before the comp starts. look at their pale and undone hair

taking pixies before the results. tis pic is wif abg faizul

this pic is wif afiq. my pri sch fren

after knowing we got 3rd

a pic taken wif ABG AMIN!!!!

hee...me n lil cutie zara

inside the bus on the way back to sch

heading home after sumptous dinner

2006-07-03T13:44:00.000+08:00

aloooha!!!
its way long after my b'dae date
n i was supossed to be updating my special day.
i did log in on the 28 n i updated a long story.
but dued to some technical probs,
the whole long story dissappeared to nowhere.
then i was lazy to type back.
so now im gonna have to type back the whole long story

27 June
this is day when i went home wif bandung n blackcurrant drink one me.
everyone was looking at me when i entered the bus.
all those eyes were thinking why my shirt are all in pink n i smelt of carnation milk.
hahaha...
its all thx to my frens, nenen, zira n eton.
they were the one who poured the drinks on me.
on this day oso i got lots n lots of b'dae wishes.
hee....
thx to all of them who remembered wished my b'dae.
ali was the very first person to wish me.
n the most remembered wish i will never forget was rahman's.
hahahaha....
crazy him!!!
he and one of his fren sang me a b'dae song.
both of them have a lurvely voice.
n at the end of the part, rahman purposely shouted my name "imah".
at first i didn't know it was him until the next day he called.
hee....
the other one was hakim.
was so shocked when he called me.
thought he would forget my b'dae but then he did remembered.
very sweet.
n wat i know is he owe me a pressie n a treat.
hahaha...
wonder when will i ever get that.
and on my b'dae day itself,
i never get any b'dae presents.
but then its the thoughts tt counts, so im hepi enuff i got lots of sweet b'dae wishes.
thx everione!!!

28 June
this day i got one b'dae present.
it was frm my sis.
tt's the present i got i got my sis.
nice?
hee....
1 July
this day i got another present frm my second sis.
she shared wif my future bro in law.
hee...
the best b'dae present i ever got.
thenkiu so much abg acitz n kak ekin!!!
lurve u guys!!!!

n today im just waiting for my other presents.
hee...
n not forgetting my free treats frm diff ppl.
so i'll just keep waiting n waiting.
todae i was actually supossed to be getting my b'dae treat frm ansari.
he wanted to treat me to a movie.
but he have yet sms me.
so just have to wait till he sms me then.
i'll update more soon aite.
have to go.
nedd to figure out how to put music into my new n lurvely mp3.
toodles~

2006-06-26T22:36:00.000+08:00

back to sch!!!!
todae the sch reopens n it was such a long n tired day.
sch ends at 1.20 cos teachers had their contact time.
but i didn't go home after tt.
stayed in sch watch my frens practised their tarian.
until 4 i went off to mendaki till 6.
veri tiring.
but at least i get to understand the topic circles.
after mendaki i waited for the girls to finish their tarian till 6.30.
and i reached home at 7.30.
reli had a long day today.
but yest i reli had fun.

ali and the gang gave me a surprise celebration at changi.
unfortunately fela, syiqah n ahzrin weren't there.
and then it didn't turn out to be a reli happy celebration
cos many peeps were feeling down.
but nvm its ok.
i feel so touched wif the celebration.
THX GUYS!!!!
they bought for me the chocolate fudge prima deli cake.
and my dear itah baked for me brownies.
THX SWEETY ITAH!!!
the brownies are reli good!
a veri good stuff.
hee....
nieways i will post some pixies when they sent to me.
waiting for the pixies frm itah n the rest.
n by the way thx to everybody who came to the 'surprise' celebration yest.
n tenkiu so much to ali for organising this celebration.
so sweet of u.
k lah.
till here then.
will update n post the pixies soon aite.
toodles~